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[patrice]

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Hi girls,
Wow Jane, what a fabulous long post and I just loved the colors! Thank you it was cool reading..yes Time is important and I am so lucky and grateful to still be on holiday so I have heaps of time and loving it..it's a great healing space to be able to do whatever you want and not have to regulated by a clock... So those girls who are going on their AF vacations are Lucky!!! Time, lots if it with no Booze and it's After Effects.... That's a real holiday so seize that time..I feel really great from having a sober holiday, first one and for sure won't be the last..
Take care all
Xx
Patrice

[j-vo]

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Thanks for the 120 day kudos! I told Eloise that I didn't realize it was four months until this afternoon and I was reading some posts. Well, I thought, "omg! I'm four months and didn't even know it!" I just had a 100 day celebration 20 days ago which may have thrown me off with the celebration thing...

Kailey, you have lots of time before you go away and you'll be that much stronger. It's amazing how our strength grows so quickly in the early days. It's like you see a newborn, then two weeks later, they've grown so much, are chunkier all over and continue to grow at a fast rate during the first year. I think that's the way it is for us. We have so many new experiences and get stronger and better everyday. Then it might level off a bit. These next few months will give you lots of time to grow and experience good times without the booze so it'll be that much easier when you do go.

Jane, if I did any less, I'd probably be dead. Seriously, this has been the best summer of my life. I've never had an al-free summer. I feel as though I've put myself through home-rehab. I've worked on myself spiritually, physically, emotionally, and on the most important thing, sobriety. I've been very selfish with what I'm doing with my time. And it was worth it!

Yesterday and today, started school work, prepping for classes, and deciding on my 'smart' goal for the year. I love getting a head start on these things! Oh! I also started cleaning out the extra bedroom where we throw everything in that we don't know where to put. I think that may take me the rest of the week. A girlfriend called at 4:30 and asked if I wanted to go to dinner. I was getting some momentum going with the bedroom, hadn't taken a shower, and I accepted the invitation! What!!!! I just did something spontaneous! Dropped everything, took a shower, and met her at a nice restaurant. Made great choices for my dinner (watching my diet) and had great girl time. There's something great about being able to be spontaneous like that. Back in the day (not long ago of course!) I would have been drinking while doing this bedroom task. I wouldn't have been able to go because I had booze in me already, nor would I have wanted to go because that would have cut into drinking and getting this stupid task done. I was happy to just let it go and I'll get back to it tomorrow. Girlfriend and I decided we're going to NYC next summer to see shows and shop!

Have a great night all.

[little beagle]

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J-vo you sound so great. Your summer has flown by.
I feel so much better after a vacation for not drinking. And I really have a lot more fun during that time. I'm not hungover, afraid to get too far from the bathroom.... this little mini vacation I watched several family members do just that. Drink way too much and not able to do any thing the next day.

[Kailey]

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J-Vo, you sound really happy. Your long summer off work gave you just the time you needed to hit this school year running. I don't know how long you've been teaching, but I'm willing to bet you'll have the best year ever. I can just feel the confidence, energy and joy radiating from you.

[narilly]

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Way to go J-Vo! I am so happy for you, 4 months!!!!
You do sound really good. I am happy this has been the best summer of your life. Pretty amazing to be sober. I am enjoying it too.

Getting ready for school and being spontaneous. Wow! Things are going great.
I am sure this school year will be a good one too, maybe the best ever!


Jane, thanks for the colorrful post, it was a good one.

Pat, so good you are enjoying your holiday. What a great way to recover.

Anyway, I am bagged. Goodnight.

[patrice]

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J vo - fantastic 4 months yay!

[Pavati]

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Hi, Ladies:

Way to go on 120, J-Vo! Amazing stuff. I love the story about the spontaneous dinner - there are little things like that that we need to remember to be grateful for. We just went out into the neighborhood and picked berries after dinner - I never would have done that if I had been drinking. I would have been too lazy and shut down by then. LOVE hearing about the summer of you. Congratulations - NYC sounds like a great reward.

Star! Pack yourself in silica gel. Wouldn't it be great if it worked so easily. Just add water after all the alcohol was out and voila - a newly reconstituted and sober Starfish! BTW, I dropped my phone in the potty a couple of months ago - I lunged right in after it and was so quick that I kept it from sustaining any damage (I am happy to report the splash happened before I had ahem begun my business).

Thanks for the gazette, Jane. Love reading your writing - the pogo stick analogy was great. The problem was for me that the pogo stick always landed in a briar patch. I actually get that high from a great cup of coffee in the morning while feeling great (well, ok, not quite as high as a pogo stick).

Sorry you and Petrel broke up, Ava.

Good night, Ladies.

xo
Pav

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Hi loamers

Jvo where the hell did those extra 20 days come from. Time flies when you are having fun. so very proud of you girl.

Jane a lovely post. i think of BT and AT and i think i hated myself more than i hated mum. So much anger and hurt and pain and i just didnt know how to fix it. now i do and its so much better, its not perfect but i dont expect it to be for sometime but its good. I hope you feel better soon.

Oh Pav its just terrible and im devastated ha ha, i may be back to mums for xmas so you never know, absence makes the heart grow fonder.

I finally have my injection into my shoulder on Friday, i am so over being in pain 24/7 and things that never used to aggravate it now do and driving is painful but i my chaffeur is on holidays (i wish) so if this steroid injection does not fix it i am going to cry. The job i went for the other week i have not heard from, i mean i dont mind if i dont get it but its just decency to ring. I did go for another job today so fingers crossed, its not guaranteed 5 days a week but 4 will do. i dont mind being poorer than what i am now. Other than that its cold, and its hump day and im sober. 8 months sober on Friday.

Daisy is it your birthday today?

Glad everyone is going well and Moss keep those sober days up girl, you can do this.
xxxx

[little beagle]

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Ava I hope your shoulder stays better. That sounds really painful.
Pav what kind of berries did you go picking? We have blackberries but they are in the springtime.
Narilly you had a great summer too from the sounds of it.
Moss I hope you are starting to feel better.

[little beagle]

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Jane I loved that beautiful post. How did I miss that?? Must have cross posted. Sorry about your neck. Hope your biopsy turns out good. :l. Enjoy that break from A1.

[j-vo]

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Morning Girls,
Up early as my girlfriend and I were going to go for a bike ride, but weather isn't cooperating. So we're off to Bob Evan's!

LB, I'm glad your mini vaca was a good one. I laughed when I read about you being near the bathroom. That was the first thing I always asked when I went somewhere...where's the bathroom??????

Ava, I hope that shot does the trick for ya. Are they confident that it'll work/heal your arm?

Have a great day girls.

[rooniferd]

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j-vo;1687804 wrote: Seriously, this has been the best summer of my life. I've never had an al-free summer. I feel as though I've put myself through home-rehab. I've worked on myself spiritually, physically, emotionally, and on the most important thing, sobriety. I've been very selfish with what I'm doing with my time. And it was worth it!

Love this! What a great motivator. Getting sober brings out that happy, productive person that's been lurking in us but just couldn't get out because the beast was keeping it trapped!

[wagmore]

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j-vo - It's so great to hear/read how happy you are with your summer. I can remember not too long ago you weren't sure how it would go, and now here you are feeling strong and content with everything - awesome!

Jane - Loved your long call-out to everyone. I answered you in the nest and also replied to your PM. Sometimes I lose track of who writes what in which thread, so the question I answered in the nest might actually have been from here, sorry! I hope that everything is ok with your neck/thyroid, and that you're also starting to feel better from your sinus stuff and your recent period of blues. :huggy

Ava - Really sorry to hear that your shoulder is bothering you so much. Having nonstop pain like that can definitely be draining in multiple ways. In addition, I agree that it would have been much more courteous if that folks you interviewed with last week had gotten back to you one way or the other. However, this might tell you a bit about the work environment and whether or not you'd want to work there.

[wagmore]

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I had an interesting experience yesterday, one that really struck home.

I'm kinda lazy when it comes to deleting text messages from my phone, and I tend to do it in big swoops every few weeks or so. Yesterday I had a bit of time to kill while waiting for a client, and I decided it was a good time to clear out old texts.

As I was going through them, I came to a series of texts I sent to clients during the last two weeks of April (my last long hardcore binge - the one where I ultimately scared the cr@p out of myself health-wise and made the decision that I had to stop drinking in order to save my life). There was a whole slew of texts where I was contacting clients, making up excuses and cancelling meetings. None of them betrayed my drunken state, although I was surely tanked when I wrote each one of them (and hence unable to work, drive, leave my house). But as I sat there reading them, I was immediately back in that space and time. I was reminded about how far I had fallen, how much I was on the verge of losing/destroying, and how pathetic I was at that time.

So effing happy to be 90 days AF and light years beyond where I was in late April. Feels kinda amazing to see the night and day comparison in such a relatively short time.

Yesterday I forced myself to read each and every one of these texts, and then I deleted them. I thought about keeping them as a reminder, but I decided to delete them as a celebration of reaching 90 days (today). I want to leave that part of my life behind forever.

Thank you all for your support these past 3 months. I might have been able to do it without you, but it sure would have been a LOT harder.

:h :hug:

[narilly]

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YAY, Wags, 90 DAYS!!! So proud of you!

That is a great gift to yourself, deleting those texts. I have 3 stories in my notes on my phone of times I got drunk and what happened. Sometimes if I really want to drink I read them as a reminder of why I don't.
Thank goodness I don't have to worry anymore. The struggle of trying to moderate was brutal and it was a battle I was losing on a consistent basis. Sobriety is Freedom baby!