Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

[Pavati]

Hi, Everyone--

-20?!?!? That is COLD. You people are tough. I would love to share quarters with a chocolate lab - at least I'd be warm. Actually, I want a dog but work too much and would feel guilty leaving him home alone all day, so I live vicariously through other people's pets. Frances - that's a funny story about bundling up. My own kid used to hike in the mountains with a T shirt on in the 40F weather (he runs hot), and I certainly got some strange looks.

Alright, Narilly. Good on you for posting that. DO NOT DRINK, NO MATTER WHAT. Come here, text, eat - whatever you need to do. FFS, I hate those stray thoughts that come through. I just had one this week - I am making plans to go out on a boat with a bunch of friends and I actually went down the "I could just have one after the trip..." worm hole. Of course I quickly snapped myself out of it, but jeez. A good reminder that this is a chronic illness.

NS - Perfect breakdown of the facts, as usual. Yes, those are the two episodes. I am so compelled by Ellie's story for some reason. She really sounded like she had it all together, and is so honest about how it all went south because of all of the things I am learning about addiction. Her story has terrified and helped me at the same time (see Pepper's post).

OK - I'm off. I think the new addiction I will have to face in the New Year will be ice cream. SO habituated to it being a reward now - I "get" ice cream because I deserve it. Haven't I been through this already? Hard to quit as I have lost a lot of weight since I quit drinking, and even the ice cream isn't putting it back on. I'll face that AFTER the holidays.

Good night.
Pav

[Pavati]

Has anyone heard from J-Vo??

[abcowboy]

Pav, I've been watching around for her as well, I see her last post was on the 8th. I might need to put together a posse and go searching for her! Whatever the reason, I hope she is safe...

edit - according to her profile, she was here yesterday... at least she's coming and getting whatever support she needs... We miss you J-Vo!

[narilly]

Whew! Glad J-Vo is ok.
Thanks Pav, freakin' illness eh? I wish those thoughts did not come into my mind. It is amazing how we can have selective thoughts about AL. I remember how 'good' it makes me feel, all warm and fuzzy. But as we know, that only lasts a little while and then it is blurry, hazy and sloppy. It is feeling sick and looking like crap, feeling bloated, having bad breath and wine stains on our mouth. It is falling down and saying stupid things to people we love. It is not warm and fuzzy for more than maybe an hour.

Hey, that was good. this posting on MWO really helps!

Pav, -20C is freakin cold for sure, this am it was -16C and my legs were cold walking to work. Gotta get out my snow pants, don't know what I was waiting for. Pav, I would keep you warm. I have a big sucky pit bull named Daisy who LOVES to sleep, she will keep you warm too!

Happy Trails Cowboy, keep warm

xo
Mariane

[NoSugar]

... according to her profile, she was here yesterday.

Hey, ABC, how can you tell the last time someone was here if they don't post? You are quite the figuring-out-this-forum guru!! Thanks, NS

[NoSugar]

I keep having thoughts of drinking tomorrow after work so I will have to stay extra vigilant. Not sure why I am getting this urge. I think it is because hubby is going out curling tomorrow night and I want to go to my neighbours and drink wine. WTF? I am going to come here and post tomorrow for sure.

Nar, just posting this here makes it Highly Unlikely that you will drink tonight. I sort of trained my brain to immediately follow a thought about "just one" with "I don't drink". That cuts off any argument in your head and just makes life easier. If that isn't working, try playing out the 12 or so subsequent hours both with and without drinking -- the right choice will be obvious, especially since you love your AF weekend mornings! xx, NS

[narilly]

NS, THANK YOU!
I forgot to say that "I don't drink" but I do read, watch TV in my jammies, snuggle with my dog and post on MWO...oh, and take a extra warm bath since it is freakin cold here!

I may go to my neighbor's and have hot tea and a chat. That would be nice. My neighbor is one of my best friends and she knows I don't drink....although we drank a TON together in the past and I know she has issues with it.

[scottish lass]

Popping in to say Hi.
NS - if you click on someones name, you get to their profile, and on teh right hand side it gives you last activity.
Pav - I say keep up the ice-cream, especially if it is not affecting your weight! My new bad habit is online shopping and I try to only do a little, but then it all mounts up - I really have to slow it down!!!!
I hope j-vo is ok...going quiet isn't always good....
Narilly - don't you dare, you hear???? OK!
abcowboy - I'll take a doggie cuddle any day - bliss!
Well Friday evening - homework getting done....all quiet here for the moment....

[narilly]

SL, since i don't drink I won't drink.
Ya, online shopping, that really can add up. Take it easy on that. I'll come down and share an ice cream with you.
Have a great night.
I appreciate you Gloamers xo

[little beagle]

J-vo I miss you. Hope you are ok.
We are on our way home. Stop over at my sis's.
Narilly thinking of you. I hope you had a nice cup of hot tea. And we are thinking we're cold HERE.
I'll catch up more tomorrow.

[narilly]

Hey lil and Mr B, drive careful. Yes, I enjoyed my cup of tea.
Thanks!

[scottish lass]

Come and let's get ice-cream Narilly - just found a British food website - DANGER!!!

[Pavati]

Good night, all.

Jane and J-Vo - we want to hear from you! And Daisy! And LC! and all the rest of you!

Nar, of course you won't drink - you don't drink.

I just wrote in the nest about having a small pity party for myself today - it came out of the blue. Hard to be sad for myself for not being able to drink because life is so much better. Wishing for this disease to not be so really won't work, so I guess I'll have to let that one go. I don't want to drink, I just don't want to have to focus on NOT drinking, and I know I have to do that to keep from drinking. Small price to pay, I realize. I'll get some sleep and come back feeling right as rain (or is it reign?).

SL - My weight would be much better without the ice cream, it's just not going up at the moment.

LB - Safe travels. I hope you are ok.

xo
Pav

[little beagle]

I am feeling better. 3 people have reinforced my sobriety this trip.
First PaPa is dying at age 70 from it. A high price to pay. Second my SIL and sister both told me that they are moderating. That they regret drinking. Wish they didn't. Well IF they are moderating, good for them. I sure couldn't. I am just glad to have the freedom from that constant struggle. Yuck!!!
Jane I too miss your posts.
J-vo I love you.

[narilly]

Lil B, glad your sobriety is strong. Your pa pa's situation is terrible. That is something I don't want to happen to me. I know I would be sick and die from AL is I continued. It is so not worth it.

Gals, ice cream, ice cream, let's meet and have some! I will have chocolate. Oh wait, I like licorice ice cream. Um I Think I will have chocolate and peanut butter. Anyway, I will figure it out soon. It is a bit cold here for ice cream. Actually it is so cold that I could leave it outside and it would stay really frozen. I am getting hungry now!

Talk soon