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Nar you dont have an avatar! Dot you do.

Never forget what you used to like Nar, i even remember when i didnt think i had a problem but now i look back the signs "stuck out like dogs balls". I know that i would like a drink sometimes but i am not a normal drinker, i can never be a normal drinker and i accept that fact. Now i appreciate that i can function daily like a normal person, that i can remember every single thing i do daily and i appreciate that i dont drink and that i make my family proud of what i am doing. There was never anything i was proud of in my drinking days, there was never anything good that came out of a bottle of wine and those thoughts i dont forget. I dont forget blacking out, i dont forget the shame and misery that al gave me, the anxiety, the depression, the feeling of no hope. I cant remember what drunk feels like, i dont want to remember but i do no i dont want to go back.

I may be sick today but i know that i dont have any plans of making myself sicker by drinking. God i remember going to get wine when i was sick, nothing stopped me from drinking, nothing!

Giraffe, i lost those fond memories a long time ago. I tried to remember when i felt happy drinking but that was sucked out of me so long ago, like when the children were little, i forget things now. Luckily the children still make me happy.

[Pavati]

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Hi!

Happy the gloamers are finding their ways back home. I hope we can find our old avatars so I can find you more easily!

NARILLY - Bust out some Bubble Hours, read those old posts about how you felt, make a list of what you've gained, go for a run - whatever you need to do. DO NOT DRINK, no matter what. We're with you, sister. Glad you posted here first. I felt MUCH better after month 7 or 7.5, so stay strong - it truly does improve.

Another late night - my dad had surgery today. He's fine, and will recover, but always a bit of stress.

Good night!

xo
Pav

[NoSugar]

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This is going to take some getting used to (and some bug fixes!) but I hope in the long run it will be easier to use. I'm so glad you had another great AF weekend with friends, Pav. The longer you do things w/o a drink, the more normal it becomes. That's what you need to give yourself the time for, Nar. After awhile, ordering a glass of wine won't even cross your mind. Ava, good to see you here! We need you and missed you!!! No one can get to the heart of a matter like you can. Hope all the missing Loamers find their ways back!

[little beagle]

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I am doing a check in and getting use to the newness. I'm glad for the construction. Yeah.

[little beagle]

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My daughter called me last night after a long weekend of drinking feeling CRAP. She had the GSR's really bad. We talked for about 2 hours. I hope she chooses to quit drinking. I would hate for her to go through years of that.
Narilly everytime i start fondly reminiscing about drinking I remember NS' S article she posted about why we only remember the good parts of a relationship and forget the bad parts. Plus having examples, both living and virtual, keeps that horrible, anxious feeling alive for me. Listening to her last night. WOW it really brought it home again.
Have a good day everyone.

[NoSugar]

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It must be hard to see your daughter taking that bad path we took, LB. Maybe your experience will enable her to change her course before it causes her more than the occasional morning of feeling awful and regretful. She was there for you when you were getting sober and maybe now she'll let you help guide her away from the same fate. I hope so.

[narilly]

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Thanks Gals for the support. I know all these things but it can be so overwhelming sometimes. I have been listening to the Bubble Hour, like you said Pav, and just have to stay the course. Stay the course with you Gals!

this site will take a bit getting used to but I think it will be just fine. Glad you all are here.

[little beagle]

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I hope so too NS. It's tough watching anyone go through this. She's been on the phone iff and on crying all day. She feels terrible.

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Nar there have been a few starting to drink again lately and i am sure they wish they had not taken that first drink again, we are not one of them, we cant be. everytime i read about someone drinking again it makes me want to protect my quit more. I am not stupid in knowing that it will only take one farking drink, not 100, just 1. I cant take that chance and neither can any of us.

LB your daughter has you and she is lucky that you understand and dont say like the majority of people "just stop". well if only we could. I spoke to tye for the last few months about drinking and did he want to end up like i was 30 years down the track. His answer was no thank god. He realises that he will be like me or my brother and thats hard for a 21 year old to visualise. He is so much happier not drinking, he is having a few but thats ok, he is 21. he is not drinking alone anymore, he is not waiting to be paid to buy al. they were the signs for me that he was well on the way to living my hell. His friends are so supportive and he is lucky. he told me he had 2 cans of bourbon the other night and felt really drunk and unwell. woo hoo. Im not saying he is by any means not going to get out of control again but he has his life on the right track for now. i wish someone had helped me when i was 21 and could see the hell i was sending myself too. I told tye that we can break this cycle of addiction and his children and his nieces/nephews to be wont see what al does to our family as we will be free from it. I hope i am right. I hope your hubs is back on track also.

Pav so glad you had a wonderful time girl, i knew you would not drink and would have so much fun without al. If i can do bingo sober we can all do anything sober!

Dot how is maddy setting in now?

Im still not feeling 100% so staying home again and i do feel guilty but its about me now. im not hungover, god how many days did i have off hungover, the mind boggles. i am missing walking though, yep i said it! i love my walking now and even thinking of maybe the gym, well in 8 months or so.

[Eloise]

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Test... Ah ... Now its working!

[Kailey]

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I'm having a heck of a time posting in the roll call section for some reason. I'm usually pretty computer savvy, hopefully I'll get the hang of it soon. In the meantime, I want to check in somewhere to say I'm cruising right along on Day 16 with no worries in sight. I feel solid. I read this thread every day and made a decision not to post here daily because I just don't have time to respond to other posts properly and that doesn't feel right. For that reason the Newbie's roll call was fitting my needs. I do follow you all, though, and feel a connection, so tonight, here I am saying sober feels great!

[little beagle]

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Yeah Kailey. Yes sober feels great.
Thanks Ava. Yes my daughter does have me. And i am so glad she does.

[little beagle]

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Yeah Kailey. Yes sober does feel great.
Ava thanks for the encouragement. Yes my daughter DOES have me. And I'm glad for my sobriety. Now i really am here.

[Pavati]

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Hi, Everyone:

LB - Your daughter is lucky she has you to talk to - she might find her way out before it gets too bad.
Ava - I agree with NS - I miss you and your great, straightforward, funny way of giving advice. I hope you stick around with the gloamers.
Nar - How are you feeling today?

I found a journal - for the last year before I quit, I only wrote with really bad hangovers. I was trying to give myself a place to look BEFORE I drank (which of course I never did. This is what I wrote on Sept. 8, four months before I quit - "Real and true fear. Self loathing. Fat belly. Headache. Fear of kids finding out. Fear of the real bottom. Fear of death. Fear. Fear. Fear." Wow - what a difference a year makes. I am SO happy that I don't feel like that any

Hope I can figure out how to get my flower avatar back - I click the button and it appears, but then it goes away. If not, I'll dig something up.

Hope all of you are great. The thread is a little slow these days. Where's WAGS? Daisy? LC? We're missing some key players here.

xo
Pav

[narilly]

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Wow Pav. what a great journal to have. It has been 158 days for me now and I sure don't miss those bad hangovers. I had terrible hangovers and they were starting to spill into my work days. Coming to work hungover, ugh. Now my career it taking off and i feel great, if I was drinking I know my life wouldn't be so good.

My Avitar is flowers from my garden. I couldn't do it quite right so I have part of a petal on the screen. We stll have flowers here and today it will be around 80F/25C outside....us Canadians are enjoying this because in a few weeks....brrrrrr.
Kailey, nice to hear from you.

El, love your wiener dog art!


Lil B, so good you are there for your daughter and that You are sober. Hopefully she will figure it out.

Ava, I am with you on the NO Drinking thing. I will stick to it. Anyway, I am afraid of what you might do to me it I take a drink so that stops me dead in my tracks!:H


Allright sweet ladies, time to work.

xo