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[patrice]

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Hey girls,
Nar wow 100 ! ( yay, as I mentioned on the other thread!)
Wags 80 fantastical !
Jane - hope you are feeling better
Welcome back Star
Thanks for all your posts and NS and Star I agree ... Need to fill time with something productive.
I'm feeling like shit and have been depressed the last 3 days.. I'm over part of the flu but it has spread to the chest and I have a horrible hacking cough that is not shifting. The problem is since stopping booze 55 days ago ( happy!) I have really ramped up the smoking. This coupled with the haze around Malaysia right now is making me feel like I can't breathe. Therefore I'm finding it hard to do any exercise, therefore I'm getting a bit down and restless= dangerous time! but I have to stop smoking Now!...I don't think it's the best time to stop because I'm a long term smoker and it's a huge habit but I feel it's compromising my af life now because I haven't got the energy or breath to change my patterns and do new things that I need right like exercise...
Grrrr.. What do you girls think. Bite the bullet, gets the patches, lozenges and go for it?
Sorry this is all about me and smoking but I'd really like any advice!!
Xx
Pat

[Starfish1]

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Oh dear, Pat!

I am so sorry you are feeling so poorly too! Not being able to breathe comfortably is just miserable. Have you ever tried to use the patches or any other help in the past? I don't think it would hut to give it a try. Would they be simple to obtain?

[Starfish1]

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And huge congrats on 55 days! There awesome!

[daisy45]

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Patrice, so glad you posted this.....I had a cough a few weeks ago that lingers still....and noticed my smoking increasing during the day. I have tried to cut back a bit but am not ready to stop.....I feel right now that being sober has to come first. OK, I know smoking is bad, but if I was still drinking, I would just continue doing both.
I charged the batteries on my vaper and am thinking of cutting down soon by using that and patches......just do not want to jeapordize my quit.
I am exercising daily and did find the smoking interfering but not enough to stop me. Exercise anyway - do what you can.....you will find yourself smoking less because you are doing it.

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Star welcome back to mwo, it is great that you have returned and only you can get off the merry go round of al with the resources availalbe. This is my AA as we all know. Every morning i log in and every afternoon and during the day (not so much now). This morning it took me 35 mins to get in but these days its not so much an issue to be accountable and the need to be on is less as the months go by but i would never walk away. I am dangerous left to my own devices.

Jane, well i am glad you got that off your chest, now deep breath and stop fucking beating yourself up. Everyday is different whether we are alcoholics or "normal" people or a "bit off centre". Im an alky who is a bit off centre. Sure i have my "i fucking hate the world" days but i mainly bitch or take it out on my boys. i do feel sorry for them at the end of the rant but they understand me a lot. I do bitch on here, we all do, thats what we are here for. I did find when i finally got over the flu that i was pretty down and it does take a bit to get back up, we arent puppets that we just pull a string and the world is good again. My shoulder is till giving me hell but me being me its just "a tumour" as everything else is so i am just bearing the job of being in pain. There could be worse things like "i really do have cancer". I feel bad that i have the motivation of a gnat when everyone on here is headed for the olympics but at the end of the day i accept that i am not everyone else. I talk to myself everyday that i am going to exercise and thus far i do a 20 min walk at lunch. Is that enough, probably not but that is me. I like me jane and i think when we become sober that is one of the major issues that we have to deal with, learning to like ourselves again.

God this has taken me ages to type, why do people think i need to work at work. Hope it makes sense anyways. xxx

[Pavati]

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Hi, Ladies:

Just posted this in the nest:
I am going to a friend's house who I haven't seen in a long time. She is a drinking buddy for sure, and I have to admit a tad bit of anxiety about hanging out. I'm sure I'm not going to drink, but the thought of her house and the endless glasses of wine I've had there was enough to set my AL brain to work. I am posting here to process this thought (out of the blue!) and to keep myself honest lest I think I have this thing licked.

Jane - I was thinking the same as NS - we were drinking to hide or mask certain feelings - maybe your moods have nothing to do with AL and are something else? I am sure that having a fever for as long as you have had would make me in a shit mood, too. I hope you can get it figured out. As I was body surfing yesterday I got a good pounding from one of the waves and got a full sinus wash with salt water - so strong and complete that it was still dripping hours later. I felt my allergies just wash right out! I'm not sure what your sinus issues are, but I know you have been working on it. Good luck.

Pat - I was lucky with cigarettes - they are such a social no-no here that I found myself with fewer and fewer places to smoke so that over time I basically tapered off of them. That was a long time ago and I can't imagine smoking now. I realize that if we could make smoking so socially unacceptable, we could do the same with drinking (yeah, right). Good luck and I hope you feel better.

J-Vo - I read Quiet, too. I am not an introvert exactly, but I do like to charge up by being alone sometimes. I have found my solo hikes one of the best part of my sobriety - although I usually have a podcast or music going so I am not totally alone. As teachers, we should also recognize introverts in our classes and encourage their participation in different ways, perhaps. Anyway - thanks for sharing that post.

Ginger - are you in the way of any of those fires (aren't you in Eastern Washington?) I hope not.

I am off for a three day off the grid trip. I won't have Internet access, so don't worry that you don't hear from me until Friday. Stay strong all you Gloamers!

xo
Pav

[Pavati]

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x post, Ava. I agree - we just need to like us. I feel quite meh today - but it is a meh much better than the drinking meh. For what it's worth, I feel like a slob compared to everyone here (and all their cleaning) - I try to just do my best!

I love your Maddie avatar, BTW. xo

[wagmore]

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Jane - Sorry to hear you're struggling so much. I hope the run helped a bit. I know exercise always seems to be therapeutic for me.

Pat - Sorry to hear you are also feeling poorly, albeit in a different way. Wish I could offer a suggestion about the smoking, but that's one thing I've never gotten into. Hugs to you and hope you feel better soon so you can tackle this next thing with full energy.

j-vo - Interesting blog post about introversion. It can definitely take a lot of energy for introverts to socialize (or work, for that matter) in environments that require a lot of interaction with other people. I myself am a slight extrovert, and I sometimes get energy from big groups, but not when it's the shmoozy small-talk type of event (think cocktail party). I'd much prefer a small gathering with good friends or the opposite extreme - a big event like a street fair, concert or sporting event where there's great people watching to be done but I don't have to flit from one small talk convo to another.

Pav - Good job getting your thoughts about going to your friend's house out in the open. Have a great 3-day trip! Being off the grid sounds wonderful

Star - Glad you had such a great day with your daughter. Having a new hobby or some other activity can make a huge difference! I recently joined an outrigger canoe paddling team and it is impacting my life in many positive ways. It is very hard exercise and I'm quickly getting into incredible shape. It's also a social event that does not revolve around drinking (although some team members party hard at other times). Some Loamers have started doing crafts, others gardening, etc. What types of things do you like to do?

[Kailey]

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Another easy day! I never know what's coming my way! The days of white knuckling it seem to be fading away, though. I'm sorry so many here are struggling with down moods. I think I'm a little on the manic/happy side right now because I'm so excited to see that I'm finally breaking the grip alcohol has on me.

Once I finally get comfortable with the idea that I am truly AF, I'm seeing that it will be normal to expect that those blah moods will come and go because they are normal. If it's any comfort to those of you struggling today with the blahs, you have so much time under your belts that it's no longer a novelty like it is for me. I envy you so much, but know I will get there in time. I'm so close to those desperately scary days whenI thought that I would never break free... I hope to never again in my life ever have to face that kind of despondency.

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LC staying connected has really helped me through some tough times. The lake sounds so beautiful.
Jane I feel really down when I come back from holiday. Plus when I'm sick, I get depressed. I really hope you can get this worked out and figure out why your so ill. I'm worried about you. This is not right, it's just gone on for so long. No wonder you don't want to do anything.
Pat maybe you could decrease a little each day or even week? Even that probably would help. I am certinally no expert, but smoking is what killed my mother, probably 20-25 years before her time.
Thank you NS. I love my beagle.
Narilly you are wonderful. Glad you had a good day. I too love waking up Monday feeling on top of the world with a clean house or bedding. A great start to the week. Good for you.
Star glad you had a good day with your daughter. It's wonderful having another loving, supportive voice here.
Ava I love your common sense. Hope your shoulder gets better soon.:l
ok, I am offically tired and going to try for an early night.

[patrice]

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Ava, motivation of a Knat? No, look at the Herculean effort you have put into not drinking!! A winner
Thanks for the advice girls.. I realise I must slowly do something about it but nothing that will jeopardize my quit.
Glad you are all here !
Xx
Pat

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Pav even if you are having a MEH day i know you wont drink. i would have to fly to you with bricks and how the hell could you ever let your quit buddy down for one. We are quitters, plural, together and we have august 2016 as our 2000 celebration. Nothing like planning ahead.

LB i am so going to tell the boys you said i had "common sense". that will give them a chuckle. I think i have it in spurts!

Pat, that is very very true, i have put in an effort not to drink, so in thinking that bugger the walk lol. no i walked again today and further than yesterday. slow and steady wins the race. i actually won an egg and spoon race in kindergarten, i think that was the last activity i won. I was always too busy staring at the sky thinking how pretty it was. With my smoking i have decided on small steps also. the last few days i have not had a smoke as soon as i woke up and next week i am going to make that time to wait longer. No rush. i dont smoke as much as i used to now my months of not drinking are getting longer but i still want to give up.

[wagmore]

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NoSugar;1684812 wrote:

Forgot to say how awesome this is!

[narilly]

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Gals, I skimmed through your posts. Jane, sorry your bummed out.
Pat, hope you get better soon. Pav, enjoy 3 days off the grid.
Ava you DO have common sense!
Wags, so glad you enjoy paddling.
Lil b love the super Beagle too
Kailey , so glad your not white knuckling it.
Daisy, I am a big exerciser too, love it.

Sorry for the short post but I am just bagged. I get up at 5:15am for work so I gotta get my sleep. I have gotten used to a good sleep over the past 100 days.

Goodnight Gloamers
Xo

[little beagle]

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Narilly I hear you. We get up very early at my house.
J-vo how goes the basketball mom?
I am just waiting for this week to end. I know it just got started!!
I am going to stomp my foot, hard, the next time hubby takes on SO much at one time. I'm worried about him working too much and getting so frustrated. Having a relapse. He doesn't have wonderful support like I do.