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Well went to the drs, my sons ad's are put up to a higher dose which was a plan when he first started, my daughter is not dying, which she thought she was as she is suffering from bad anxiety and me, well i am good, bad cholesterol is a bit high and good cholesterol is a bit low so need to change diet intake and he did mention exercise. I am not sure the blood test i had did liver function as i cant find anything on the results he gave me and i am sure they would come up as LFT's is that correct? My vitamin D is low so i have to take some vitamins but i can do that and i am in the healthy weight range. Here i thought i had gained 150kgs since i gave up al and ate lollies/chocolate etc. Im saying this as i am eating chocolate eclair lollies. Will be glad when this sugar fix ebbs. So none of us are dying and i think the dr thinks we are freaks lol but he is so lovely.

[NoSugar]

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Great news, Ava !

Are there any results for AST, ALT, GGT or anything like that? Those are standard liver function tests. What about triglycerides (TG or TAG)? That is generally a better indicator of heart disease than total or "bad" cholesterol.

Isn't it great to have that behind you? I still can't believe you can have a regular appointment on a Sunday!

Glad to hear that the whole Ava family is hanging in there!

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Yes NS there are results for them and they are all normal, woo hoo, way below the highest reading. The TRIG is 1.9 and normal is less than 1.5 so not much but he did say that he did say out of a hundred people with the risk factors that i have 4 are likely to have a heart attack or stroke. I told him i felt sorry for those 4 people.

It is great they are open on a Sunday as i normally try and go after work which is the last thing i feel like doing and god forbid when i was drinking, that was cutting into my 5.15 witching hour ha ha. The kids were very proud of me.

[HumbleRider]

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Thanks for the 70 day well wishes, all. Pav, I wish it were 80! I feel very good today, less anxious. Good news on the medical front Ava. I'm going to zone out and play a mindless iPad game and then read a little before bed. Have a good MAE, AF~

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Sounding good, Ava! I feel sorry for those other 4, too! So great that your kids are supporting you and are proud of you.

Sorry to age you by 10 days, Humble. Just put that in your pocket and bust it out in another 10 days - we'll celebrate more then.

What is your mindless iPad game? I love those. I am back to Candy Crush ATM but always looking for a good diversion. I also just started a good book, so I am excited to be in bed, sober and tired from a good hike. Glad you're less anxious.

I was actually more anxious today for a few reasons, but the exercise helped. Dinner with the family for some birthdays - it was delicious and fun. I had a slight tug when DH pulled out the good rye whiskey, but it was only slight and went away quickly. I just imagined the headache and the sour stomach I have experienced from too much whiskey - poured myself a fizzy water and grapefruit juice and I was on my way.

We're missing a few folks here - hope you are all ok. Stay strong, loamers!

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Hi Girls,
Yes Ava, I have been struggling but also unable to get on the internet all weekend...hasn't helped.
Will be back at my normal time tomorrow
Glad all ok with you girls

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Ok where has everyone gone? Now i go to sleep and wake up thinking i will have a great read with my cup of tea before i have to go to work and basically nothing!. I just hope you are all busy and Jvo where are you lovely. We need your happy posts on here or a post at least to let us know you are ok.

SL posted a thread about blood tests and very interesting read. It is good to have someone in the know as i know nothing. Thought they didnt even test it lol.

Humble my mindless game is farmville 2 on fb, passes the time but getting over it as i am over candy crush as i cant get past a level.

Its hard Pav, well not hard exactly but when i seen that man with a wine it was like he was the only person in the room with a glass but it went. Its like we find money on the ground, we zone in so fast and then either go for it or move on. Lucky we move on.

Pat glad you had a check in and are trying, that is all we can do really. Keep on here. We are in for a scorcher of a week and last night i had to put the fan on but i had 2 sleep vitamins so maybe i had too much as i didnt sleep real well. Back to one today

Well better get ready for work, my dic*head boss is away for 2 weeks so my life is good at work. i have pretty well gotten myself up to date so not much to do. taking a usb in to watch some tv shows ha ha. hoping traffic is quiet still but wont hold my breath on that one.

Take care loamers and hope you have a great sunday and think of me slaving away!

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Sorry, Ava - busy day for me. Just stopping by to say hi, and onward to my son's basketball game.

I had a bad stomach last night but feeling better now. Now I just want to sleep!

I'll check in later. Happy Sunday, all.

[j-vo]

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MAE Ladies,

First of all, thank you, from the bottom of my heart for being so caring, kind, and supportive. You're all so lovely, and in my daily prayers. I am back traveling the journey I was meant to travel, with you beautiful ladies.
Ok. Day 1 for me here, and I wrote in my journal what happened. In a nutshell, I was feeling pretty down about myself, emotionally, and didn't use the tools that I should have. Number 1 tool, at the very second I was feeling low, and the Al entered my brain, or at least when I recognized the idiot being there, I should have automatically called someone. I have four phone numbers from women here and one who lives close by. So I ignored the most important tool at a critical moment, and fell in Al's hole. I should say Al's A-hole. Anyhow, at critical moments like that, make sure you have someone you can call, someone you can trust and someone you know will help you.

What I've learned from this last fall, is that no matter how many days we have, we are still vulnerable, and Al, being the cunning A-hole he is, will get you if you don't use your tools. I've learned that when my emotional state is unstable then I must be proactive, even if I don't want to.

What my husband has learned and admitted to me this morning, "jvo, you can't drink" and "you shouldn't drink." He's really never said that to me. And I'm glad that he did and is admitting that it's not good for me, and never will be ok for me to drink.

I'm going to be logging my days in the Newbie's Roll call. I think everyday is going to be something to be proud of. This week, I'm going to concentrate on reading the posts I put in my journal, along with reading the toolbox. And I'm still contemplating on seeing a therapist. I have a phone number who my girlfriend sees, and she really likes her, so I may give her a call. Probably not until after basketball season ends, but that's something I think I would benefit by.

Again, thank you for your support, It means so very much to me! You ladies are wonderful and I'm grateful for you.

[j-vo]

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MAE Ladies,

First of all, thank you, from the bottom of my heart for being so caring, kind, and supportive. You're all so lovely, and in my daily prayers. I am back traveling the journey I was meant to travel, with you beautiful ladies.

Ok. Day 1 for me here, and I wrote in my journal what happened. In a nutshell, I was feeling pretty down about myself, emotionally, and didn't use the tools that I should have. Number 1 tool, at the very second I was feeling low, and the Al entered my brain, or at least when I recognized the idiot being there, I should have automatically called someone. I have four phone numbers from women here and one who lives close by. So I ignored the most important tool at a critical moment, and fell in Al's hole. I should say Al's A-hole. Anyhow, at critical moments like that, make sure you have someone you can call, someone you can trust and someone you know will help you.

What I've learned from this last fall, is that no matter how many days we have, we are still vulnerable, and Al, being the cunning A-hole he is, will get you if you don't use your tools. I've learned that when my emotional state is unstable then I must be proactive, even if I don't want to.

What my husband has learned and admitted to me this morning, "jvo, you can't drink" and "you shouldn't drink." He's really never said that to me. And I'm glad that he did and is admitting that it's not good for me, and never will be ok for me to drink.

I'm going to be logging my days in the Newbie's Roll call. I think everyday is going to be something to be proud of. This week, I'm going to concentrate on reading the posts I put in my journal, along with reading the toolbox. And I'm still contemplating on seeing a therapist. I have a phone number who my girlfriend sees, and she really likes her, so I may give her a call. Probably not until after basketball season ends, but that's something I think I would benefit by.

Again, thank you for your support, It means so very much to me! You ladies are wonderful and I'm grateful for you.:l

[acadiaofmaine]

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welcome back, J-vo, and thank you for your thoughtful post. another learning experience, for you and for us all.

One of my friends who is also in recovery says "you HAVE to pick up the phone. Not just when you feel AL's call, but when you feel intense emotions that you need help with. Because the AL thoughts will come."

It's hard for me to pick up the phone but I think it's a very smart thing.

Bless your husband. Valuable and supportive feedback!

Ann

[NoSugar]

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You're showing your courage and determination, J-Vo :l. I know this can be done because I and many others here are doing it and we are no better or stronger or smarter than you. We found the approaches that worked for us. Yours won't be the same but it is out there - and you're getting close to getting it figured out. Your plan was good before but there needs to be an implementation "switch".

I wish our friends who have posted here before or perhaps have read but not posted would come join you for another, more focused, more "likely to succeed" try. There is no failure unless you quit trying.

If you can't reach someone by phone or text or email, you can always sign on to MWO and start posting. Use that NEED HELP ASAP section if the situation is critical. Or go to the Newbies Nest or your own journal thread and type what you did today before you drink. I bet you will be be able to talk yourself out of it! Or someone will read your post (especially likely in a busy thread like the nest) and help you make the right choice.

This forum and your friends truly want to help all of you who are struggling - please give us the chance before you choose to drink and have to start again.

:h NS

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Ann, I agree with that, although that's something I am guilty of "not" doing. I need to pick up the phone. Why did I? Because I didn't want someone to try an talk me out of it. But if I don't want someone to talk me out of it, I'm sabotaging myself, my sobriety, my health, my life. I don't want to self-sabotage anymore. I want to start loving myself, and treating myself with the respect that I deserve.

Thanks NS. I will use that NEED HELP ASAP if needed. I'd rather call and bug you, though : ) I will give you that chance for sure if there is a next time, or even when I'm feeling low, emotionally unstable (Ooh! That could mean daily calls!). I know I don't want to keep starting over. I want to get months, years, decades of sobriety because that'll mean I'm living my life happily. Living the way a healthy person lives.

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Ahhh so now the loamers are busy while i am at work. lucky i cbf'd doing any work so am on here, actually i am always on here, while i am awake MWO is on my laptop or computer just in case i need support or to vent.

Jvo we live in different time zones but i will always be here when it is your night time. It breaks my heart that we have to deal with the struggles of al and someone we care for is in pain but we are all in this together for the long haul. We all have our ups and downs and i think we can never do it on our own. I am lucky i have my children to support me if i feel the urge to drink. I tell them, they say no, i say okay. I just need to hear that word no to realise that i cant, i cant let me down and i cant let them down. Maybe you should chat to your son Jvo and explain to him, i think the big thing that keeps us more determined is being accountable. I am sure if he said "no mum" you would definitely think about it twice.

Ahhh here i am rattling on again.

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Ava,
Having your children so supportive is wonderful. I think now I can count on my husband to say "no" if I said that. And actually, I'm going to tell him to say it like he means it! Not just say a wishy-woshy "Maybe you shouldn't drink." I want him to pin me the hell down and scream it in my face. Oh! That may just lead to other things!