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[j-vo]

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One more thing...Oh, you'll be glad when this LOAM goes back to work on Thursday!!!

NS, as I was typing something to someone else, she asked me if I was tempted today. I can honestly say, "No." Then I thought about this. My anxiety about the beast is around when I think about a future situation. Like, "Will I be able to handle that?" "Will he get me?" But with today, I had no anxiety about not drinking. No anxiety that I'd be tempted. I think I do have more confidence in the actual situation than I have when I think about it. That probably makes no sense. But it wasn't a struggle for me. The choice is off the table.

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Just a comment from an email i received from my SIL. She is trying to organise the catch up for us and said "i dont want to make it awkward for you as i know you are not drinking". FFS i thought. It is not about me being awkward as i wont be, it is about accepting that i am not drinking on her part and not trying to force me to have a drink. At least she has it in her head and maybe i can entice her to try it, even though she says she is not a heavy drinker. Like you Jvo my SIL is turning more evil as the years go by. Funny how we used to be happy go lucky drinking then it turns to crap.

Thanks for putting that song in my head also NOT! I think we all have a good case of herpes Jvo and i want to keep mine forever!

I am not very good at speeches but glad you liked it. I was cleaning the microwave before listening to Snow Patrol and thought "is this really it for me", is this my life from now on, forever and ever? Then i smiled to myself and said aloud "yes it is". It is good not to lie to myself daily anymore. God i am nostalgic today! Like you Jvo i think everyone will be glad for me to go back to work also but the good thing is i can get on at work!

Back to cleaning and my life!

Oh another clanger from my son Tye when he was about 6. He came running out of the bathroom and told me that his sister had been drawing on her fanny. She was getting pubic hair!

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j-vo;1604827 wrote: ... it is great to feel in control. Sometimes I think the beast is still sitting on my shoulder, though. I hate to say I'm not confident, but it's true. Not all the time, but feelings and thoughts come and go, like, what if he gets me. I certainly would not go get him, so I guess I am in control.
It seems to me that by definition, if you're addicted to something, it is in a way always "sitting on your shoulder". You might sometimes feel its weight but like anything that is always there, you'll get used to it and it generally won't bother you. Staying aware that is there can save you and keep you in control - as long as you don't feed it, YOU are its master, not the other way around.

j-vo;1604831 wrote: One more thing...as I was typing something to someone else, she asked me if I was tempted today. I can honestly say, "No." Then I thought about this. My anxiety about the beast is around when I think about a future situation. Like, "Will I be able to handle that?" "Will he get me?" But with today, I had no anxiety about not drinking. No anxiety that I'd be tempted. I think I do have more confidence in the actual situation than I have when I think about it. That probably makes no sense. But it wasn't a struggle for me. The choice is off the table.

I've found that my anticipation about upcoming situations was always much, much worse than the reality so it makes complete sense to me. Early on that may be useful because while you're worrying, you make plans so that is good and probably part of why the actual event goes smoothly. Once you've taken to heart that drinking is no longer an option, the anxiety decreases because you already know the outcome. You still need to do some planning but not having to go through all the angst makes a big difference in how you feel.

So many of you LOAMs are truly getting this - j-vo, Pav, HR, DB, Mr. G, and Ava (with one of the best 30 day stretches and reports thereof I've ever seen ) - you sound just great. I don't bet but if I did, I would put good money on all of you :l. I hope others pay attention to what you're doing and jump in and do the same - it's working !

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Welcome River, we are a great group of women for sure, welcome!
Ava- lol, that is funny! Also the disease thing "yes, I've had my STD for 35 years and I'm going to go and have high risk unprotected sex again" yup, that's what taking a drink is like for us!
J-Vo, Humble, my SIL has no problem with AL. She is the kind of person that can have one and stop or not. Whatever she feels like. She is a normal drinker. I always have to be so careful drinking with her because I get wasted meanwhile she is in total control and I look like an ass!

Anyway, next time I see her I am not going to be drinking anyway.
Pav- glad your doing so well.

J-Vo, Calgary is beautiful. As much as I complain about the weather, I love it here.
Hello to SL, Sugar, Star, everyone.
Talk soon,

[narilly]

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Oh and I don't drink.

I'm goin for my 30 days too NS!

Talk soon,

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Ava said:
I was cleaning the microwave before listening to Snow Patrol and thought "is this really it for me", is this my life from now on, forever and ever? Then i smiled to myself and said aloud "yes it is". It is good not to lie to myself daily anymore.
LIKE, LIKE, LIKE

Thanks NS!!! How do you come up with the right thing to say every single time!!!!!!! You make TOTAL SENSE TO ME!

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narilly;1604863 wrote: Oh and I don't drink.

I'm goin for my 30 days too NS!

Talk soon,

I'm so glad you are ready to chase after your sister LOAMS, Narilly! Let us all stay exactly as many days apart as we are right now and like Byrdie says, it won't be long until we look back at when we all got sober together in the first half of this decade .

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Pavati;1604593 wrote: Oh, I loved this, J-Vo. MWO is one of my supplements that I MUST have. I know this is true, and it is cemented by reading the relapse thread. I'm glad you could find that NS (by the way, HOW did you find it? Is there a search function here?)

Hi, Pav

If you touch (or hover the mouse) over the green or gray dot next to a person's name, some options come up. One is to view the public profile. If you choose that, there is an option to find all threads started by that person.

There is a search window on the homepage but I've never had any success with it.

Hope that works for you.

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We are going to DO IT sisters! 2 more days till the New Year, let's start it sober.
ARE YOU IN?
Let's do it!
Humble, Pav, NS, Star, J-Vo, Ava, Dottie, SL, G(man),K9, R4Life, everyone. Let's do it!

Looking forward to an AF New Year!

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Oh Nar i am in with a bang! Only 1 more day for me so i will lead the way shall I while holding hands with Mr G. I dont even want to smell a glass of wine let alone drink one.

Today while cleaning, i put away my favourite wine glass of all time to be with the other glasses for when visitors want a drink. Boy have we been through some horrendous times together, mind you so have a lot of other broken glasses. I did find a nice one that i can have my iced tea in tomorrow as it is a special occasion or my juice. Have my drinks all planned.

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Awesome Ava! Ya, those icky wine glasses! AND that stinky wine, yuk!

This is exciting eh? We can do this together, all of us. What a great way to bring in the New Year!

Eloise, Iclem, Kradle, you too. Join our AF New Year!

Yeah!

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j-vo;1604831 wrote:
NS, as I was typing something to someone else, she asked me if I was tempted today. I can honestly say, "No." Then I thought about this. My anxiety about the beast is around when I think about a future situation. Like, "Will I be able to handle that?" "Will he get me?" But with today, I had no anxiety about not drinking. No anxiety that I'd be tempted. I think I do have more confidence in the actual situation than I have when I think about it. That probably makes no sense. But it wasn't a struggle for me. The choice is off the table.

Again - this makes SO MUCH SENSE to me. This is it. I have not had too hard a struggle in the moments (a few longing looks) but I am afraid of the possible temptation that might be coming. I know that the option to drink is off the table, but I worry that one day I will wake up and not know that any more. After all, that is the seed of relapse to read the posts in that thread. How do I make sure that seed stays unplanted!!?? This is how I approach my big birthdays, too - with anxiety and worry. Then after all it is just another day. What a waste!

This is where two of the AA sayings help me. One we talk about all the time here, thinking one day at a time. The other is the serenity prayer - grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. I never much thought about that last part, but now I think it is important. It is just as important to recognize the things you actually CAN change - like the mindset and attitude that will help me be sober - as the things you can't.

Ava - your speech was brilliant and you crack me up as usual. River - settle in and join us - this is a great place to get and stay sober.

Anyway - I'm feeling strong here at the end of Day 28, and you are all sounding strong as well. I am IN for a sober 2014 - and will be working on my 30 day speech with my writers tomorrow (hah). I am actually excited about a sober 2014 and that is a GREAT feeling. I owe it to all of you here who support me, keep me laughing, and have the stamina to read my ramblings. See you all tomorrow when we will discuss at length our plans for sober New Year's Eves. xo

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Hah - you thought I went to bed... I'll be you'll be glad when I'm back to work, too.

No Sugar - you DO always know the right thing to say. Funny that the same passage resonated with us both. Thanks for the cheerleading - we will ALL get there!

Way to go, Narilly. I would have been with Humble, but instead am following her path as I made the conscious decision that moderation would work (HAH). Let's just stay the exact same amount of days apart as we are now, ok?

[Eloise]

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Yes, I am definitely in for a sober start to 2014 Narilly!

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The earth has finally turned enough that j-vo and Ava can share their 30-day AF accomplishment for a few hours. Congratulations to both of you! xx-NS
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