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LB after all the struggles you have been through you deserve to be happy. I am just so amazed at how proud the children are of me, i knew they were happy i stopped drinking but for them to tell me and to not be afraid to tell their friends takes me to a new high with sobriety.

Jane i hope the biopsy went ok and i have heard that metal fillings can poison us also. Let us know how you are.

Im off to nap as i can, love weekends.

[Guitarista]

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That's beautiful Ava.

Thanks LB for the open door of support.

Wags, big raps on your hundred! Bravo!

All the best Jane.

Ladies, the only thing i'm throwing over my shoulder this weekend is a guitar. Another thing to be grateful for.

Just back from a 1 hour run. Feels super.

Have a great weekend y'all.

G bloke.

[j-vo]

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Happy 100th Wags! You've been such a wonderful addition to the Loamers/Gloamers thread. Thank you for all your support!

Pav, that feels great, doesn't it, when people compliment you like that. Taking away al has way more benefits than we even realized in the beginning.

Hi LB! Enjoying that motorcycle!!!!!

Jane, glad biopsy went well. Just found out yesterday Dad's brother's cancer has returned and has spread to spine and other parts. He'll be undergoing chemo. He's only 68 and such a great man. I hope this chemo works as he's got a lot more living to do.

G, enjoy making beautiful music! Is there a place on youtube where I can see you play?

Well, was going to clean out another bedroom today, but it's so beautiful outside, might have to nix that idea and find something to do outside. We haven't had many summer days like this and less than two weeks and back to reality. I always get excited for the start of a new year, but it takes my body time to readjust to 5 a.m. get ups. I start the year off getting up at 5 but as the year goes on i push to 5:30. Oh, just typing that makes me a bit anxious!

Nar, hope you're having a great time!

Pav and Ava, 251 and 250...so incredible and hope I can get there.

NS, are you home yet?

Have a great saturday all.

[j-vo]

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SL, I wanted to say that I'd love to visit San Diego. My girlfriend's daughter lives there and loves the weather and everything about it. In fact, I've never been out west and that's on my bucket list. So much to see in our beautiful country.

[scottish lass]

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J-vo, we have enjoyed San Diego and will possibly visit again, weather had been good and do much to see and do!
Wags! You did it, no going back now!! 100 days is a wonderful achievement!
NS is driving all the way home today so will be back with many words of wisdom soon! She kept me company this week, and even thou we still have today I think I can safely say that I will have done what I previously believed could not be done!!! AF beach holiday!!! NS was my lifeline, but signing in daily and seeing all you guys continuing to be successful has been a huge motivator for me:l:l

[wagmore]

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MAE everyone,

Thanks for all the hearty congrats on my 100 days. I'm feeling a bit giddy about this milestone myself! I know it's only 100 days, but something about triple digits makes me feel like I've crossed into new territory: One-der-land Like I've joined a special club or something. Now I know I just need to keep my head down and protect my quit.

My mom used to teach kindergarten, and every year on the 100th day of school they would have this fabulous day-long celebration in her classroom. I think I'll steal a few of those ideas and have my own celebration.

I appreciate all of your support, input, hugs, ideas, and general camaraderie - such a special thread we have here.

:groupluv:

[Eloise]

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:goodjob:Great job Wagmore! And you should celebrate those 100 days. I am very excited for you and your accomplishment, Kudos to you Wagmore!

[roxane]

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only 100 days???? wash your mouth out! its fantastic!

[Starfish1]

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Huge congrats, Wag!!! I am so very proud of you! Thanks for all the kind support you have given me and so many others. We really appreciate you!!'

[wagmore]

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Star, Rox, El - Thanks for your added kudos and kind words. And Rox, as soon as I wrote "only 100 days" I almost smacked myself. That isn't how I feel at all - it feels huge right now! I just know there are thousands more to go, but I'm looking forward to all of them

[Pavati]

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Hi, Everyone:

All about me post warning.

I have been feeling jumpy and angsty the past two days. I haven't been able to fall asleep (so I'm not sleeping enough), and feel generally down and blech. I got a little road rage today which I don't normally do, so I'm going to post about it here after all of the discussing we have done about signs of PAWS and relapse. I don't feel like I'm going to drink at all, but if this is step one I'd like to cut it off at the knees.

First I was merging on the highway. A Mini was in the lane to my left and a bit behind. If I sped up, she sped up, and even though my blinker was on she wouldn't let me in. This happens to me all the time and usually I just slow down and let them in, assuming it is not worth my time to get mad. Well, this time, I made a dramatic slow down, and merged in behind her and damn if she didn't then switch into the lane to get off the exit. I yelled "fu&*%ng c#$t!" in my car. I know that many people get road rage, and yell, flip off people, etc., and I know she really was what I called her, but I don't usually do that, and I have been feeling so zen lately it felt like way over reacting.

Then later in the day I was merging from two lanes to one on a road in my town. Normally you alternate lanes for who goes next. Well, a truck was trying to stay close to the car in front of her so she didn't have to let me in. I "stood" my ground as it were, and kept right on moving forward, even though in my little car that truck could have squashed me. Again, something that happens with some frequency, and something that I usually would just let happen and chalk it up to a teenager or another hipster a$$4ole. But I DIDN'T let up! Just as I was going to run off the road into the fence or get squashed by the truck, she put on her brakes and let me in. Not the worst situation in the world at all, but it made me feel even more angsty and weird, and I feel like I acted in a way that hasn't been me lately.

OK, this might sound lame to you all - I am just venting because I don't feel quite myself these last two days and wanted to be sure I posted here to get it out in the open. I told my DH how I was feeling and about PAWS and he said I think you SHOULD post what happened. I'm not going to drink, nor am I thinking about drinking, by the way.

OK - that's enough about me.

SL! So glad you had the NS connection! I love San Diego - on of my best friends lives there, so I visit with some frequency. I'm glad you survived storms and earthquakes, and most of all your first AF beach holiday. Superstar!

LB - I agree with you on practicing saying no - ready just in case. I am watching a TV show where one of the characters is being tempted to relapse by another user. I can see the deals he is making in his head with himself.

J-Vo - The problem with my transition is that I spend a few weeks staying up my summer hours but still have to wake up early. Another reason I am pretty tired right now. Good luck and I hope you have a great start to school.

Nar - Back from camping?

Jane - Glad the biopsy went well - that must be a scary time for you. Hope your remodeling is going well!

Wags - The first 100 days of school - we celebrated every year when my kids were in elementary school. That gives me an idea (see general discussion).

G - I'd love to see some YouTube of your music! Running for an hour sounds like great head clearing.

OK, everyone - off to my friends' house. Happy Sober Saturday,

xo
Pav

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Pav i know we mentioned this on nesters but i had those same feelings last week. I wanted to kill people, i felt nasty and i probably was. This is not the sober Linda, the happy Linda, the non drinking Linda. This Linda was so angry at life and everyone that deemed it necessary to breath in and out. Even a colleague at work commented on how angry i seemed. I dont know what i was angry at although a big part was due to tyes birthday and feeling deprived as that was my drinking element and others drinking on here. I was jealous, why them, why not me! That is such a horrible feeling as i know if they had a choice they would wish they were me, not drinking but those logical thoughts were not happening. Like you i spoke at length to my children about how i felt and they responded with how proud they were. Didnt help at all until i got over my anger. Roxy was my logical friend with her emails and rationality and i thank her deeply for that. Its hard at our stage to reach out for help when we are helping others but i can see this is where we could fall. I actually woke up one morning and they were gone, as quick as the feeling came it went. Im not saying i wanted to drink as deep down i didnt but i felt like a teacher saying to me "Linda you cant do that" but "Pav your can". Why me? Im so happy for you that you have your husband to lean on and the good news is it only lasted 5 whole, long damn days.

[NoSugar]

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Made it home! Had a really nice, relaxing week with family - only did one "touristy" thing and no enriching cultural experiences. This was a vacation, not a trip .

It was fun to be AF buddies with SL! Just a little connection like that can mean a lot in sticking to your plan. I wish there was some little private pocket of Gloamers where we could share our photos.

Pav, that might be PAWS or it might just be a bad mood - we may feel like we're on top of the world most of the time because everything is relatively fabulous now but even though we're recovering/ed addicts, we're still human! The important thing is to do what you did - get it out there where it can't morph into something too big to handle or that can sneak up on you. I like the thread you started! I added one that occurred to me when I heard a comment on a Bubblehour podcast today.

Way to go on 100 days, Wags! All the people I admired were posting on the 100-day thread and I was determined to earn my place there - and now you have, too. There's no good reason to ever be in double-digits again :l.

[scottish lass]

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Hey NS - when you find the pocket I will join in - sounds like a plan!
Lovely last evening here, and I am so proud! Made it to 170 which was the plan!
Watched the sunset - not the best as a big fog bank. That was after a HUGE breakfast, then ice cream on the beach, then supper! Not sure that I will have lost any weight!!! Just had a wonderful moonlit walk, moon so close to being full - just beautiful!
Traveling home tomorrow
Pav - so sorry! Hope it passes fairly soon. Any chance it is hormones? My last unhappy spell was hormones and was totally not in the picture. Just a thought. Wish we could send magic abracadabra's to wish away the yucky phases:l

[daisy45]

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On what should have been day 90 for me I am day 1.........not much I can say except it was not worth it! Just gave me a glimpse of that version of me that I don't like, am not proud of.......am hoping I can get back before I lose complete control........
Sorry to have let you all down.....Pav.....I feel like shit!