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[narilly]

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Haha! You girls crack me up! Hey, that pool boy would be one lucky fella...ahem.

As long as he waited on us hand and foot he would do fine.

Guess what?! My mini is here!! I call it my mini Narilly

I am going to set it up now.

[j-vo]

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Mini Nar!!! So Great!!!!!

[narilly]

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Well, I am using my mini. I can actually see the screen, yay! What a difference!

I am so glad we are doing so well. What a lucky bunch we are.

Pav, have a great night.

Ava, I am looking forward to a gazette soon.

Talk to you ladies soon, big hugs :l

[little beagle]

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Glad you got your mini Nar.

[narilly]

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Thanks B xo

[Pavati]

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Evening, All:

Pool boys?! Retirement in Melbourne with the Loamers? I'm in. We might have to winter in the tropics - Patrice? Any suggestions?

LB - Thanks for that post. And J-Vo, you said it, too - I DO feel like I am waking up to life. I feel like it is SLOW going, which is why it is so great to have NS and LB here - you give me hope that it gets even brighter. I keep thinking of something John Kelly said - dopamine receptors can take up to a year to heal once the alcohol is gone. Even though I truly feel more ME every day, I still feel sort of flat and blah. I know, that is life, but I know, too, that longer term sober people report feeling better after 7 - 10 months. I'm keeping my blind faith going and emulating sober people rather than giving in to any temptation to go back to that "10 - 1" feeling that Ellie described.

Interesting that I had a very similar conversation with my counselor today - about how ALL of life is better through the sober path. It is better because I am sober (and therefore not hungover, guilty, remorseful, shameful), but also because this journey has caused me to do a lot of soul searching and work on myself and relationships in other ways. I know it is all intertwined, but PHEW! So happy to be where I am.

NS - That's right - emotions all over the place, and different each time. I think that I will mostly try to avoid the completely alcohol-focused events (like wine tasting) as much as I can - too boring and too tempting at the same time. I have been hiking with friends and offering other daytime activities that have less to do with booze.

Mini - Nar - Have fun. I have an iPad but it is from work and I'll have to give it back. I am paranoid about going on MWO on anything related to work...

Jane - Interesting dream. (BTW I actually DID lose a car in NYC, but that's another story). I hope Daisy comes back with an interpretation. Good on you for getting through that dinner with your dad. I love your posts - your descriptions are so vivid.

Giraffe - Seeing Germany with sober eyes - hiking the Alps. Sounds wonderful. Check out Rahul's posts in the nest for sober travel inspiration - he never thought it would be possible, but he's having a gas (he's an occasional Moamer - maybe he'll stop by).

Dot - Hope you're around - what's new with your parent's house?

Ava - Missing you, my sweet. Is Farquad back from the flu? Coffee man been ringing?

Mossy - Good to see you pop in.

Rox - How's tricks?

Call out to Humble and LC - if you're reading, come back! We miss you.

xo
Pav

[Pavati]

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Hi, Nar! I see that green light...

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Hi loamers

Kind of a quick check in but you never know with me.

Well i had another date and it was lovely, he is very attentive and caring and man he makes me so many cups of tea. i am so not used to being waited on. More the used and abused but those were my drinking days and i know i deserve the best now. Taking it slow but its nice. He asked when he could come around to my place and im like "not for awhile", i have never subjected my children to men that i have seen so that will be weeks away but its nice.

Oh god work today, Farquad came back to work yesterday after his man flu (i was off) and i get to work today and guess what, my computer had been moved. I think i seen a red rage go through me. It was not farquad that moved it, it was a woman that has just come back from maternity leave. i was livid and she was off for the day. So i moved it back and will wait until she comes back tomorrow. if i am away they can move the computer to where they want but they can also return it back to where i want it. God i work with some fuck wits, i want to leave but i will lose too many benefits so i have to wait 3.5 years to do so although i can get a job in a different part of the hospital which i am keeping an eye out on.

A botox patient died and i had to ring the family and have a chat. I see these patients every three months for their botox (medicinal) and sometimes it is like losing a family member. he was a lovely man, his daughter told me he liked looking at my breasts so every time he came in i wore a V-neck top, well a girl has to do......... He had a form of parkinsons that caused him to be in a wheelchair, lose the use of his arms and legs and the capacity to talk and 6 years to die.

I also had a patient come in that is a frequent flyer as i call her. She is an alcoholic who drinks 2 bottles of wine a day (so she tells the drs) and needed an EEG to check for seizure activity. I went to organise her test and found out she had been moved to Intensive Care and we needed to do this test for prognostication. I felt so damn sad and lucky at the same time that that woman could have been me or any of us. I have spoken to her before and she is a lovely 54 year old woman who is an alcoholic. they try and detox her and she tries to drink the hand sanitisation gel for the al content, needs a patient attendant to sit with her. I hope she makes it but i have my doubts this time. Then there was the 74 year old alcoholic man who sliced his leg open when he fell on something and ended up in intensive care. Its like i am being shown that this could have been me and makes my determination so much greater.

So a great day at work and it only started today.

Everyone is sounding so good. Girls now i dont mind the retirement home and a pool boy each thank you but we will have to move to Queensland as it is warm there all winter, not like bloody freezing melbourne, so i will start looking now for say about twenty years time and we can all retire quite happily. What are you going to do with your DH's though?

I think this has been all about me so sorry about that.

Pav im still here of course, keeping on keeping on, im on a happy streak atm which is nice but i do totally relate to the highs and lows of not drinking. The highs are the best.

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[available]

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Hi loamers

Kind of a quick check in but you never know with me.

Well i had another date and it was lovely, he is very attentive and caring and man he makes me so many cups of tea. i am so not used to being waited on. More the used and abused but those were my drinking days and i know i deserve the best now. Taking it slow but its nice. He asked when he could come around to my place and im like "not for awhile", i have never subjected my children to men that i have seen so that will be weeks away but its nice.

Oh god work today, Farquad came back to work yesterday after his man flu (i was off) and i get to work today and guess what, my computer had been moved. I think i seen a red rage go through me. It was not farquad that moved it, it was a woman that has just come back from maternity leave. i was livid and she was off for the day. So i moved it back and will wait until she comes back tomorrow. if i am away they can move the computer to where they want but they can also return it back to where i want it. God i work with some fuck wits, i want to leave but i will lose too many benefits so i have to wait 3.5 years to do so although i can get a job in a different part of the hospital which i am keeping an eye out on.

A botox patient died and i had to ring the family and have a chat. I see these patients every three months for their botox (medicinal) and sometimes it is like losing a family member. he was a lovely man, his daughter told me he liked looking at my breasts so every time he came in i wore a V-neck top, well a girl has to do......... He had a form of parkinsons that caused him to be in a wheelchair, lose the use of his arms and legs and the capacity to talk and 6 years to die.

I also had a patient come in that is a frequent flyer as i call her. She is an alcoholic who drinks 2 bottles of wine a day (so she tells the drs) and needed an EEG to check for seizure activity. I went to organise her test and found out she had been moved to Intensive Care and we needed to do this test for prognostication. I felt so damn sad and lucky at the same time that that woman could have been me or any of us. I have spoken to her before and she is a lovely 54 year old woman who is an alcoholic. they try and detox her and she tries to drink the hand sanitisation gel for the al content, needs a patient attendant to sit with her. I hope she makes it but i have my doubts this time. Then there was the 74 year old alcoholic man who sliced his leg open when he fell on something and ended up in intensive care. Its like i am being shown that this could have been me and makes my determination so much greater.

So a great day at work and it only started today.

Everyone is sounding so good. Girls now i dont mind the retirement home and a pool boy each thank you but we will have to move to Queensland as it is warm there all winter, not like bloody freezing melbourne, so i will start looking now for say about twenty years time and we can all retire quite happily. What are you going to do with your DH's though?

I think this has been all about me so sorry about that.

Pav im still here of course, keeping on keeping on, im on a happy streak atm which is nice but i do totally relate to the highs and lows of not drinking. The highs are the best.

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[patrice]

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Hi girls,
Yes lots of lovely tropical islands round here!!
I love my iPad mini - I don't really use my lap top much anymore..
Day 14 and today felt short tempered and lethargic, my most challenging day so far
Might be related to lack of sleep. Today was the first time I thought I'd really like a drink and that thought stuck in my mind for quite a while....I've cooked some healthy food, drinking my water but quite frankly I really can't wait to go bed, I would go now except its only 5.40 pm!! I'm planning on taking a sleeping aid tonight, this morning was awake at 3.40 am.... Grrrrr, and the grumpiest, most frustrated and annoyed person...... For no reason??? Just thought I might be feeling a bit more fab today!
Hope everyone is good and rockin along
Happy to be sober
Take care girls
Patrice

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Big congrats Pat on 2 weeks that is a huge achievement, very proud of you and you sound so positive.

God even today i wanted to kill people but i just put it down to working with fuck wits. I do know my moods were all over the place and anyone who looked at me wrong was an idiot. That will go and some other bloody emotion will hit you. Ride them out.

why cant you go to bed at 5.40? i used to, if i had that urge to drink there was no safer place to be than in bed. My sleep was crap for weeks and weeks (sorry) but now i sleep like the dead and it is so good but i still have troubles sometimes.

So is GRUMPY your new name then? Keep it up Pat and keep posting if you feel the urge to drink, it doesnt last long, not as long as a hangover and depression and guilt.

xxxx

[patrice]

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It could be the moon!!
Love to go to bed now but.... Son isn't home from school yet!!
Thanks, yes I do feel proud
X

[daisy45]

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Jane, I checked my book last night - not totally clear......
Wind represents change.
Driving a car, that you have a destinational path.......the fact that you are driving from the back seat and reversing could be you feeling you are doubtful and holding back from taking the wheel.......maybe overwhemed? Could there be guilt surrounding you achieving what you really want?
The only thing I could find relating to your second one was; keys represent the key to a particular situation in your life.; mother symbolises feminine principles and maternal feelings of compassion.; Door- above all else, doors symbolise opportunities. Locked door means you should find the key. If open, make sure you do not miss an excellent opening leading to your aim, goal or object in life.
Jane, reading between the lines, both your dreams appear to say the same thing - what do you think?

[daisy45]

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Ava, so glad things are going well with your man - better getting to know him before any family introductions......
The saga of the mobile computer.....could you not accidentally superglue it to your desk?
Pat, I was gung-ho the first couple of weeks, then the excitement went a bit.....it is just different.....we are making changes, maybe time to reach outside our norm and try something new....I will if you will.....haha

Going to the gym soon - not been for a week....
So happy to get my 30 days! Haven't managed to do that for 2 years.....

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Congrats Daisy i seen your post on roll call and 30 days, well you just want to tell the world really but what would they care! Here its huge and so it should be and you can only go up, unless you have those mod thoughts that my Aussie friend Petrel had over the weekend. I had them too, we all did. To be the only one that could mod and do it. I know i showed everyone how good i could moderate, back to 2 bottles in no time. I am chuffed for you Daisy and i know you have the determination to keep this up (oh and you are on a mighty great thread to do it).

God the computer, i nearly pushed it onto the ground and thought that there would not be a problem then. i mean, i dont even have a flat screen, it is an old box screen. technology moves in the hospital, a bit like the employees.