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[lifechange]

Hi Gloamers!

I'm pooped after a long week. It's been a good week, but long.
J-vo, I'm glad you're feeling better today. I'm believing what Jane says, that every little thing adds up to more than we think it does. It seems like such slow moving at times, but in the long run, if we stay on track and are brutally honest with ourselves, if we take the time and energy to talk it out, find solutions, take care of our bodies, it MUST add up in the end, right?

LB, that was such a good of example of keeping a cool head and practicing serenity!! I'm quite sure I would have had a breakdown or at least cussed someone out! How are the Spiderman costumes coming along? Which day do you celebrate?

I went to another AA meeting today after work.. I've made the commitment to go twice a week, mostly to keep myself accountable. I like having something to look forward to that involves meeting people who don't drink. Most people are "working the program" but it doesn't seem to be a problem that I'm not in the traditional sense. I like some of the steps and I much prefer to share here with all of you! But the set time and the hour long time frame are good for me!

Looking forward to the weekend and even more forward to next week when I have the house to myself for 2 days!!!
I NEED quite a lot of alone time and it's not always so easy to get! My BF doesn't understand that there is a difference between being completely alone in the house and having him around. Go figure!!

Nar, what are your brekkie plans for Sunday?
Pat!! hope you wake up feeling refreshed and full of energy!!

Love to you all and wishing you a wonderful Friday afternoon/evening/Sat. morning!!

[little beagle]

Great to hear from you Jane.
LC the costumes are ready for the parade which is the 8th. Our big parade is the 14th, and Mardi Gras is the 17th. It's carnival season. A huge thing here. Lots of celebrating. But it's a great time to be sober, so much more fun to not regret what you did.

[narilly]

LC, we will be going somewhere. I'll keep you posted.
My cousin is having his 40th birthday party tomorrow so I have to remain vigilant. No slip ups. It's supposed to snow and get really cold overnight so I will use driving as an excuse, plus my cousin knows I have quit. I am going to wake up Un Hung for Sunday breakfast!

J-Vo, I wish this month wasn't so tough. You are getting through it though. I am proud of you, I know it's been a struggle.
Hi Jane!
Goodnight Gloamers.

[Pavati]

Night, all.

J-Vo - Kick ass, lady. I didn't realize you were that badly injured in your fall. I'm glad you're feeling better. Sorry for the struggle.

LC - I keep saying here, I'm curious about the fellowship of AA meetings, but I am too chicken to go in my small town. I am with you on being home alone. I LOVE that, and rarely am...

I had an unexpected night alone with my husband as both sons decided to do things at the last minute. Apart from the fact that I had purchased enough to make dinner for four, I was happy to have the time to catch up. When the craziness of life goes away, I realize I actually do love the guy, and we actually have a good time together when we're not running from one event to the next. I really have to remember that I can't overbook myself like I did this last month...

Jane - I'm glad all those things on your list are getting crossed off. AT&T doesn't have great service around where I live, but 35cents is tempting. Let me know if it turns out to be a bad service. Have fun in FL, and hope you feel better, too.

Ava- Happy Poppy is there for you. Your wry sense of humor makes me laugh out loud.

LB, NS, Nar, SL, El, Pat, Cowboy, G and everyone else - HAPPY SOBER FRIDAY!

xo
Pav

[j-vo]

Morning,
Another un-hung Saturday morning. I love mornings like this. I'm meeting a girlfriend for breakfast (un-hung) and going shopping at Target. Have to put a Chinese Auction basket to gether for next week's baseball fundraiser. No, not basketball isn't over yet and baseball is already starting! That means spring is coming. Yeah, I'm pushing it, but we'll be heading to Florida in March for a baseball tourny. I'm looking forward to some warm weather.

Nar, enjoy your party tonight. Thanks for all of your encouragement. I appreciate you and your upbeat attitude.

Pav, injuries were pretty nasty. Concussion, my thumb is still not right, bruises and scrapes. Not pretty, but I'm healing and I don't want that to ever happen again. I know what I need to do. Not drink and I probably will never have a concussion again. Unless I decide to take gymnastics class, and I have a feeling I may not do that this year.

Jane, thank you for your post. I agree that the further we get the less power it has. It's so hard getting there, though. But with the support and taking all necessary steps, it's a matter of patience and faith that it will happen. Seeing all of you girls and guys making it is a great inspiration. And I know being here daily is a must.

LC, I'm glad you're going to AA and doing it your way. I can see me possibly going to meetings with a friend, but doing it my way. I think being with others like that is what keeps people going and accountable.

LB, can't wait to see pics of your precious babies in the parade!

Have a great day.

[narilly]

Good morning!
Great J-Vo, enjoy your breakfast Un hung and so will I.
I am glad you are working through this difficult time. Like you said the farther we get the less power it has.
I am going to the market with hubby. We will have breakie there. Maye Huevos Rancheros or a buffalo breakfast sandwich. Yum!
It snowed about 5cms (3inches or so). What a surprise this am but a pretty surprise.

[abcowboy]

Howdy gloamers! I'm still here and doing darn good! I wish I could wrap up the contentment I feel and share it with others! We all seem to go through our times of struggle, with ourselves, with those around us, and our addiction. But as the old saying goes "when the going gets tough, the tough get going" And we do have to get tough, tough with ourselves to protect whatever quit time we have and build on it! When I was attending my AA meetings, I heard the old timers talk about their "spiritual awakening" I didn't buy into it as I thought that no higher power would take away my compulsion to drink. I had to find a way to do it myself with the support of those around me. I finally understand now what they were trying to tell me, no higher power is going to take away my addiction, but my higher power (God) is going to give me the strength needed to get through this. I could go on and on about my troubled life, how I thought God had taken all those I loved away from me, how I thought my kind of God would be so cruel. I lost my faith and left my religion many years ago because of this. My faith is restored, but I highly doubt that I will ever go back to church, but a church is simply a building, I don't need a building to have faith. But I do know that something profound happened to me 20 days ago, and the only person I think I have to thank for it is God. So enough of my preaching lol, I know what worked for me won't always work for someone else, but adding more people to our support network sure can't hurt!

I've been following along with the posts, and I think we are all finding our way, in our own way. I enjoy reading the positive posts from so many as I know that as time goes by, I will be just as positive. I enjoy reading the posts of those who are struggling, not because of their struggles, but because they are letting them out, getting them off their mind so that they can move forward. You can't carry those thoughts and feelings around and expect to recover, you have to get them out, then let them go. And even the posts of people just checking in, saying they are here for us whenever we need them!

There are so many people and tools right here to help us on our journey, we just have to make use of them....

Have a great Super Bowl weekend everyone, remember, when the going gets tough.........

[narilly]

Wow Cowboy, that's a great post.

I agree, we all have to find our own way and everyone's way is different. We just have to keep after it so we can live the life we want. I still struggle with my AL brain saying, "you can control your drinking"
That scares the crap out of me. I know the struggle and if I start I don't know if I could ever get back to a place where I would quit again. I don't want to spend the rest of my life in the struggle. Anyway, I won't drink today. I know that.

Thanks for all your support here Gloamers.
Cowboy, your kicing some butt! Way to go.

[daisy45]

Abcowboy, I love your posts....even in your darkest times positivity shines through; it isn't just those with months and years that help us along here. Having someone like you around makes such a difference.....there is a ripple effect that carries how you feel and touches each one of us here. Keep it up and thank you.

[j-vo]

Evening,
Had a nice day. Went to breakfast with a girlfriend, shopping, then home to get a few things done. Proud of the small things I got accomplished. That always feels good.

We're supposed to get lots of snow in our neck of the woods tomorrow, and I kind of don't mind it. We may all be 'stuck' in the house and have to lay around and watch movies. Bummer! NOT!

Have a great alcohol free Saturday.

[scottish lass]

Checking in - just looked at days and have just 20days to go to my next goal, but i am struggling - there seems to be so many calls, and thoughts of just one. Went out for dinner last night - first time in a very, very long time....wanted a drink when we were doing the girly thing and getting ready, then wanted a drink with dinner. Had wanted a drink yesterday I was was feeling sorry for myself. Want a drink today because I am being an ass. Many thoughts of now being cured and being able to drink 'normally". What the heck???? This is just so stupid...
I know a relapse spends days coming, and i have been thinking of weaning myself from MWO - thinking now this is just all the danger signs.
I know what I want. I know what I need. I know what makes me happy - so why the heck does the stupid voice inside my head not know all this too???
Full moon coming up - blaming some of this on that. Daughters birthday making me melancholy too. Both will pass, praying that the crazy talk goes away too.....
Gloamers - glad you are here tonight. I as jot my thoughts realized that I had just invented one of those excuses that i just had to go to teh store for - did not buy what I would have 18months ago, but holy moly!!
Will be signing in Unhung tomorrow - and damn it I better be happy about it:exclaim:

[NoSugar]

SL, you don't have to be happy all the time, you need to just not drink. It isn't fun to feel sad or melancholy and our brain knows the fast and dirty way to "fix" it. And we all know how well it works in the short run! This is just one of those times to play out the scenario if you do drink and if you don't. Think about how you'll feel in 20 days if it isn't your 1 year anniversary. I know this all sounds negative but sometimes that's where we are - making the better choice from two options that we don't really feel good about. In a couple days this will not seem like a big deal and I think you'll be so glad you spoke up. :hug:

[daisy45]

SL, looking forward to you posting tomorrow. You will be happy you wake up sober....hope this passes soon for you.

[available]

SL i am feeling for you. Some times i can cruise through a situation where al is involved and not care i am not drinking and even now, i can have a family bbq or dinner and just wish i could have just "one". Thats all i want so i tell myself, just to be normal and be able to drink like others do. But reality is i cant drink like others can, i cant have the "one". I always tell myself maybe one day in ten years. Ten years in the big scheme of things is not that long and by then i hope wanting/craving al will be a distant memory.

My son is coming up to 2 years crack free. I ask him if he thinks about having a smoke and he said not anymore, i know what it will do to me and i dont ever want to be in that place again. I listen to Liam and follow in his thinking. If he can do it then so can i.

20 days till one year, that is a huge achievement in our addiction SL. Not many people achieve that, the odds are against our addiction but you are winning and you will keep winning i am sure. Happy birthday to your daughter, she must be so proud of her mum as we are.

[narilly]

SL, there is some good advice here. I agree with all of these smart ladies. I know what it's like to want to drink out of the blue, sometimes it ust sneaks up on you. I totally agree with what you said, a relapse spends days coming.
The full moon always used to be my excuse for why I got drunk. Uh maybe I got drunk because I can't control my drinking.....blame it on the moon!
I know that if I stop posting eventually I will start drinking. Dr Kelly says that people who are part of a support group have the highest success rate in terms of staying sober. I believe that and that's why I keep coming back. We are good for each other. You Gloamers really have helped me to stay sober.

Get through this SL, come here and talk about it, that helps. I still have my moments of wanting to drink but not as many as I used to. I'm going to give myself 10 years like Ava. In 10 years hopefully I won't even think about it.
Big hug.