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[scottish lass]

Jane - sorry you are struggling - it seems you have so much change going on just now and fresh starts - hopefully the changes in your home will up your sense of being a bit....self diagnosing scares me, probably as I am in the health profession...I know that you and I have disagreed in the past,. and I am not wishing to repeat past behaviors, but please be cautious with the internet diagnosis....ok?? :hug:

Big girl called me last night from her sleepover to say goodnight. Left youngest in bed when left for work today - rainy day (yeah!!) so hopefully she gets lots of rest.
Jane - is your tag along with hubbie to somewhere nice?

I often want to drink just now - it is interesting how easy it is to remember the good, and have to make a conscious effort to recall the bad! My thoughts however are so different from cravings and I can move them along. I am afraid I still have resentment about not being able to enjoy a glass or two, but it does not overwhelm me - I get the relatively constant thoughts "of things are good so have a drink", "things are bad so have a drink" - but I lived that was for YEARS so probably a bit ambitious to feel it would all go away in a year!

Wet day here today - wonder how many people will think that the drought is over!!!

[jane27]

Thank you SL. My doctor didn't buy into my diagnosis either; I have Hashimoto's disease. When I presented him with my flare up theory he told me that its chronic and so wouldn't be behind the cause of my feeling (acutely) tired and gaining weight out of the blue. That's hard for me to believe and contrary to what I've read, so I'm not convinced that he's right. My weight fluctuates by 20 lbs. I can go thru long stretches where I can eat what I want within reason; then all of a sudden the weight starts to pile on and only stops if I keep my caloric intake to a minimum. Its really strange.

Hubs trip is to Chicago, but I'm going to stay home. The crew doing the work at our house is falling behind and has to work over the weekend so I'll stick around to make sure everything goes well. I'm relieved. How was your audit? Were there any findings? I used to take them very seriously and make myself sick with stress. In the end its mostly politics, but I was never able to treat it lightly- I'm too heavy handed & OCD for that.

I was a c t i ve today and got a lot accomplished. Much heavy lifting and I am tiiiiiiiiiiiiiired.

NS, I hope your journey home is going smoothly.

Love to all. Anyone watching The Americans tonight?

[scottish lass]

Hashimotos - wowee...I do hope that you get an answer, and you are able to then deal with it....
I love being tired from being active, it is so much better than being tired from office work.
The audit seemed to go well. It was left on my shoulders, so I hope it went well - the exit interview felt very benign, but we will wait for the written before breathing too big a sigh of relief.
I am glad you are relieved to be staying home - I am a home body too.....

[narilly]

SL, it is better than being tired from drinking too much .

Hey gals, I am totally beat and falling asleep.,I will check in tomorrow.

Xo

[jane27]

Goodnight Gloamers, see you guys tomorrow! Xx

[Dottie Belle]

Storms, thunder and lightening. Dogs are afraid and I am not a fan of this weather either. More times I miss having him around...well when dont I miss him???
Cable guy should be here soon to fix the box upstairs. I will get rid of it when the stupid promotion is over. I dont watch that tv much I got it for hubby so he could watch something else if I hoarded the TV in the family room or I would do the same. Having basic cable will be enough up there. Must stop the cat from sleeping on the warm box so I dont have to keep replacing it. Or it is cheap equipment.
Class starts tonight so I am hoping that will be good for me to get out and meet new folks who dont have any memories of there being and US all the time. Just me and what I have to offer ....should be good.

[bear73]

Hey everyone,quick whizz in here,went for a skate outside tonight and it was great fun.I met up with another derby player,lovely to see her and to chat.
seeing my good friend from my old team tomorrow.
First day back at work today,and it wasn't too bad at all, almost enjoyable - well compared to other jobs,not compared to last week of relaxation.I feel grateful though as I have had jobs that make me truly miserable.
anyway have fab night all - I'm having drinking thoughts too - think it'd change of season/bbqs/pub gardens etc etc.BS though - will make me feel rubbish.

[little beagle]

Pav thanks for that link. It really sounds like what I'm going through. Tired of the same thing and burned out. But I know this will pass.
Dottie meeting new people and getting out. That's great. Glad you are working so hard to get through this. My dogs hate thunderstorms too.
Jane I love your tales of your house. Treasures in the walls. I'm going to have to remember that.
Quick check in for me.

[NoSugar]

Me, too. I'm wiped out -and am now buried in work. Guess my life is a little too "full" at the moment but it will get resolved. Hope you all are doing well!

[narilly]

Me too, I am so busy at work and just baked when I get home.

I too have been having drinking thoughts but I try and stomp them out. I have to make sure to keep coming back here. You Gloamers help me so much.

Have a good night.
Xo

[treetops]

Hang on in there and keep on top of the drinking thoughts Nar - and all other Gloamers! I am very happy to report that I haven't been having any. It does get much easier.
The only rare time I seem to get a bit iffy is when I feel sometimes feel flat at the end of the week - but I know this will pass and I try to find ways to cheer myself up. Often just small things work. Writing out my thoughts to myself helps too. Unfortunately I sometimes get the urge to share this on MWO. :exclaim:
and I try to remind myself about others in the world and the perils and troubles they face- without or with AL.

I am a bit preoccupied with work - and don't have much to report otherwise. I hope the course is interesting for you Dots and offers some new direction in life.

[Pavati]

Hi,

Sounds like all work and no play for the Gloamers. Nose to the grindstone here, too. Life is truly FULL. We are all on spring break next week so there is light at the end of the tunnel.

TT I haven't had drinking thoughts either. We can balance these others for now. The "why can't I be 'normal'" thoughts don't come nearly as often for me either. I know you all won't drink, but those thoughts ARE a pain in the ass.


Glad you're getting out, Dot.

Xo
Pav

[jane27]

I worked like a beef cake dude today. That darn dumpster really got my engines reved. It's full already and I have another one coming Saturday. Really making progress though the big bad rooms ( the basement & my office) still look like hoarders heaven. A friend is going to come over Saturday and Sunday and help push me through getting rid of stuff..
Wishing everyone a good night. See you tomorrow. Xo
Ps Pav, do you get a Spring Break off too or is it just the kids? Do people go away at all? We went to Florida for Spring Break when I was a kid. I have wonderful memories.

[jane27]

Hi Gloamers, Bleary eyed but up. The project to restore the family room has totally changed in size of scope. Originally we were just going to repair the sheetrock wall which had to be ripped out on 2 sides. We also decided to for Pergo instead of replacing the wall to wall carpet. The level of mouse activity in the walls was enough to make me barf. The ate so much insulation I'm surprised they survived. One wall had no insulation at all. The marble wall is almost down complete and there's another layer on paneling behind it. I think Im going to try using the marble to make a decorative wall . I am 100% lost on color. I've read that you're supposed to start with the furniture for a reference color base. We have an olive green striped couch from Crate & Barrel that i don't like. WE have 2 read paiisley slipped chairs from Target that I recovered myself in an effort to cheer up the olive green. We also have 2 recliners from Macy's that look like paisley with food poisoning. There's a dark wood coffee table from Pottery Barn that no one uses because its in an awkward place, 2 small children's trunks that have crayon drawings on them which get used as end tables. Where do I even begin? The budget is shoestring/creative.
Hubs is in a funk over whet a mess it is. I feel BETTER because at least we're moving forward. Decor wise,where do I start? I guess look for a good furniture layout? WE have hang the tv over the mantle now. I am clueless about all it. It it smarter to try and reupholster the couch or buy a new one? Sure is a project. I used the power drill yesterday to hang bikes on the wall. Can believe how easy the screws go in when everything is right. That happened once. lol Starting master cleanse tomorrow. How is every one else?

[Dottie Belle]

More storms on the way. I just hate being here alone when there is bad weather. He was always here to keep me sane....
Off to run some errands with my trainer gal. She cant drive with a sprained knee and her husband is working so this gives me something to do and someone to talk to.
Gym with her later and also the grief counselor. I sure wish I felt better NOW but I know this all takes time but this type A personality makes me want to fix how I feel and make it all better..sigh.....