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[scottish lass]

Be fun to meet up - is LS in Ca NS?
Pav and I have mentioned it but never put into action! I think we are both a little private/shy and therefor neither of us pushes it.
I am pooped - went to walk this morning to try and sort out thoughts from my work week - the dogs I walk owner is away, and the house sitter was still sleeping so I took an old horse for a walk instead - so therapeutic to speak thoughts out loud and not get "helpful" responses!!
LC - happy 30th - its a good one, one everyone tells you to aim for...
I have so much to do this weekend - all the work that I didn't do at work as I was dealing with disasters. And all the home stuff I didn't do because I was out such long hours and not sleeping when in...I am having a better on call day today, and one more to go to finish this stint, then I better stop whining don't you think!!!
The tumble drier just played its tune so off to put laundry away.
Grismal here today - grey and dismal!

[j-vo]

LC, congratulations on 30! Super duper work. :welldone:

So, I was in rite aid getting a few things I needed before basketball, and a couple in front of me, reeked of alcohol so bad! I had a "thank God" moment. Thank God that I don't smell like that anymore.

Tired. Nite All.

[little beagle]

Congratulations LC.
I'm really putting some work into the 3ps. It really seems to be helping me. A lot. Thanks NS.

[lifechange]

Hi Gloamers..

Thank you for the well wishes yesterday.. I had a night of drinking dreams, which kind of sucked.. but it was nice to wake up and realize I hadn't done it. I was pouring huge plastic cups full of brandy out of a flask and even my dad, who drinks too much, was shaking his head.

J-vo, that happens to me often.. that someone around me, on the tram in the morning, or in line at the grocery, reeks of alcohol.. makes me shudder to think I smelled like that at very odd hours of the day, in very inappropriate places and thought I was being sneaky. Thought no one could tell. yuck. It especially mortifies me that I drank at work. I'm sure the women I work closely with must have known. I feel very fortunate to still be employed.

SL, you are soooo lucky (as are you, El) to have contact with horses. I grew up riding and always dreamed of having a horse in my life. Here it's so difficult.. I still dream of it, though.. maybe if I move back to AZ at some point. I know what you mean, having someone to talk it all out to, who just listens without answers.. just the walking and the gentle presence of such an amazing creature can help!

LB, how's everything going with you? It's great that you're seeing differences using the 3P's-- I've been following along on that thread, too.
I've been concentrating a lot on pinpointing my fears. Realizing that most, if not all, of the negativity in my life comes from fear. Facing the fears head on and then choosing to change my frame of mind and act with love instead, is helping me a lot. Like someone mentioned earlier, nothing else is necessarily changing in my life, but my way of looking at things, and then how I choose to deal with them is changing. And I think, in turn, the ways in which people deal with me/the quality of relationships/time commitments, etc. will also change for the better..

I'm excited because I feel like I'm finally taking the right steps, doing the work I need to, to be successful as a sober person. I feel like I finally get the gratitude thing and can dive 100% into that and not feel deprived. Let's see.. I know I'm in the beginning stages.. and I might have said all of this before (sometimes I think I have the memory of a goldfish)...but it feel so good to have the devil off my back right now!

Just told the little one that we could go ice skating this afternoon.. she almost lost her socks, she was so excited. I didn't give the girls nearly enough of myself as I was drinking. I don't know how many Sundays I missed out on because I was passed out by noon. Don't ever want to go back to that terrible place!

[NoSugar]

LC, you sound different to me this time - more like you're gratefully relaxing in to this opportunity for an AF life rather than fighting to achieve it. It's such a more effective way to rewire our brains, which I believe is essential for the quit to stick.

Congratulations on your final first 31 days :hug:.

[j-vo]

Morning Gloamers,

A bit of a challenge today as I will attend my niece's baby shower, then head over to the hospital. MIL broke her hip and is having surgery. So busy day, and I can handle the extra challenges on a Sunday (I'd rather be relaxing on the couch) as I'm unhung.

LC, you sound fantastic, and I love your outlook. Thank you for sharing.

LB?? Where are you? Would love to hear from you.

[narilly]

Grismal day? Lol, NS, that is good. It is Grismal here too and warm? It is so weird having weather above 0 in December. I have my turtle neck on and am waiting for the cold!

Way to go on 31 days LC! Keep up the good work, you sound great! Yahoo!!! 31 days!

Jvo, hangin on the couch sounds good. Too bad you couldn't just come over and we could watch some chick flicks and drink tea. All of us can fit on my couch I think. Wouldn't that be fun? And no one would be drinking!

Have a fun Un Hung Sun everyone!

[j-vo]

Awwe Nar, that would be so fun! Let's make a future date.

So I got through an extremely busy weekend. Wow. Two basketball games, three hours of concession stand work, scholarship work with son, some house stuff, errands, a baby s hower, and visit to the hospital. I did it all unhung and clear-headed. Amazing. Yes, I would have loved to hang out a bit more, but I am right now at least for another hour or so, and it feels good. So many busy days coming up this week with basketball in full force. So here we go!

Hope everyone else is doing well. Is LB posting somewhere else? I miss her calm posts.

So son and his GF are upstairs and we're downstairs. They always hang out down here, and I"ve decorated for them. I think I may have to trade for good because it's so darn cozy down here! And more comfortable. That or I'm changing around all the furniture in the house...big possibility!:happy2:

[little beagle]

I'm here J-vo. I've really been concentrating on watching those videos posted on the 3ps thread. I even got hubby to watch the first 2 of Michael Neills' stress video. About thoughts are just thoughts. We don't have to act on them. It's helping me put things into perspective a bit. It's been a bit of a rough go for me lately. I'm tired and discouraged. Hubby keeps using. Smoking crack. Yes. There I said it. I hate even saying it. He's been going to a Psychiatrist practical nurse and a counselor. Taking meds. But either something isn't working or he doesn't want it to. That is the question. Is he just placating me? Grrrrrrr. I just don't know.
But working on the 3ps is giving me a bit of peace of mind. I do know that. Accepting that these feelings don't need to be agonized over constantly.
That's where I'm at right now. I usually don't like to share too much about this struggle because I've been told that I should just leave him too often. Not by you gloamers. But by people in my life. Especially my daughter. This has caused a terrible breach between us and it's really braking my heart. Plus I honestly think she's either using drugs or drinking way too much. Maybe both. And yes I know for a fact that drugs are in her life. Meth. She's 32. Old enough I can't tell her what to do. I can only hope my living example is enough.
Sorry for the waffle.

[little beagle]

I will not drink no matter what. I will let that drinking thought just float on past and wake up grateful for my sobriety tomorrow. (Not that I'm having drinking thoughts. This is my new mantra.)

[NoSugar]

:hug:LB. I hope you're finding some peace. I wish we could help you more than offer our support, but you do have that. I really admire how you deal with tough situations. Much love, NS

[Pavati]

Hi, All:

LB - PLEASE use us - post away. I think we all know enough not to judge anyone's decisions. We'll give our opinions when asked, however. I feel like I never know what anyone else is going through. So sorry for the trials with Mr. B. And I know you won't drink through it - you don't drink. Hugs from me, too.

J-Vo - I had a day like that - three work meetings, a baseball game and two basketball games. Plus a visit with a friend and dinner with my parents. I am done. I need a weekend to recover from my weekend. Very nice to do it all un hung, for sure.

Nar and SL - I have clean sheets today. Can't wait go hop in bed.

Night, Gloamers.

Pav

[j-vo]

I'm really sorry LB. I could sense something about your absence here. Anything we can do, ever. Please reach out, as it's the best therapy for ourselves. Have you spoken to a professional about it? Maybe that would help also. YOu've got a lot on your plate thinking and worrying about two people you love with all your heart. Here are some hugs for you.:hug:

[little beagle]

Yes I have J-vo. The counselor is for both of us.
I know you support me here my gloamers. That's why I come here and read every day. Some days I may not post much, just being part of the group eases my burden. This support is something I'm truly grateful for.
Thsnk you NS and Pav. No I don't drink. It wouldn't help anything anyway. Just make it worse. Been there, done that!

[SHADES_of_IDAHO]

N

Yes I have J-vo. The counselor is for both of us.
I know you support me here my gloamers. That's why I come here and read every day. Some days I may not post much, just being part of the group eases my burden. This support is something I'm truly grateful for.
Thsnk you NS and Pav. No I don't drink. It wouldn't help anything anyway. Just make it worse. Been there, done that!

Hi beagle,
I too have been thru so much of what you have suffered for way to long over 22 years of hoping and praying . Since the holidays are here again it always means more worry. Will my son make it thru another year of pain.
I don't have any way to stay in touch with him, so it's the not knowing that is so painful . I pray some day that your loved one and my son will find how to live without drink.
Many blessings sent your way and happy holidays.
SHADES