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[SHADES_of_IDAHO]

Hi ,

It's been awhile since I've been on here. Every time I long in there's a problem with it. It gets frustrating so I'll try 3 times and time outs lately it seems to be loggin in ok. Except every time I write a post I must long in again. Yikes ! I am like you have set times on the computer. I will always will remember your kindness.
And I think it's great your learning to sew. What are your starting out with.

Good luch hope & you have fun.

Take care.
Shades

[Guitarista]

Hi y'all.

Happy birthday Jane! :bellydance::rara::woohoo2:

[treetops]

Hi there Mr G.
News tonight - a branch of Wendy's (the drive-through takeaway chain) in NZ wants to get a liquor license to be able to serve alcohol - 24/7 for patrons who dine in. The spokesperson actually said so that people can have a beer with their burger for breakfast.
I am not sure what appalls me most - the burger or the beer for breakfast. The excuse being, apparently, that we need such things for when there is a Rugby World Cup on and people are watching rugby at all hours. Maybe I am just out of touch!

[j-vo]

I have to be honest. I do sneak on mwo while I'm at work sometimes. It's when I have a break here or there. But mostly while I'm at home and that gives me time to think about the posts that I read.

Choices, great advice! And this is a journey and we learn from our mistakes. Sounds like you have a good balance.

LB, that's a great hobby to learn. What have you sewn?

Nar, I believe that some 18 year olds are not ready to make big decisions in their lives. And if he's not ready for college, that's so not unusual. I wasn't ready until I was 22 and so many young adults go to college when they're ready and more mature. Like you said, he's bright, and a great kid. You're blessed!

Hi Shades, the site and our computers can be tricky at times. When I try to copy and paste, it screws up for me. Hang in there.

TT, Wendy's!!!!!! A fast food chain. omg. And a beer in the morning? Sure, that sounds quite normal, in an alkie's world.

Had an early meeting before school and have one after school with a textbook rep. I so hope we can purchase new textbooks!!!!!! Need badly.

I'm having lots and lots of drinking dreams, and the dreams are never a drinking outing when it was fun. Mostly something stupid I did, said, or embarrassed by the amount, or sneaking something. I don't know how long these dreams will last. Maybe forever, since I've been drinking that long.

Have a great day.

LB

[Choices]

Ewwww about Wendy's! I imagine it's one of their last efforts to even stay open. What a dumb idea. Hopefully they get denied. It goes against a lot of the campaigns towards trying to improve the drinking problem in New Zealand.

I just started learning to sew too. Well, since my daughter was 6 months old. I've been taking classes in a continuing adult education high school. I love it! I haven't been finding much time to do it... But now that I'm not drinking into the night anymore I'll be able to set up again. It's really gratifying. Are you teaching yourself?

I'm feeling pretty good. Did my weight training class yesterday and was back to my normal weights. I didn't feel as beat up as I did last week thank goodness. Today I have RPM. I'm feeling pretty amped about it. I love feeling this way in the morning! Just wouldn't trade it. I feel closer to my daughter too more present. Hubby is working insane hours. Leaving at 6 and getting home around 8. Bed by 9:30-10. I'm barely able to keep my eyes open by 9:30 myself now. The evening is better sober now. I can finally see that now, having almost reached the two week mark. Not nearly as disorganized and in a haze. I must have been exhausted. And couldn't even feel it because I was drunk. Feeling some compassion for myself for that marathon. The afternoon witching hour is still a bit tricky but I feel like I'm gaining on it.

Hello to everyone! I hope your day is going well.

[Choices]

Oh, I meant to mention something about drinking dreams! I've been having them almost nightly. Really involved ones taking me back years. They are quite lucid. I'm just glad to wake up. I don't know how long they last. I had them my first quit too and was always glad to wake up. Then I had them during my 18 month relapse and would wake up and be hungover, that was the worst.

[j-vo]

Choices,
You sound really good. I'm glad you're more present for your baby and doing good things for yourself.

As far as the drinking dreams, I'm with you on that. I have them almost every night. Maybe every night. It's never a pleasant, buzzed, happy dream out having a good time with others. It's always a bad drinking experience - someone being appalled at how much I'm drinking, me doing something stupid, and people just showing disapproval. That's because it's all happened and it was a terrible feeling. I guess I could say traumatic. Yes, drinking has created trauma in my life. I don't know if it'll go away, but I believe it will. The more good days, better choices without alcohol, all of this will build up, just like the al free days will build. I believe that my confidence will be restored. One day at a time. I'm not expecting huge or miraculous things to happen. I know difficult times, uncomfortable times lie ahead, but I'm going to take them one situation at a time.

Have a good night.

[little beagle]

J-vo that's all you can do. Just take things as they come up.
I still have drinking dreams. No so often, but enough to remind mysrlf how awful it feels. And that's exactly how I take it. As a warning from my subconscious how drinking really is and how upset I would bevwith myself if I did.
Shades how is your son doing? I think of you both daily and say a little prayer. Ok. Do not laugh at me, but I have been sewing mostly dog clothes. They don't care if it's perfect or not and it's a great way to learn. Next project that I'm starting on tomorrow has a zipper. My first one. We will see!
Choices it is wonderful to be there for our children. One of the best reasons for not drinking in my opinion.
TT I know it's not funny, but the way you said that made me laugh. Not sure which is worse, the burger or the beer for breakfast. I agree, it's gross.
Hope your job is going ok Narilly. I had a lot of time by myself this summer and it was pretty good. Good luck for your son. Being smart, he'll make the best decision.

[Choices]

Just checking in. Only to really post because this afternoon I thought about a bottle of wine a bit too much. Long good day, RPM, met up with a mum friend and our daughters played the afternoon away at a museum. Great catch up that lasted hours. On the way home in traffic... Is when I'd usually stop at the bottle shop... Come home cook.., and get drunk. I of course didn't tonight. Ironic as two weeks ago, same story happy, tired, traffic, bottle store, drunk... But dangerously out of my mind insane. Scary how tricky the reflex can be. I almost kinda forgot I have a problem. I instead just looked forward to going to bed. This was at 4pm. I remember my mother always saying that and I thought she was crazy. (My mother rarely drinks). I guess this is the first dinner I didn't make early..

[Choices]

All thoughts have pretty much gone away, just posting. Yep, it's funny. This time of night. The friend I saw today was also pregnant. My husband and I have tried for a second for 2.5 years now. Not to really go into it.. We decided to stop a month ago. I know that drinking heavy really can affect fertility... Etc.. So informed. My drinking wasn't heavy the whole time we were trying, just really escalated the past 5-6 months. The last month after a negative pregnancy result my drinking sky rocketed. Obviously, I've been using alcohol to cope through this secondary infertility... And it has and always will backfire. Since my episode 2 weeks ago I haven't really even thought of getting pregnant, only that I need to sort myself out. Seeing my friend didn't upset me, but maybe there is a sadness there that is deep, where I really need to be on my toes re alcohol. Like seeing my family. Just strong emotions that I haven't and might not ever completely understand. Only thing I need to know is don't drink no matter what.

[treetops]

Fertility can be unpredictable. I got pregnant at a time I was drinking very heavily. That is not something I would wish on anyone - it was very very scary. You said it "where I really need to be on my toes re alcohol". Thats what you need to focus on- and the rest will follow.
You are doing really well and if you get any twinges - just read back to your posts almost 2 weeks ago. See how its clocking up!

[j-vo]

LB, heehee, that's awesome that you're sewing for your babies. i love it. Ramsay could use an outfit if you have time!!!! We've been looking for a coat for him for the winter and it's so funny to see the coat only cover have his body. Haven't found one yet, but will look on Amazon. You've got good tools, ma dear, keeping those hands busy. And you're right LB. Taking those dreams as warning from our subconscious. I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I'm making new memories now and maybe they'll be in my dreams in the future.

Choices, you're doing so well. Coming here when the urges hit, posting. Keep doing that. And good for you for passing up the liquor store. I can relate to your miscarriages as I had three. One before my son and two after. It wasn't a time in my life that I was drinking heavily, but after all of that, it's when I went downhill. It can really affect us, and it's so sad. I've read books on only children, and just like alcoholism, it takes time. I worried my son wouldn't be ok as an only child. But it's all good! I'm so proud of the man he's become.

I've been up since 4 a.m. Happens sometimes. Getting ready to shower and start my day. I'm leaving for Philly tomorrow after work and will stay until Sunday to be with Mom. I hate the drive, but she's worth it.

Have a great day.

[Choices]

Hi everyone, thanks for the advice TT and J-vo. And thanks for saying I'm doing well. It helps to hear it. Fertility sure isn't always an easy story for so many. I didn't wake up as perky as I have been. Weird dreams, this time not drinking but ending relationships, break up dreams. Subconscious is quite amazing. About to start my cycle so probably a bit moody... Hubs watch out! Lol. I've got one more voucher to the cinema... So while my girl is at school that is where I'll go. And..I am SO happy to be sober in this dumpy mood. If I were hungover I would feel like it was the end of the world.

[treetops]

Hope you pick a good movie! I slept badly but it nothing to do with booze. Just me and I don't even have 'cycling' to blame it on anymore.
Hi there to everyone else.
My daughter is going to school today dressed up as Dorothy from Wiz of Oz. This is for Halloween. We don't celebrate it at home but it's creeping into our culture a bit. But not like the US.
Be good all.

[scottish lass]

Hi - stepping back in - good to see the same faces, some returning and new faces - well seeing you all in my mind.
As i posted back in summer, I did drink on holiday - then managed to not drink first week going home, but could not last the second week. I have had a drink from time to time since coming back - I am not nearly back to my old ways, but realizing that I prefer to not drink and ready to give it up completely - easy to say but not so easy to do.
I still love a good glass of wine, but once I have one it is so much harder to stop at one - easier to mot have any. I am also noticing how even "just" two glasses make me feel yucky - so working out what many of you know - not really much point!
I really have not overdone it which makes me happy, but I keep saying never again and a week later I have a couple glasses, so think it is time to step back here and get some more af time back under my belt...
I do fear heading back to the rabbit hole again, and I hear voices telling me that I am ok, and that worries me - don't want to be worrying about it anymore.
I did like my af stint - wish that I had not given it up, been really hard to stop completely again so need to be checking in here to stay on the path that I know I really want (90% of the time!)
Hope all are good, have done a little reading back but not all the way....