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[little beagle]

Pav. I'm laughing.

[narilly]

Pav, that was good. Keep taking care of that knee...exactly!
I am going to go the AA meeting this Saturday just for a little extra 'help' to keep my sobriety. I can see how I may just say f' it one day and take a drink. So if I go to the meeting, keep reading and keep coming here, that all will help. You Gloamers have helped me SO much , thank goodness we are still here for each other. Keep coming back!!

Today, I have the day off and probably tomorrow. I do have some remote access so I have been checking emails but that's about it. Pretty cool to have a couple of days off but it is also weird not to be working. It is amazing how much disruption in routine can mess me up. No thoughts of drinking though.

I listened to the last Bubble Hour which was on relapse and Ellie was on it. It was really interesting and I highly recommend it for all of you.

http://www.thebubblehour.com/2014/10/i-relapsed-now-what.html

Check it out.

Big hugs from the one and only me.

[NoSugar]

Your posts always perk me up, Nar. Thank you. xxoo NS

[narilly]

Love to see you perky NS.

Had a nice day doing nothing, even had a big nap in the afternoon. It's so wierd no having to go to work. Tomorrow I will be more productive.....maybe.

[j-vo]

Hi Girls,

I cut back from 20-10 mg lexapro about six weeks ago. I really think that getting my period this past weekend had an impact on my sadness as well as the change in seasons. October has always been a hard month for me, but a beautiful one. Still, have to keep things in perspective. Life isn't going to be peaches and cream all the time and we're going to feel this way here an there. I don't love feeling like that, but know there are ways to talk through it.

Ava, you're so sweet to Robert. He's a lucky man he has a friend in you.

Nar, I've actually been thinking about going to an AA meeting. Maybe once a week or so. I want to contact a friend of mine that goes, and maybe I'll go with her. I'm still feeling like I need more.

Pav, I guess I get a little frustrated about taking pills. I don't really think about it much, but I'd rather not take them. But if this 10 mg doesn't work, I won't hesitate on going back to 20 for sure.

NS, glad you're feeling perky! Are you looking perky? I bet that new bra helps out with that...

I need to amp up my sobriety commitment. How can we do that on here? Do we wanna come up with a topic or a homework assignment such as we all should listen to a bubble hour or read an article that someone chooses then we can talk about it? Kind of like "book club." What do you girls think. Just a thought.

Have a great night.

[narilly]

J-Vo, how was that book 'Sober is the New Black'?
Maybe we could talk about AL books? There are some good ones out there.

[j-vo]

I'm still reading Sober is the New Black. It's a good one. I love how she talks about specific situations and how they used to play out vs. how they are now. Great read.

I was just on soberistas reading some of their personal stories. That's also another great idea. Keeping these ideas fresh in our minds is helpful to me. Anything to remind me of how crappy drinking made me feel is good.

[little beagle]

I think it's a great idea. I would enjoy a bit of homework.

[Pavati]

Hi, All:

I'm good with a group read. Let me know what you decide! I was irked at Amazon for "recommending" other sober literature for me after I downloaded a few. It is a family account that I use. I figured out how to stop them from recommending things for me. I know it is all out there anyway, but FFS.

J-Vo - I hear you on those pills. I also wonder what it is about our environment/lifestyles that has lead to increases in depression and anxiety. I used to think I was depressed, but I really think I am just moody - I get in low funks, but they don't last long, and I am able to get myself to work, etc. I most certainly used alcohol to get through those, and most certainly that made me worse.

I had a PMS eating binge tonight - felt weirdly out of control. I think I have managed to stop, but I hope that doesn't happen again.

Jane, Jane were are you, Jane?

Nar, I agree - your posts make me feel cheery, too.

Night ladies,
Pav

[narilly]

Thanks Pav xo

I am reading 'Parched' by Heather King and so far so good. I love reading these kinds of books (biographies). I learn so much from them.

I have another day off from work, electricity still not working downtown so today I am going to Costco! Oh yeah!

This electrical fire we had downtown is actually quite a bad situation. I am on prescription medication for my thyroid and my prescription is at the office so now I have to go to the drugstore and ask them for 7 pills until I can get into my office. We are not allowed to go to our building. There are over 500 people who have to find shelter because they have no electricity. I am lucky my house is powered up. It is a pretty big deal this situation we are having.
The emergency command center is by our house and it has been packed with emergency officials since this started. That is where the mayor makes his announcements and the big wigs all go and make decisions during an emergency.

Talk to you beauties later...and gents.

[jane27]

Hi gals,
Thanks for the lookout Pav. I've been busy project managing the dust/mold/air flow leg of the "what's ailing me tour". Lots of folks involved. Takes a lot of time to screen through the people that are just looking to make a fast buck by using fear tactics but I am making progress. Also got some fancy xrays with the oral surgeon today as a follow up to the note on my sinus catscan indicating potential sign of periodontal problems.

Nar, So sorry to hear about the fire and your problem. I take armour thyroid in 30 and 60 mg doses and would be happy to mail you some if it happens to be the med you take and you are in a jam. Love to all

[little beagle]

I'm so glad to see you Jane. I've been worried about you.
Narilly sounds like quite a big deal. I hope it gets straightened out soon.

[KENSHO]

Just started reading a bit and you all are cracking me up. Nice to see a "ladies" room here. Just wanted to comment on the "motivation" topic. I can identify with the "dull" feeling that often eventually comes with the achievement of an endeavor. I strive like hell to implement plans of every sort - then once I achieve them, I feel bored. Can this be part of the lizard brain that we all seem to have in some form? The need for excitement, indulgence, a "challenge", something new? Just thought it might all be connected to an addiction to AL - the desire for a higher high. Hope that knee gets better PAV. J-vo, I have the same issues with Octobers and mood and the light change. It is beautiful though, no?

[NoSugar]

Great to see you here, Kensho! I wish more people on a mission to dump AL would join us - livens things up!

I always have to be working on something - a creative project (usually more than one at a time), a self-improvement goal, learning everything I can about a new topic, etc. I've always been like that - except during the worst of the drinking days... Sometimes I forced myself to make something but it was without creative enthusiasm. Gone were the days of being eager for it to be morning so I could get back to what I was working on. Gone was the satisfaction (and yes, the let down) of completion. It is awful not to care. And it is one of the greatest gifts of not drinking to be inspired and enthused again.

Even the the process of quitting drinking can be its own kind of reward. There is a defined goal, it is challenging (to say the least), and it requires total involvement and commitment. In a weird way, I enjoyed it and was left feeling sort of blah when not drinking had become normal. But that's when old interests got revived and new ones presented themselves. So much is interesting when you have time to explore it instead of acquiring, consuming, and recovering from AL. But you have to be proactive and nurture these interests - it takes more than waiting for booze to hit your brain and work what seems to be its magic but which really is a curse.

[Pavati]

Hi,

So quiet around here!

Good to see you, Kensho. We are ladies AND gentlemen on a mission - to stay sober no matter what. Anyone is welcome to post here.

NS - I think part of what you describe is the Pink Cloud effect - where you feel SO GREAT when you give up and then the let down can lead to relapse.

I am in a non exercising period right now - it has to do with the fact that I am a HUGE baseball fan, and the Giants are my team - so much time spent watching baseball! And doing homework, and working. No excuses, but I definitely feel an energy low when I don't exercise enough. Back to it soon! I have been ok on the weekends.

Glad you're ok, Jane. That mold thing is interesting. Will look forward to hearing what happens with that. My sinuses are always full, but I blame allergies, as I don't have the other symptoms you do. Seems that not every headache I had was booze related.

Still feeling pretty great in sobriety. I shudder to contemplate those out of control times - when I drank too much and knew it. I read the first few pages of Sober is the New Black on Amazon, and she does a pretty good description of that feeling. Blech. Why would I want that?

Ok, peeps. Hope some others of you check in.

xo
Pav