Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

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Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

The cost of Soberistas is similar to here, which is not much but appears to be high enough to be a barrier. It is, however, a very secure and moderated site so you would be getting something for your money.

[Samstone]

Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

NS
just signed on there to see what it is all about. You have 50 free page visits before having to pay. I'm using the same name of Samstone. As Fennel said in another thread, the silence is deafening.
Sam

[lifechange]

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Hi GLoamers!.

I also had problems finding you all this morning, so here I am at almost 7pm. Late, but not absent. Today has been another doozy of a day and I actually felt quite depressed this afternoon. The strength and insanity of the cravings got me down after 4 hours of fighting it. I swear to god, I had to do everything in my sane power not to drink-- and that made me sad. I guess it should make me happy/grateful that I successfully pulled through. But I woke up in the middle of the night, panicked at how easy it would be for me to fall back into HELL! So right now I'm riding on blind faith, just trying to get the AF time under my belt. Of course, I am working on gratitude, finding new ways to deal with stress and sadness. Today when I wanted to drink (there was open wine that we were cooking with at work-- I finally emptied the leftover 1/3 of a bottle down the drain) I kept playing it through. I was thinking that what I wanted was an altered state of mind. A calm and peaceful feeling. And I know that I've felt that from meditation-- Pinecone wrote a nice post in the NN about getting that back after being off the alcohol for awhile. That what he was searching for in the alcohol (and got for maybe half an hour) he found after he quit. I believe this, as I've felt it before.

Jane, I liked the thread you linked me to--urge surfing.. It was very time appropriate, too, as yesterday was my day 9. Thank you for that!

Thank you all for your support yesterday-- it did make a world of difference to know you are all on my side. That we're a team, that I would be there for any and all of you, struggling or not. Today when I was contemplating drinking or pouring out the wine I thought of Wags, and LB and Pav, and NS and Ava, and SL, and Jane, and Giraffe, and El, and Nar, and J-vo, and Daisy and G-man and Byrdie and I thought of how I wanted to come home and still be with you all on my LAST day 10 ever. It just frustrates me that it's so hard at times, even though I know what I want.:upset: I feel like I have the door CLOSED to discussion, but then I did contemplate drinking the fucking wine. Why bother with one glass? I thought of how disappointed it would make the girls to smell alcohol on my breath. Of how exhausted I would be physically and mentally. How I wouldn't want to cook all the gorgeous veggies I got from my friend who has an organic farm, how I would continue on in the evening and then again tomorrow, because I can NEVER just stop. ok. Now I'm feeling better that I actually did stop. I accomplished the one thing I HAD to accomplish today and now I think the craving is gone.

So, a selfish post today.. I read everything from yesterday and am thinking of you all as you go through your days-- Have to run out with the girls to rent a film--slumber party tonight. xoxoxoxo

[lifechange]

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p.s. I will follow the masses--I have exchanged email addresses with NS already and will be ready to move, necessary. I hope that won't have to be the case!!

[Eloise]

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Lifechange- wow, wine at work. Now that IS a tough one. Dont take all the blame on your shoulders. You have to handle it and you did. I am not having so much trouble accessing the site for some unknown reason? I think as long on as we stick together 'somewhere' regardless of where, this must continue. I need you guys!!!

[Eloise]

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Dottie Belle;1696756 wrote: Hi ladies,
Yes I would be interested in finding a plan B in case this place goes away. I just dont understand why she seems to have abandoned the site....sad
I will try to catch up later.
I went to soberistas site and looks like a membership only....not sure how much. Will investigate further and report back.

Dottie- who is she? What is going on please.... :h

[lifechange]

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EL, I think "she" means, Roberta, the woman who started MWO--

I also hope MWO doesn't go under! I need you all, too!!

[Dottie Belle]

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Yes Roberta is the "she" I was referring to. NS it does look like pricing is similar to here and it has advertising down the side but looks to be well run. I tried to look at the boards but kept getting a pop up asking me to join. Just something to consider...
Gym was a killer and I am now having a smoothie. Need to gather all the tomatoes from the garden and make more pasta sauce or some chile sauce or something. mmmmmm

[lifechange]

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Dottie!!! You are almost at one year AF!!! How are you doing? How are you feeling? I think of you often, wishing I'd been able to remain your quit buddy.. I'll be a year behind you..

[lifechange]

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I am SOOOOOO much better now. Not a craving anywhere. Not physically, emotionally, mentally, no little ones hiding for the moment. I just feel relieved that I was honest with myself and with all of you and that I didn't let the lizard brain take over.
Earlier today, I was wondering about "faking it till you make it"--I'm thinking sometimes that hasn't worked for me because in doing it, I've managed to ignore/forget dealing with the issues. I have to figure out how to find the balance. I am figuring it out. Today was a good practice for me. This is the first time where I feel really too scared to let myself fall again. I have to protect myself as if I'm fighting for my life-- I'm grateful to realise that IS what I'm fighting for!

[Dottie Belle]

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LC I am so glad u are doing well. I can not believe it will be one year. I am almost afraid to even think about it. I have had many stressful things this past year and have thought about throwing in the towel but managed to get through it. The gym has helped a lot. Now I need to get off sugar....one thing at a time...

[lifechange]

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Dottie, you've done such a great job dealing with the ups and downs of life sober! I'm so happy for you and hope that it's getting easier with time and experience on your side. I look forward to celebrating with you on the 1st of September!

[Dottie Belle]

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Thanks LC it has definitely been a learning process and time and experience is making it easier to just say NO!

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LC i wish i had stuck with Dot too but nope not to be.

Those cravings are intense but just fast forward your life to 8 months further down and you will have a vague memory of those cravings and how bad they were. yesterday when i was walking i seen a couple sitting on their verandah having a wine in the sun (we actually had some sun) and i thought "that would be nice sitting there, having a wine, winding down", then rational brain thinks A: maybe they can only have one and be happy and B: do they go inside and drink till they pass out like i used to do. Nothing is worth going back to that hell and maybe one would be lovely but alcoholic Linda cant have ONE, fuck i wish i could some days but we always want what we cant have. i still want the 99 year old millionaire but hes not happening any time soon.

Saturday here and a beautiful spring (nearly) day, going to the markets with Mia and Tye and getting a walk in also. This I know i would not be doing if i had of had my 2 bottles of wine last night.

I read the other night that one vineyard has lost 1+ million dollars this year, i did have a smile and wonder if it was due to me stopping drinking ha ha.

Have a great one xxx

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Samstone;1696788 wrote: NS
just signed on there to see what it is all about. You have 50 free page visits before having to pay. I'm using the same name of Samstone. As Fennel said in another thread, the silence is deafening.
Sam

Hi, Sam

I tried to find you on there but couldn't get your name to come up. I'm there under the same name with the same avatar. J-vo, Giraffe, and Little Beagle are there, too. I think I have 44 more visits before I have to pay. Maybe you can find us and be a Sobermister .