Hi Loamers and welcome caper, i have seen you around the threads on here but never really said hi, so hi. Oh forgive me now but i am always abbreviating but i have so much to say and the quicker the better. God i even had a quick check in at the NN and waffled on for nearly a whole page. Oh well.
Now this "level headed" business, wow thats such a compliment thank you and when i mention it to my kids they will laugh their arses off but i do appreciate your kind words. I love this thread and yes you are totally right you just know when you have made it home and this is it!
Oh Pav, i love you, posting a post of mine. God i feel as if i have finally achieved something Woo hoo. To be honest Rahul was annoying me, a thought i should not have as everyone has their struggles but he was nearly making me drink!. Now look at him and i am so proud of his achievement.
Byrd is my inspiration and she has given faith in myself to do this journey, she has faith in me and this has never waivered in my journey (well maybe a tad) and i love her for her wisdom. I did so love her moderating post when she was 50, that is something i will never forget that she honestly told us what eventuated. Go those VIKING glasses!
NS i think my problem before with not drinking was i was terrified of never drinking again. It petrified me so if i had the urge to drink i didnt want to tell anyone as like Jvo said "she wanted to drink". When i finally understood that i can NEVER drink again that is when acceptance kicked in. I think there are a few "lights" that need to be switched on before we can totally give up al.
I want a better life "click", I dont want al to be my only friend "click", i dont want to destroy my body anymore "click", i dont want to lie anymore "click", i want to be completely honest "click" and I dont ever want to drink again "click". As i said on NN before my son had a can of al and i just said to him to put them in the freezer as they will get colder quicker. No thought of asking for a can, no wanting to have a drink or thinking of how i could pinch one, nothing and i was so damn happy about that.
Humble you are so right saying how low we got and we still went on drinking. I dont dwell on the past but i will never forget my drinking days though mind you i did forget a lot, a hell of a lot.
Pat, Pat Pat, it is a farking dry heat, 11% humidity, no air con and i am trying not to think about it. Was going to be 39 tomorrow (a huge relief NOT) but now up to 41.
Jvo lovey you can ring me anytime day or night, you mean a lot to me and if it means me hitching a ride over to hit you over the head then i will have too. Where there is a will there is a way and i am always around with MWO in the background just in case i am needed, its the least i can do to pay back what i have received from this site.
well another short post sigh. Oh went to the gym with my son to get prices and their air con didnt work so not joining up today so saturday it is. The guy said "that will give you a few days to think about whether you want to join" and i said "i know i dont want to join but i have to". So yummy mummy by 50 for sure. Only taken me 45 days to get motivated but time to join a bit of society.
Love you all xxxx
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