Happy New Years Ladies! Did I say how grateful I am to have you in my life? As NS said to me earlier, this is the last year that we drank AL. 2013. Bye, bye! Hello, 2014. ODAT.
Pav, what a thorough reflection on your last 30 days. You've learned so much. You've learned to live without AL, that it's not only possible, but so satisfying. You've learned what this process encompasses and know that recovery is not just a fleeting "I quit" moment, but a journey. And best of all, you have grasped the attitude of gratitude. You said it, sista Loamer! Proud of you, and so glad to continue on this journey with you.
Narilly, I want some of that Pavati Italian dessert! Loved that one!!!!!
NS, focusing on sobriety is, for me, priority. I won't give this one up, ever. The perfectionist thing...so me. I know the 20 ton shield, for me, has been such a detriment to me and my life. I'm glad now that i can actually recognize this with a clear head. I think the more sober time I have, this will make a huge difference in my acceptance of myself and all of my flaws. I was reading momastery last night as well. She said that all of her flaws and characteristics that she used to hide behind the bottle are actually what she treasures most today. Wow. I can identify with most of the perfection characteristics, especially in this order:
*being preoccupied with fears of failure and disapproval (big one)
*Overly defensive when criticized (especially after a write up from an observation - what do you mean that wasn't the most perfect lesson you've ever laid your eyes on!)
*Becoming depressed when faced with failure or disappointment
Thanks for all of that!!!!
R4L, first of all, my prayers coming your way. I'm so sorry for your loss. I know how I'll be devastated when I lose my Leo. And sending prayers for your son and his situation. MWO has become a part of my daily prayers. You are in them, dear. And I need your help with the exercise routine! I need to keep myself accountable to ensure I'm working off my anxiety and stress. What a great goal and for a great cause. So glad you're here with us.
SL, I noticed that as well, with the new habits forming. It certainly doesn't happen in a blink of an eye, as habits take awhile to form. But I've become more comfortable and it's more natural to not drink while sitting on my a** on my computer or at home.
To all sister Loamers, have a wonderful New Years!
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