Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

[NoSugar]

Hi, SFx. I hope your holiday turns out better than expected. Knowing for sure what my role was in all conversations/disagreements/meltdowns is one of the best things that has come from not drinking. I had lost so much self-confidence and got to the point of assuming most things were my fault because I couldn't remember for sure exactly what was said or what happened.

LB, I'm sorry you're feeling lonely. You know you have friends here so don't hesitate to get in touch if you want to talk :hug:. Last week I was wondering how asocial I might really be! My main companions were a dog and a baby who can't talk yet and I LOVED IT! I must be a maximum introvert or something.

Where do you watch Nurse Jackie, Jane? I've heard that is a good show. I'm into Bloodline on Netflix right now. As with most shows, these people seem to drink all the time!!

You're probably off on your trip by now, Nar - have fun!

Hi, other GLoamers - hope all is well with you. NS

[jane27]

Hi there,

I'm just heading off on a holiday vacation too Jane. I don't think I 'm quite as relaxed about it as you are...... I'm so excited to be with everyone, bar one of my sisters who I find hard work!

I'm feeling relieved that I won't be drinking while I'm there as I fully expect there will be some sort of meltdown from her and at least I know that at the very very worst, if it does kick offf, and I get dragged in, then I'll be sober and not end up feeling that it's all my fault . SF

Good Morning Gloamers, Where ya headed SF? If I sound relaxed about mine its only because a month ago, I had the extended family vacation from hell; its kind of like riding a recumbent bike after doing 20 minutes worth of sprints. I hope anyway! Re: feeling relieved about not drinking- thank you for that! I had forgotten what a relief it is not to be held prisoner by the the compulsion to feed the machine & all the fun stuff that goes along with it- getting rid of the empties, feeling like hell in the morning.

Last week I was wondering how asocial I might really be! My main companions were a dog and a baby who can't talk yet and I LOVED IT! I must be a maximum introvert or something.

Where do you watch Nurse Jackie, Jane? I've heard that is a good show. I'm into Bloodline on Netflix right now. As with most shows, these people seem to drink all the time!! NS

NS, I can relate to your comment about enjoying being alone. I haven't figured out how to exist in a group without feeling like I'm bleeding energy. To hubs' dismay- we pay to watch Nurse Jackie. I think we view it through Amazon Prime.

Feeling better than I have been but still not great. Last week at the rheumatologist, I had a blood test called Avise Panel 2.0. Its specially geared towards identifying autoimmune markers. The results are still pending. Happy to have crossed off the ENT, and Cardiologist off the list. Remaining = Neurologist, Eye Doctor, Sleep Study, Allergist and possibly Gastro.

I'm not hoping to find out I have got something seriously wrong with me, but it will be weird if all these appointments and tests show nothing at all (That has been the case with regular lab work).

Thinking of everyone and sending hight fives and hugs. xoxo

[little beagle]

Jane I can think of worse things to spend money on then something to watch and enjoy. And you don't regret the next day.
Have fun camping Narilly. I can almost smell the campfire and the coffee. And unhung is the best. Waking up in the outdoors with the whole day stretched before you feeling good.
NS I find myself talking to my dogs a lot these days. Reminds me of one of my ladies. She claims she's talking to her cat, but the cat has long since left the room.
SF being sober makes difficult situations so much easier to deal with and since your sister has to take her frustration out on everyone, maybe you' ll escape the brunt of it. And I really enjoy doing fun things sober. And remembering them is the best. I'll be thinking of you.

[little beagle]

NS I do know everyone is here. I just take it day by day and hang in there. I promise to talk to someone if I need to.
And yes Jane I have time. Oodles of it.

[Pavati]

Hi, All:

I am BACK. Whoot. A great, sober vacation for sure. I am happy to be back in my own bed, but really enjoyed unplugging for a while and focussing on my family.

I don't have time to read back now. LB - I hope you're feeling ok. NS - I have discovered that while I have always considered myself a social person, I LOVE alone and quiet time. I find a way to get it a lot more often now that I am sober.

Jane - Good luck with the results. Dang, that's a lot of docs.

Missed everyone. I hope all is well.

xo
Pav

[jane27]

Welcome home Pav. You sound refreshed and energized! I'm glad the vaca was great!
Lil, gonna call you tomorrow. Love to all youse. xoxo

[treetops]

Welcome home Pav - great that you had a great vacation.
LB - you really do sound sad, lonely - its a tough road being sober sometimes. We just have to deal with the stuff. I also think as many of us now see reality in a clearer way - it comes with a price. Our times of delusion and fooling ourselves are over. But as you say LB, when we do have fun, we can really feel it - and remember and value it.
I don't know about you guys but I procrastinate far less than I used to - and unfortunately my 'get on with it' attitude can rub some people the wrong way. My daughter reminds me to be a little more humble and accept that people do things at different paces.
Just work - and some family tension here. A broken computer (my daughters one) 's the house is the latest domestic crisis. My partner, who is an IT professional, had to be kicked along to look at it. Groannnnnnn……

Hugs to you all.

[jane27]

TT, I think its great that you've become more efficient. I procrastinate a lot, and I wish I could improve. About 5 years ago, my doc prescribed low dose Abilify as an adjunct to my Prozac. The effect was barely perceptible- one day I realized I had totally stopped procrastinating. If something was on my to do list, I just did it. Unfortunately it made me hungry as a he man, so I decided to stop taking it- but it was interesting to see a unexpected POSITIVE side effect for a change.

NS, I was reading an interesting article about Hashimoto's yesterday. It recommended some natural supplements- vitamin D & Selenium. I was wondering if you take any vitamins? I have been gaining weight since reducing my thyroid medication. Also, the cardiologist and GP believe I should be taking Synthroid, as opposed to armour thyroid. Apparently out of whack thyroid levels can raise cholesterol, so this is the first step to see if we can get mine to come down before going to a statin.

I rallied last Saturday to work out with hubs and the trainer. Good God am I sore- especially my "riblets". They hurt so much that I feel like I've got an 8 pack!

Hubs has worked really hard to plan fun things for the vacation & I am looking forward to it. A2 who is on the small side for his age, got his mop cut last week. Its really short- almost like a crew cut. He looks so handsome. Its made him look taller, older and he seems more comfortable in his skin. His voice is baritone deep. I think it threw him for a loop when it changed because. He's always been on the small side, and looks a couple years younger than his age group. He got comfortable with that early on, but when he woke up one morning sounding like Darth Vader, and was still a foot shorter than his friends- well, I can see how that could create embarrassing situations when having to talk in front of the class, or meet new people. He's been hiding under the mop of hair for the last year. Who would have ever guessed that cutting it short, would make him look older and taller!

Nar, have you ever run into any big animals while you were camping? I was reading a 'how to survive anything' book not long ago, and there was different advice for what to do when you see a brown bear vs a black bear. Either would scare the !@#$ out of me.

Wishing every one a great day and thinking of each of you doing your thing. Sending hugs & love.
SL, thinking of you.

[little beagle]

I've seen a bear when camping in New Mexico before. Fortunately it was in the distance and I was in a vehicle at the time. Up close would be very scary.
TT I'm feeling better. I too try not to procrastinate. My list of daily chores seems to get longer every day. But I try to set a certain few things that must get done. Anything else is bonus.
Glad you're home safe Pav.

[treetops]

Glad you are feeling better LB. Its my turn now - really weepy today and down but I suspect I might be coming down with a virus as I have a headache I can't shake, very sore eyes and am so tired. And the work pile is endless.
No bears here though!
Sorry I am such a sad sack but if its the illness thats going around, not much I can do.

[jane27]

TT, sending you a hug. Wishing all my Gloamers a good EMA. X

[Pavati]

Hi, All:

I definitely procrastinate less since I quit drinking.

TT - Sorry you're feeling down. I hope you feel better soon.

Jane - cute description of A2 - and a good observation about his hair. My son got his hair cut short and I miss his mop - ah well...

A bit of a quiet time for the loamers. Nar, SL, NS, Ava - how goes it? Addy? Everyone? Bueller?

xo
Pav

[treetops]

Thanks for the kind wishes - got some sleep (but not enough) and feel a bit better but still vulnerable. Not to AL just to the weepies. But big day at work being a boss - so chin up!
How is everyone else - enjoy your warm weather altho LB I appreciate that it must be very steamy and muggy where you are.

[little beagle]

TT it is beyond hot here this summer. It's record breaking. Everyone is feeling lethargic. Hope your virus goes away Fast.
It is a quiet time here.
My hubby has an appointment with a therapist next Saturday. I haven't talked to him all week. I refused to until he made that call. Sure I texted him, but kept it short. I'm not making him do anything he doesn't want to do. I think he's just frightened to take that first step. But I could hear the relief in his voice when we talked about it tonight.I pray this is what puts him over that line, into really getting serious about working on his addiction.

[Pavati]

Hi, all:

LB - love and hugs to you. I hope Mr. B finds what he needs to get that monkey off his back once and for all. Sorry for the heat. I heard a news story today that it is registering up to 130s in Iraq right now - and the women can't even go swimming. Not to minimize your pain, but it seems to be sweltering a lot of places right now.

I have been enjoying delicious summer fruits and veggies. I love the summer - long days and delicious food. I am glad I don't live where it gets so hot, however.

Off to sleep.

Narilly - you around??

xo
Pav