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[satz123]

Lovely posts tonight. Yes, awesome that we're all still here and honored to be on this thread and on MWO with such lovely people.

Glad you're back so quickly, Pat.

Haven't heard from Ava for a while. Hope all is ok.

Xo

Saw on FB Ava's doggie is very sick and at vet

[available]

hi gloamers

Well i am busy, i was never this busy when i drank and that was because i was too busy being hungover or telling myself i will never drink again or planning my next drink.

Pat, its so good you are straight back. The end result is worth it but the shit to get to where i am is not easy. I cant imagine drinking now, its like someone elses life that is in my memories. I dont want to be that person anymore and i am not.

Work is busy and stressful. god i seem to work with all the village idiots but this year things are going to change. i am planning on sending an email to the totally useless office manager explaining that we are a team and what is good for one staff member should be good for all staff members. Last year there would have been no Linda thinking of what to say she would have just blurted it out and stuffed it up. Now i am planning a strategy so he doesnt hate me and make my life hell like he usually does. I wont be treated like shit anymore.

Robert is at home and i see him a couple of days a week when he comes in for appointments. It is lovely to see him looking well. He still has that "cancer" look but he is at home with the ones he loves but our bond is still very strong. Its funny but he is coming with me to a drs appointment on Monday as i have to have some skin cancers cut out at a later date and his priority is to be there for me. I am so lucky to have him in my life.

Maddy my gorgeous 11 year old maltese was sick over xmas but is full of beans now again. My shitzu i had to take to the vets today and she had to have an urgent operation as she had blood in her uterus, so a complete hysterectomy and now she is in ICU. The vet told me she may die so its been a stressful, emotional day. lets not mention the $2000+ vet bill from both dogs i now have.

I do know that i have saved that money plus more not drinking so thats a positive, i wish i had saved it though! I did manage to buy a coffee machine yesterday so another saving!

Other than that i am fine and dandy, just enjoying life, feeling lazy, given up sugar and that is as hard as al in its own way. I nearly grabbed the keys to go to the shops but ate cherries instead!

Glad everyone is sounding positive. Keep it up, there are some great numbers girls and lots of celebrations coming up.

xxxx

[patrice]

Yes I think Ava's dog is ok , thankfully

[NoSugar]

How great to wake up to a bunch of posts - and especially yours, Pat :hug:. I saw this quote yesterday and it really struck me how relevant it is to quitting drinking. Once we realize we have a problem, it is constantly on our minds. There is no way to unthink that one and go back to ignorant bliss. Which means that drinking will never be the guilt-free reward it once seemed to be again. It will always be accompanied by shame, regret, frustration, and fear. At some point, those so far outweigh the perceived rewards that something does click and you've succeeded one more time than you've failed, which is all that is needed. So always keep trying.

[narilly]

Yay!! Look at all the wonderful posts! I don't have time to read because it's 8am and I am going out for breakfast. Up early with No Hangover. Oh yeah.
Are we kickin butt or what? Everyday without a hangover is a blessing.

Hope they have good coffee at this new restaurant we are trying.

Talk soon.

[j-vo]

Very frustrated. Have to remember to write my post in word before posting. Lost another.

Pat, sounds as though you worked through your situation well so that you're thinking of each thing you need to be aware of. It didn't help anything, but it didn't hurt too much. At any rate, it will hurt if it continues daily, That's the part that catches up with us. Strength your way.

Nar, I agree with Pav, that you sound fantastic and are so chipper and positive. I want what you girls have, for sure.

Ava, sorry about your doggie. Thinking of you. That's sweet of Rober to go with you to your appt. You're got a special relationship.

I read AB Cowboys post and it struck a chord with me. I've had lots of emotional difficulties, anxiety and depression all of my life. When these things continue to suffer, then relapse can happen. Well, I think I need to search for a good therapist who has strong background in anxiety and depression. I've been to therapists before, but had been in denial with my drinking. Will make that a goal to start searching for someone good.

And last night, I made a choice not to go to the restaurant with the basketball parents. They're not a heavy drinking group of people. They'll have one or two and call it a day. I wasn't sure that I could trust myself though. I was feeling really tired, anxious, and had a rough week, so I made the choice to go home. Hubby went and told me this morning that about four people at our table didn't even drink. Maybe I thought I'd be the only one not drinking? Maybe if I was the only one not drinking, I was afraid I wasn't strong enough to say no. So I didn't go. Just a choice that got me one more day.

Have a great night. Thx for all the great posts.

[scottish lass]

Pat - well done.
This was my quote for a while....a dream.jpg Maybe it will help??

[Eloise]

Jvo- i think it is smart to avoid occassions where you have to face alcohol right now. No shame there. I still do it if I think my not drinking might become a discussion.
There has only been one occassion where someone (who hardly knows me at all) decided to quiz me about it. Sorry, but he is just an ass anyhow.
�� onward and upward ��

[narilly]

Pat, Glad you came straight back here. When I read your post I thought, of course you had a whole bottle. Can you imagine coming here and saying "ya, I had 1 glass of wine and I don't want to drink anymore"? I mean Who has only one glass? Not us! That is why we are here because 1glass is never enough.
Whenever I get that urge to drink I always ask myself, Can I just have one glass? The answer is always no. Ya, one bottle maybe!
I hope that makes sense.

J-Vo, good call on not going out. At the beginning of my sobriety I missed a bunch of events because I just wasn't strong enough in my quit. That is the most important thing right? Gotta stay sober.

Ava, I hope you can get your boss onside. U.S. Gloamers are going to have to come down and kick his ass for you. Lol
Sorry about your dog. It sure sucks when they get sick. Glad you and Robert have each other too. F'n cancer!
Hi TT ans Satz!
SL, big hug to you, you will have good dreams tonight in your comfy bed.

El, this guy was quizzing you? He probably has a problem himself.

We went to this new breakfast place this morning and it wasn't that great. They served Un ripe tomatoes, my frittata was mediocre and the service was ok but not very friendly. Coffee was good though.
We have really good breakfast places by our house, I think we will stick to them.

Anyway, a great sober Saturday here, hope everyone wakes up UN hung.
If I was Chinese I would name myself UN Hung.....ok that's lame but it made ME laugh.

[Pavati]

Night lovelies.

I feel like I escaped, too, Jane.

Hope your dog is ok Ava. I can't believe you gave up sugar. I think I'm going to get there eventually.

NS love your long posts. So true that we can't unlearn what we know about ourselves and alcohol. I don't think I could ever enjoy it again.

J-Vo. Good choice if you were feeling like that.

Going to search for cowboy's thread to say hi.

Xo
Pav

[Pavati]

Ps Can you tell I'm on my phone again? Terrible!

[patrice]

Hiya,
Thanks for the encouragement to keep going.
SL- thank you, yes that's a great quote, will print it out tommorrow
NS - yes very apt. I've spent the last few years learning and arming myself with information about addiction and no, I can't unlearn or unknow any of that...it is sometimes frightening to see how dumb I can be..the wine on Friday night and yet I can almost hear Dr. Kelly's voice on the bubble hour.. I've probably almost memorized that one!
JVo- I think it's really important to get that depression and anxiety under control.. Like many people I also suffer, at times, from those awful feelings. I'm still not sure what came first, the depression or the alcohol abuse. Over the last 10 years I've taken anti depressants twice ( 6 - 12 months). Depression started rearing its ugly head about a year ago again but I managed it pretty effectively for a while with high doses of a variety of Amino Acids. It became untenable to carry on doing that because it's so hard to get that stuff here ( was getting it all from the U.S...expensive to have it sent here and touch and go whether it gets through customs!! Not sure why??). So 2 months ago I got some AD's and I feel heaps better. Just not having that low grade depression makes being AF that much more manageable for me on a daily basis. ( but as you can see what happened on Friday, they do not help you stay away from booze)
Hope you are all having a good ole sleep.
It's hot here ( surprise surprise !) and I'm cooking a beef stew, slowly. It's already been on for 2 or 3 hours and the meat is NOT falling apart and tender.. Wow this could turn into a 12 hour cookathon!
Happy Sunday all. So grateful I didn't blow the whole weekend ( as I usually would ) and I am Un Hung !
Xx
Pat

[lifechange]

Hello Gloamers,
A lovely Sunday morning we have here-- cool and sunny.
After 2 days of the worst headache ever, I feel good! Yesterday it was so bad, I could barely keep my eyes open. Strange, it was, as even pain killers didn't help.
I did read here, but couldn't get my thoughts together to post.

Pat, I am glad that you came back ASAP and learned something new from the experience. I don't know why it has to take so long for a lot of us! to accept the fact that we can't drink and that it's actually a blessing not to poison ourselves. I'm always amazed that this addiction can make me forget everything I know about it.

I loved your posts, NS.. thank you for those. Always right on, exactly what I need to hear.

SL, I couldn't read the quote-- it was too small on my computer. Could you write it out for me when you have a minute? I'm very excited about your year celebration coming up.. You are truly an inspiration to me. I remember clearly your struggles and your approach to becoming sober. And that it finally clicked for you gives me hope and strength.

J-vo, I just wrote in the Nest a bit about what you're saying. I think depression has been underlying and supporting my addiction as well. When I get the alcohol out of my system and am sober for longer periods of time, I am faced with myself and with what/who I've become. I know we all deal with this and I probably haven't given myself enough time without alcohol to be able to see clearly. But I have found it so difficult to get to that point. I think it's a great idea to find a therapist, one who specializes in addiction, perhaps, to talk and deal with your problems one on one.
I'm going to head to an AA meeting at noon to check it out, get a bit of support. I've often thought of and talked about doing the steps to see if it helps me to clarify and clear up some of my stuff. But I've never really begun.. Did you see the article Fin posted in the Nest yesterday? It was interesting, good to read.
And good for you on passing up the restaurant!!

Pav, it sounds like you had a lovely, full weekend. What part of CA are in? You may have already said, but I've forgotten. Are you still seeing your therapist? I remember when you started seeing her (him?) it was the first time you were able to admit that you had an addiction. Did you search for someone who specialized in addiction? I'm just curious because I'd like to find someone here-- it's very difficult to find a good English speaking therapist here. But to be honest, I haven't given it a full on try.

Ava, you're sounding great! I'm glad to hear you're going to stand up to the village idiot(s)! You bring so much to that job-- they should be on their knees worshipping you! :heartbeat:

Narilly, LB, Jane, Eloise, TT, Satz, all Gloamers checking in today..:hug:
I'm so grateful to have you all in my life.

p.s. J-vo, It takes me so long to write a post that when I'm finished, I always copy it, then sign in again, paste and post quick reply.. haven't lost one since I started doing that.. fingers crossed!

[j-vo]

Thank you for all your supportive comments. It means so much.

SL, great quote. Time is what we need our side to beat this addiction. And patience.

Pat, whatever came first, the depression and anxiety or the alcohol abuse, I guess it doesn't matter. What matters is that we take care of whatever is causing us to make the poor choice of drinking away these problems. I know I drink to numb my feelings. It's time to face them.
I'm on antidepressants, have been for a very long time. Until I've been away from the bottle for at least a year or more, I won't attempt to go off of them. I tried that in October and it was a bad idea.

LC, yes, facing ourselves and our pain without alcohol is hard. We are feeling, and what we feel is not always good. I think a therapist would help with that. I was thinking of contacting a friend of mine that goes to AA and going with her for the extra support. This quit seems to be more difficult for me. I need more support right now.

Had a quiet night at home last night. I didn't want to go out, as I'm not ready to do anything right now. I just want to stay in where I know I'm safe. Son came home last night after he took his girlfriend to the movies, and I can tell he was looking at me for any signs of alcohol. I don't blame him. But I'm happy that I could show him I wasn't drinking.

[narilly]

Good morning, Un hung here

I am looking forward to a nice Sunday of hanging around the house. It is going to be really nice. I love just being home with my hubby and dog....and son when he is here.

I read Cowboy's post last night. It was a shocker but shows how strong this addiction is. If we don't take care of our emotional issues how can we stop ourswlves from drinking? Any excuse our AL brain has to rear its ugly head it will take.
I am so glad he is getting help, it is wonderful to have him on MWO.

Have a great day.