Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

[Starfish1]

Scottish Lass, I have missed you! I am back too!!! Glad to see you!

[Samstone]

Hey SL
glad to see you here
Sam

[Guitarista]

Good to see you back SL.

[treetops]

Looks like you brought the guys out of hiding SL. :hug: Welcome back and you too Starfish.

[paulywogg]

Good to see you SL

[j-vo]

Halloween...I work at a middle school and today was Halloween costume day. It's such an insane, crazy day! Lots of candy floating around, contests, kids just full of energy, excitement, and sometimes that leads to trouble. So grateful I got through this today! Oh, I ate loads of sugar today, and I was kind of feeling guilty about that, but I looked at the success I had most days this week with a little exercise and small amounts of sugar.

SL, great to see you back. I just came back last week, too. I have no delusions of moderating anymore. I am working on my AF life and sobriety because no matter how hard I try, I want more and more. Whatever it is, it's never enough. And I'm afraid for my health and not really getting to know the adult that I am. I feel as though this battle with alcohol has really taken away so much of who I am. I don't even know if I'd like to start a new hobby or not. I was always interested in doing fun decorating in my house, and I do every now and then, but I'd like to spend time doing little cool projects. Not now, as I don't want to overload myself with too much, but I can see in the future that it would be fun. I'm really glad you're back. Let's do this together.

[NoraC]

SL - great to see you!!

[little beagle]

I can honestly say one thimg J-vo. Alcohol is no longer a battle of willpower for me. I don't drink. That's it. That stray thought comes now and again. But i firmly tell myself I don't drink. No matter what. Whew. Now the sugar thing.....
Good to see you back SL. You've been in my thoughts.
Choices you are doing great. The deal we have here is that when we are feeling weak, we post and wait for a reply. Of course if we aren't able to wait, we have an emergency, back up plan. Mine is to call my daughter, or even get in t H e car and drive to ner house immediately. I have used it a couple of times. But it saved me. I glad ypu are posting your thoughts. Good for you. That time at the museum sounds wonderful.
crazy day at work J-vo. Glad you weren't hung over for it.

[j-vo]

LB, I want what you have, so I'm just going to keep going, one day at a time!!!

Checking in this morning as I don't think I'll be on here too much this weekend. I'll be driving to Phila. later today and will relieve my Dad of his caretaking duties with Mom. I hope everyone has a great al-free weekend. Thanks for all you do for me here.

[scottish lass]

What a nice welcome back - thank you everyone.
J-vo, we have partnered before and happy to do so again :love:! Star :hug:
G, Sam, Pauly, TT, Nora, LB!!! Good to be back.

I have had a couple messages from friends and it has made me think more as to why I signed in.
I am doing really well - all in all. I have started awareness, that thou I love autumn, it can bring me down - I have been drinking in what could be termed moderation but I believe that I am scared that that will not last.
I did some reading and read Sam and Addys posts about losing sober time. I will learn from them.
I have said often (to myself) in the last few weeks "no more" but it is not sticking when said to myself, I need the support and accountability and comradeship here.
I truly am not looking for any antagonism, but it seems as if this thread is surviving nicely without that so I am a little relieved to be back.

J-vo - I also want what others have as LB describes- and I know I have not had that in the past. I have always had the door open a little...

So, happy Friday all - groceries done and no wine slipped in!

[jane27]

Hi folks,
I had my first real drinking dream this week. Couldn't believe I had blown nearly 2 years of sobriety. Made me feel so crummy, even after I woke up. My Dad drank at dinner on my birthday. Just one glass but he mentioned that he'd also had 2 at lunch with a friend. This after having quit drinking in January due to neuropathy in his feet (that's what he told me anyway). His attitude about quitting has been politely defensive -doesn't think he had a problem, or that having one will cause the house to come tumbling down. I know better than that. Maybe this is what resulted in my having the drinking dream.

I was talking to Byrdie the other day- complaining about something -and she said, 'but look at how far you have come. Look at how much better you are today, than you were 2 years ago." And that was an eye opener. Things may not feel great yesterday, today, tomorrow- but nothing nothing nothing is even a pale shade of the color shit that was my life when I was drinking.

SL, welcome back ☺ I missed you but I also had faith you'd return. You achieved so much with your last quit and everything you learned from it is right there with you. Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen. ~ Emerson

Wishing everyone a great day. xo

[Choices]

Wow, I just read through and have so much to contemplate. I just love being back here. I saw the 'Dress Maker' in honor of sewing yesterday. It was alright.. I think it's adorable that your sewing dog clothing beagle. I keep sewing skirts, or pillow cases.. I enjoy it so much. I'm pretty tired so skipping yoga today and just going to see my little girl swim. Major drinking dream last night with two ex boyfriends. I even felt guilty that one was buying all the beer. And one of my former employers was there. Maybe that's why I'm tired I was partying all night and embarrassing myself in front of my boss hoping my husband wouldn't get mad I was spending time with ex's in my subconscious ! Ahhh.

J-vo... Your description of Halloween at your school really made me reminisce about Halloween in the states. I sure do miss home on some holidays. Good luck in Philly.

It's good to see you SL I remember you from before. I can really relate to your posts... I was doing the same thing for a long time. Mine escalated at the end, but I'm glad your back. It doesn't need to get really bad to stop. Wish I would have done this sooner. Even a month, would have saved me some regret.

Hi to everyone! I can hear my girl crying so need to see what's happened

[Choices]

Just real quick... Where can I read about loosing sober time? By Sam and Addys? Not sure where to look? Thanks

[scottish lass]

Hi Choices! It is so nice to see you as well!!
I am lucky that my drinking has not escalated - I would probably be fine if I stuck where I am at, but realize that is highly unlikely - so want to get off before I get in a pickle.
I read around a lot yesterday - fighting a cold, so was just being lazy - I think i saw it on the 100 day thread. If I recall right Sam speaks of just one beer unrailing him after 4 years, and Addy speaks of a few years too and having to start over.

[Choices]

Thanks for that. Yeah, I was probably OK for a good amount of time. I think it was just knowing the other side of it. Like when your completely AF for an extended period of time you just feel better overall. Ya know? Just health wise all around. I knew I wanted to quit. In my heart of hearts. But didn't want to totally quit like I'd done before... Because of the parts I did like. Until I just knew I needed to. Had too etc. It's such a personal decision in the end.