MAE ladies
Waking up to a sober Saturday here and its nice to have a smile on my face when i wake instead of trying to remember what I did, what i said, how much i drank the night before. Glad Pat and I are in a time zone where we can relieve each others boredom and have a chat, I will miss you Pat.
A huge congratulations to SL and Humble, so proud of you guys on what you have achieved. I am glad to be your friend and see the accomplishments and posts that make life so much more enjoyable.
NS loved your post and your wisdom. No whoop dee daa here but a feeling of achieving something I have started for once. A feeling of contentment that i dont have to argue with myself everyday that I am not going to drink to get through the day to not reward myself with al at the end of it. Its the little things that i feel proud of at the moment.
Dot the drs here are pretty good regarding not giving pills. I remember when i slipped two discs in my back and had to go back to work after six weeks, i went to get some Valium as it stopped the spasms and the dr said "cant you take Paracetamol", well i just looked at him and said "now why didnt i see you f'ing six weeks ago". Maybe a touch too much sarcasm but i got the valium. I am an alcoholic not a pill addict but i did not tell him that of course.
I googled "Drinking a Love Story" last night and so need to buy it. If i download it it is $27 and if i Amazon it it is about $12 but i dont want to wait for delivery. I need to learn patience.
Jvo i work and come on MWO, figure that I dont have to actually work work for 8 hours and keeps me grounded. I always found from 4pm onwards the thoughts of al would sneak in and i had to justify as to why i should stop and buy al on the way home even though i said i would not drink ever again that morning. No more of those thoughts thank god.
I sent an email to my SIL who is visiting in January and her and i are huge/massive drinkers when together and told her I am not drinking so i wonder what the response will be to that one.
I hope everyone is happy and safe today. I so love this site, its its own kind of drug to me. The feeling of not being alone and understood is a wonderful feeling.
Today i will not drink.
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