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[Starfish1]

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Pavati;1684671 wrote:

Star - Welcome back. We are here for you - whatever you plan or need, ask us. I read something about addiction that made sense to me - addicts use the language of shame on themselves, and that only makes it worse. You say that you're mad at yourself - but let's suppose someone you love messed up. You would let them know you were disappointed, but you would have compassion and would try to help them find a solution to the mistake. Maybe you can be kind to yourself - and that might help you support yourself better as you find your path to being without alcohol.

Thanks, Pav :l and everyone else for the warm returns. I am so happy to be back. I taken the day off work today, to give myself one more day of less stress and to help my dtr get ready for college. We are about to head out to run some errands, so I am short of time to post right now, but have read back over some of your posts from last night and this morning and am so happy to be back among such strong women.

Special shout outs to Nar and Daisy. AMAZING work, ladies! And I know how much work it has been! Great job.

Love you all to bits :l

[narilly]

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Morning Ladies!

Oh yeah, Oh Yeah, Uh huh....100 Days for the Narilster!

I feel great today. Glad to be AF. This means I have not drank the whole month of May and June and almost July. How cool is that?
Loved waking up NOT hungover on a Monday and with clean sheets. A great start to the week.

Wags, nice to read your post yesterday.

NS, Love The Super Beagle, That is me today too! Come on Lil B and all the Loamers, lets take on the world! Ok, maybe not the world but at least our part of it.

xo Star. Lets kick this AL thing in the Ass. Listen to the Bubble Hour, it might help. It really helped me. I listen to it every week now and sometimes everyday.

Talk to you later ladies.

I will talk to you later. Thank you for the good wishes.

[narilly]

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Cross post Jane. Thank yew, Thank yew. I LOVE cupcakes. Are they homemade?
Big hug from me!

[Eloise]

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sorry to be so invisible lately just busy busy for 2 works with a little workie!
I am still reading to keep things in the forefront of my mind and my classes are going great.
So happy for you Nar!!

[lifechange]

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Hello lovely Ladies!!

YaYYYY Nar!! 100 days is amazing! I am so happy for you for this accomplishment. :alf: We're all dancing and partying and eating those yummy cupcakes with you!

and Wags, yesterday was 80 for you!!!! This group of Loamers is rockin' the boat!!

Daisy, I really enjoyed reading your thoughtful posts this weekend. I agree that it's a bummer when it's slow here on the weekends. That's usually a time when I have time to hang out and chat-- have you ever checked out the army people? I'm sure you have-- they're usually around a lot on the weekends. Great going on 70 days!!

I love Super Beagle!! What a great image for our LB!!:l I'm glad you had a good time in the French Quarter-- difficult, I can imagine, but good to have new experiences there, no?

:welcome: Back, Starfish!!! I was so happy to see you here again this weekend. I was recently wondering how you were doing. It sounds like you're full of new energy and resolve for your af life! I look forward to hearing more from you.

J-vo! I have to go back and look for your post about baseball-- I missed it! It doesn't pay to be scarce here-- so many exciting adventures missed. I'm glad you're fully enjoying your summer break-- you continue to sound grounded, strong and full of laughter and life. I appreciate your support very much!

Hi SL! Hi Ginger!!

Hi Pav! Swimming up in the NoCA ocean is gutsy! I love cold water swimming though-- We were at a lake yesterday that boasts having the cleanest water of all those in our area-- and I have to say, it was wonderful! I'm actually a bit afraid of water and hate swimming in pools (unless there's a great slide!), but the lake, or a nice ocean or river! Ahhhh.. I haven't read, "Dry" yet-- but just got a copy of, "Lit" in the mail today.

Hi Ava!! Hi Jane!! Hi Momof3!! Hi NS!! Hi Pat-- are you over the flu?? Hi everyone checking in here today!
Stay close. Read and post like maniacs, if need be. I noticed, though I was very busy with the kids this weekend, not being here was dangerous. I'm too early in not to be taking the time each and every day to read and connect with all of you. Hanging out at the lake was very tempting and I KNOW it would have been easier if I'd had you all closer. It pisses me off when I lose my attitude of gratitude and have to "white knuckle" it-- or feel like I'm missing out on something. Today it's been easier. but I still have a nagging in the back of my mind. I have to get that in order before heading to the lake again tomorrow.

Hugs and love to you all!!

[lifechange]

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X-posts, Eloise!!! I knew I missed one of the Lovelies!!:h I'm glad your classes are going well. I can't remember if you're taking or teaching? I'd still love to see another of your works someday!

[j-vo]

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This was a really interesting post from "Stick a Fork In It" blog that I could relate to so much! She talks about introversion, and how we may not realize how draining it can be on introverts to exert so much of themselves when in situations that require "a lot" of us. Any social activities (my extreme struggle), work and being around people all day...not necessarily the teaching part, but the adults, meetings, parents...and anything that requires us to go outside of our real personalities. I know I've always been exhausted after a social event, I come home from work exhausted, and I guess I push my personality limits to the max at times. Now that makes sense!

Stick a fork in me ... I'm done | My life without alcohol

[Ginger999]

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Jane, Sorry you are feeling so yucky. I can't speak to the 200 days but I can speak to feeling depressed when I return from a trip. I'm still trying to put my finger on why I'm like that. No matter if it's the best trip ever or if it's the worst, I'm always down when I get back home. I'm hoping my alky brain will eventually recover and I won't struggle so much with the depression. Sending you a cyber-hug and "feel better" vibes. Take care - Ginger

[Starfish1]

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Hi LC! Thanks, I am glad to be back. Thanks for thinking of me. I am happy you are doing so well these days.
Jane :l wish I could give you a real hug! Hang in there sweetie! You are doing great, even though you don't feel like it right now

[lifechange]

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dear Jane,
I didn't see your post until now! We must have crossed.
I'm sorry you're feeling so down. A BIG hug via internet from me.:l I also don't have anywhere near 200 days, but I sure understand how you're feeling. I love having a friend like you! Just exactly like you. I wish I had some great advice-- but I never really know what to do when I'm feeling so down. Then someone says something that clicks and I try and I begin to feel better and I forget immediately what I was told. Or what I did. Love to you! Strength to you!

J-vo-- could really relate to the blog you posted. I am also an introvert posing as an extrovert, as are my mom and my sister. Funny how the AL seemed to help for awhile, but in the end turned me (and prob, a lot of us) into the most introverted loner. When I can accept how I am, and what I need, I really love my time alone. I'm not ashamed.

[Kailey]

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Just a quick check in from work to wish Nar a huge congratulations on 100 days!!

Jane, I see you are down in the dumps. I'm sorry, that sucks! I use the mood tracking app, too, but find I tend to use it more when I'm happy, than when I'm sad, when I need to! I hope things turn around! :l

[available]

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Nar happy 100th. i am so runnin late for work. dont want to get naked and jump in the shower as it is cold!

So happy for you lovely, you have had your ups and downs but when it clicked, this not drinking ever again, well it clicked forever. You sound happy, proud and in control and that is wonderful to hear. I hope you dont wipe that grin off your face today as you totally deserve ever single damn one of those 100 af days and many many more to come. Keep smiling today Nar you are triple digits girl now and no going back.

Will try and post at work, would not let me on this morning and i hate not logging on first thing to get myf fix of mwo.

xxxxx

[NoSugar]

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Jane, I'm sorry you're so discontent right now. It might still be due to getting everything re-wired post-alcohol but it might also be separate issues (some of which may have been masked with the alcohol).

I don't think you seem to be complaining that you're not drinking but maybe I'm reading you wrong. Do you want to drink? Do you miss it? Would drinking have made any of the feelings you expressed above not arise or would they have still been there, festering under the mask?

You say you don't respect yourself right now. That is the main thing I got back by giving up alcohol. If you're not, you should be proud of yourself. It is a very hard thing that we have done and other loamers are doing. Maybe you need some new challenges and goals in your life. Once it wasn't hard not to drink, I had to develop new projects to keep myself interested and engaged in life. Frankly, your funk sounds like that of a lot of bright, capable women who by choice or circumstances aren't using their talents in a meaningful and rewarding way.

I really don't know what you're experiencing, Jane, but I do know that drinking would do nothing to make your situation better and at this point, would do you great harm because you would be giving up so much.

[Starfish1]

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J-vo, I too can relate to the definition of introversion. I know for a fact that I am as much as introvert as I am an alcoholic and I really think the fact that I must perform and function in an extrovert world contributes tons to my alcoholism.

On the days I can allow myself to stay at home and not have to associate with others or deal with the typical trials of everyday life, I don't have much trouble staying sober. The problems come when I have to do the daily things that are normally required to function. Such as: going to the store, the mall, work, making phone calls or even just socializing. I pretty much feel like Jane does most of the time, and have most of my life. I did get better during times of extended sobriety and I hope to get better again. I think it will just take a while.

Jane, again, I am so sorry you are feeling so shitty. I hope your rant and your run (?) helped. I worry that you have some kind of underlying physical illness....could you have mono or something? It seems you just have not felt well physically for some time. That in itself could be causing some of your depression. We love you so much and value your friendship and your input here. We want you to feel better.

Hi NS, Ava, LC and Kailey :l

I had a really good day today and got a lot accomplished with my dtr in getting her prepared for college. And, as I stated over in the nest, it was so much easier getting it done while sober- and I will remember it all tomorrow.

Hope you all have a great evening!

[Starfish1]

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x post, NS.
I agree that we need to develop some other interests while we are getting on with our new sober lives. I really believe that my last relapse was due, partly to the fact that I did nothing other than stop drinking. I had no other interests to take the place of my drinking. That was a mistake, and I am glad to be reminded of that. In fact, that same thing was mentioned in the newbies nest today, I believe. I will begin working to find a hobby.