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[j-vo]

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little beagle;1681403 wrote: I am feeling so crap this morning.
But I have been reading and enjoying everyone's posts. Lots of encouraging things happening, unexpected people stopping by.
Sam I hope we hear more from you.
Kailey just think of all of us if you struggle. That's what I did in my early days. I remember that I was going on my first camping trip and usually we drank on these trips. Usually? Hell, ALWAYS!! So there we are in the pickup driving along and I'm fighting with myself. It won't hurt. It's just for the weekend. No one will know. I can just stop again Monday. Just one six pack of my favorite beer isn't goint to hurt anyone. But I thought of my friends here who didn't drink and all of the promises I made to myself that I was going to do what ever it took to turn my life around. So we get there, me grouchy as all get out because I was craving that damned beer so badly and hubby bewildered because I was being a total bitch. A little time passed, the craving subsided and I look around. The magic of the beautiful place takes hold of my soul and I really open my eyes. That was my first real win over this monster. But without the image of the wonderful, supportive peopke on MWO I'm not sure if I could have survived that overwhelming, powerful craving. I did. With the help of my friends.


That's what its all about for me.

That was a huge jump for you and win. Those kinds of experiences that we have to go through build and with it, comes confidence and the "good stuff" they always talk about. Sometimes it takes more than others. And you're right, LB, we can lean on each other. This is why we are here. :h

[j-vo]

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Momofthree,
So glad you joined. As I told you, we're winning here. The days, the recovery, the happiness that we all deserve and we're doing it together. Post here daily and ask for help when you need it. Post when you feel moody, happy, or any emotion. When we're down, that's especially an important time to post. Welcome!

LB, I wish you weren't feeling like crap. Physically? What's up?

[lifechange]

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Hi again, Lovelies!!!

Daisy!!!! Congratulations on 60 day! You have worked so damned hard to get here and I'm very happy for you. You've just never given up trying and now you are really succeeding. This sober lifestyle suits you!! In 3 days, you'll be past your 1st personal best and then onward and upward.

Welcome back Momof3!! Great to have you here on the Loamer's thread. Hopefully Ava aka Lunatic Linda will come around soon to tell you of what she did the first weeks/months-- there's a lot to be said for posting here all the time, in good and bad times--like NS said, come here first and write it all out in detail. It helps so much.

NS, another great post from the blog you recommended touched me today, about creating our new stories, our new lives...http://afteralcohol.wordpress.com/page/4/ "Once upon a time everyone lived happily ever after". Her blog is really good reading. I hope you have a great day tomorrow-- without Internet!!

J-vo, I loved your post last night with questions of who we all are-- how would it be if we met in person, how would we interact. You're sounding really good, grounded in your 101 days..

LB, I hope your crappy start to the day turns around for you! I wish I could fly over and give you a huge :l. Or clean a couple of properties for you.

Elouise, NO WANDERING!! Have you read the above mentioned blog? It is so well written, so honest and pertinent to our af journey-- it will draw you in and inspire you. It has me, at least.

xoxo to you all and see you later.

Kailey, hold tight tonight!! Do whatever you have to do to get through this Day 7. You definitely don't want to do that difficult 1st day and 1st week again. I know Friday night is difficult for you-- so stick around here-- read the above mentioned blog--you'll like it, too!:h

[Kailey]

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lifechange;1681476 wrote: Kailey, hold tight tonight!! Do whatever you have to do to get through this Day 7. You definitely don't want to do that difficult 1st day and 1st week again. I know Friday night is difficult for you-- so stick around here-- read the above mentioned blog--you'll like it, too!:h

One of my last drunken acts in the middle of the night was to order Antabuse, which arrived yesterday. I do not want to take it, it scares the crap out of me! But, I did put one in my purse this morning as insurance. If I start to waiver today I'm going to take one. I'm on no other meds, hate meds in general, but this is a pivotal time for me. If I fail now I don't know if I would ever muster the strength to try again.

That's not true, I guess, I will never give up, but each time is harder. I really want this to be the final quit. Anyone see the harm of taking a pill, or maybe half, without being under a doctor's supervision? I'm crystal clear that I would not drink while under the influence of the medication, so no worries there.

[Pavati]

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Did someone say party? I'm IN!

Nar - Way to go, my friend! 90 days looks great on you - and you've taken the choice OFF the table, right?? I love having you here on this journey with me - you are positive but real, and very funny.

Daisy - 60 days of kicking ass. We have the hiking bug in common, and I know that this IS your last quit. Stay strong, and keep keeping us motivated with your posts.

Kailey - Whoot - 7 days. As the Nest Mums like to say, that proves you can be sober each day of the week. I suggest that even if you don't feel wobbly you get on and post before you leave work as extra reinforcement. It is amazing how those cars/legs can get minds of their own when passing a liquor store (that's a bottle shop to some of you, right??) Friday is just another day. I got through plenty of first Fridays with a pint of my favorite ice cream. I still felt that I wanted a treat for the weekend, and I LOVE ice cream. I also added a scheduled yoga class right through the Friday witching hour. I felt relaxed, relieved and strong after it, so it quelled the cravings.

Mo3 - Welcome back, and welcome to the Gloamer thread. There are a lot of us here with various fits and starts, and a lot of us with kids of one sort or another. As someone wrote today (in the nest? here?), there are SO MANY additional benefits to giving up drinking other than the obvious. My being more present for my kids is one of them. People would say that but I didn't understand it until I experienced it. Now I can't believe how many interactions with them I was either buzzed, hungover, or contemplating my drink for the evening. When we first started Ava and I competed for the most posting (she won by far!) - which is how I spent my time. Posting, reading, reading other places and blogs, and watching documentaries on alcohol. I recommend that blog that LC put a link to (And Everything Afterward). She is a great writer and is only about five months sober to it really resonates with those of us newly sober.

Ava - WHAT A B......?! Sorry you have to deal with those people, but I am so glad that you could do it with confidence and control now that you are sober. You can also plan your way out of that situation with that confidence and control. I hope you get what you want out of the situation, and I hope your Friday didn't stink.

Eloise - HAH, I read that like that, too. Just for a brief moment... Those thoughts still come, but they are fewer for sure. Hang tight!

And I agree with NoSugar - we have had fits and starts here, and know this is a process. No harsh judgement if you relapse (although there will be some tough love). Come back if you are lurking and wanting to jump back in.

I hope to have a hike today - the summer weather around her stinks. Cold, foggy and windy all through July and usually August.

Happy Friday, Gloamers.

Pav

[Pavati]

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And I hope you get well soon, LB!

[lifechange]

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Kailey, I haven't taken Anatabuse and don't know so much about it, but it seems like it's helped a lot of people. I know K9 used it a lot-- and one of the Loamer's took it as well recently when feeling waivery-- I bet if you PM K9, she'll give you a pretty quick reply. I think, if I had it and was feeling like I needed it, I would take it.

[Ginger999]

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Lots going on around here today! I love this thread and all the people here. Congrats to all of you racking up the days. I practically lived on MWO those first few weeks. I read, read, read and I learned so much about myself and my alkie tendencies.

I'll be staying close this next week even if I don't post much. Heading out for another week trip to Lake Coeur D'Alene. I'll be with varying degrees of drinkers but my soda pop and my plan is packed! I know where to come and what to do if I get wiggly!

Thank you all for being here. No matter where you are in your quit your posts are invaluable to me.

[lifechange]

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PAV!! I'm loving your summer break and that it's giving you so much time to spend with us! Did you read the 100 day post on the blog we like? It made me think of so many of us here-- how much we are gaining without the ugly influence of alcohol.

My girls just finished school and I've taken the next 2 weeks off of work to just hang out and do whatever we want to do! I imagine it will be a lot of bike riding and swimming in lakes and making ice cream-- I'm SO glad I won't be wasting my precious time trying to plan when I'm going to drink, or worse yet and more probable, drinking through the whole break. In the end I needed to drink to do anything with the girls. I was so f****** up that a weekend with them seemed to me to be never ending, unbearable, it made me uptight and nervous and I would skip my morning coffee so that I could begin with a beer at 930. I tried to keep an even pace so that I was always buzzed but never falling over drunk-- of course that didn't work out. And most days, I had to have a nap at noon or one that they couldn't wake me up from. It shames me to no end--but I can't make up for what's already been done. I CAN however make sure that it NEVER EVER happens again. And these 2 weeks we will fully enjoy--

[lifechange]

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Have a wonderful time on your vacation, Ginger! Are you camping?

[Ginger999]

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LC, We have a travel trailer now days. Used to be backpacks and tents. Still my fav but the old body perfers the comforts of a TT. We will be hiking, golfing and hanging out at the lake. One of the group is bringing their boat. It was reaching triple digits back home should be in the low 90s at the lake.

[lifechange]

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Here what you're sayin' with regards to the bod-- sounds like a fabulous time! Does Doggy Ginger like to swim? She looks like she could be a swimmer..

[momofthree]

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Thank you so much everyone, it is so comforting to know all this wonderful support is here. Today I just have this blah feeling settle over me. I woke up feeling like shit, no kidding, and when my husband went to work I took 3 Tylenol, drank lots of water and some fresh juice I made and I've been cooking healthy meals for the kids and having picnics with them. I had my mother call and voice her disappointment to over the phone and yelled back at her, which I rarely do. As disrespectful to me as she is, I still treat her with respect but today I simply had enough. We just lost our family cat and she was berating me for that. The cat is an outdoor cat and with the move, something got him two nights ago. I should have done this, I should have done that... today I just feel blah. I have no desire to drink right now, I normally get my cravings between 2-4 days after I binge. All I know is I'm just mentally exhausted right now and I have to stop putting so much into someone who doesn't deserve it. All I need to worry about is myself and my family, they come first.

[Ginger999]

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She love the water to splash in but swimming isn't her thing. She'd rather be rooting around the water's edge looking for critters. She must have a little terrier in her!

[NoSugar]

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momofthree;1681520 wrote: Thank you so much everyone, it is so comforting to know all this wonderful support is here. Today I just have this blah feeling settle over me. I woke up feeling like shit, no kidding, and when my husband went to work I took 3 Tylenol, drank lots of water and some fresh juice I made and I've been cooking healthy meals for the kids and having picnics with them. I had my mother call and voice her disappointment to over the phone and yelled back at her, which I rarely do. As disrespectful to me as she is, I still treat her with respect but today I simply had enough. We just lost our family cat and she was berating me for that. The cat is an outdoor cat and with the move, something got him two nights ago. I should have done this, I should have done that... today I just feel blah. I have no desire to drink right now, I normally get my cravings between 2-4 days after I binge. All I know is I'm just mentally exhausted right now and I have to stop putting so much into someone who doesn't deserve it. All I need to worry about is myself and my family, they come first.

Hi,

I know that with 3 little kids you can't exactly hibernate the way I did but for awhile, you might want to construct a safe little cocoon for you and your family. Do what you need to do for your family but other than that, treat yourself gently, like you would treat one of your children who is sick. It feels odd and selfish to do that but I think it is really important, especially at the beginning (although I must admit, I've kept up many of my self-care habits because I like them so much ).

Maybe you can ask your husband for a little extra back-up so you can have a bit more time to focus on you and your needs.

When you're stronger, you can work on your relationship with your mom.

Hang in there this weekend and you'll see how wonderful a Monday morning really can be!

:h NS