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[Choices]

You sound great LC! And Jvo, well done on the exercise! I am chomping at the bit to get back into it. I did well with my diet yesterday but caved at night.. I found more chocolate.. The feeling of eating is getting similar to drinking so I'm a little concerned. I'm not craving alcohol so one step at a time. I think I can work on this empty feeling but it's not going to happen over night. Just had a massive catch up with a mum group, and everyone kept asking if I was pregnant. (because of the weight gain, and because I am the last one not to be pregnant for the second time)... So working through some funky feelings but okay. My sister also commented on a FB photo she saw of me. She thought she was being nice... but it had to do with don't worry what society thinks of larger women... your still beautiful.. I'm more just wondering what the core of this might be? Might talk with my GP about it and tell her what I've been going through regarding becoming AF... etc. I'm not sure but I think I may have a hormone imbalance. Not sure why I'd say that.. but it could be possible? I think my major weight gain is from all the alcohol I've consumed over the past 18 months... and now I'm trying to compensate with food. But what's missing I guess?? Thank god it's not alcohol anymore.. this seams more manageable. If I'd kept drinking I probably would just continue to gain weight.. because I always ate more to take away the upset tummy feeling I felt with the acid in the wine. I use to smoke when I drank... instead of eat... but quit that 6 years ago.. so maybe food has become a compulsion.. ANYWAY.. sorry to go on about weight and food! But it's one of the things on my mind today. I do feel like I have much more of a grip on my life at the moment and feel like anything is possible if I put my mind to it.. I don't mind struggling if the result is positive. This is where it's tricky on figuring out my motivation on loosing weight. It is health... but... yeah. a little tricky... on not wanting to mess up my sobriety. I know when I'm eating this chocolate.. I am getting a buzz, I can feel it. Our bodies are really sensitive!

[little beagle]

Choices I know I get a buzz off sugar, chocolate especially. Part of the reason I know I can never drink again. But when I quit drinking, I just didn't worry about t b e weight. I gave myself a free pass to not worry about it. Now that doesn't mean I didn't try to eat healthy and exercise. But I took care of my quit. If I felt like I really needed it, I ate chocolate. Dairy Queen blizzards were a friday night treet when i was feeling overwhelmed when hubby was still drinking or he was getting high.
It passed. I don't need that anymore. I didn't use it as a replacement, rather as a last resort. I'd rather gain a pound then lose my sobriety. Still would.
Ive been thinking about what I posted the other day about drinking and my thoughts. I don't want a drink, I want to have some fun. The media portrays drinking as fun. Well, we know the truth. But the urge to let loose and have some fun is there. Really thinking about why I am having drinking thoughts and the real reason isn't the alcohol or the buzz, it's the fun. Well, I have been feeling a lot lighter in mood. And I'm going to go do something this weekend. Even if it's take the dogs for a drive.
J-vo I've been doing deep breathing, learning to relax my mind. Shutting down my thoughts for up toma minute at a time. I don't know if I'm explaining it correctly, but it's really helping when I'm overtired.

[little beagle]

I miss you Jane. You've been on my mind a lot lately.

[treetops]

LB - well I dont know if the media always portrays drinking as fun.

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[Choices]

Yuck TT. I know what you mean about wanting to have fun little B. You deserve it too . The media is tricky sometimes .. But the reality is not much fun at all. Good for me to remember too. I had a long talk with my mom today. And I feel better . My quit comes first for sure. I've just got to deal with some discomfort. I'm giving myself a couple of weeks to see how I go.. But if I need some more help, I'm just going to get it regarding all of it.

[jane27]

Lil B, I miss you too. We got home from Florida today. Our 2nd trip down there to make the place renter suitable. My God did we clean. It was EXHAUSTING. STILL I'm obsessing a bit about not having hand mopped the perimeter of where the base board molding meets the floor tile. Sure, the floor's been mopped, but nothing really gets in the cracks better than wiping it down by hand with a damp rag. And hand dusting the fake plants..some a leaf at a time. That got old FAST. Biggest cheap thrill was the white plastic tape that we bought to cover the refrigerator handles with. They look brand new

MIL is in hospy with double pneumonia & strep...Red is back home from the kennel, and tomorrow is a new day. Its cold as shit here in Jerz. Still in a funk but determined to get through it. Miss everyone and look forward to catching up with yall tomorrow. Hugs all around, xo

[j-vo]

Choices, hang in there. Sometimes after I eat (and I've been cutting out as much sugar as possible - like the obvious sugar such as chocolate, cookies...) I'll brush my teeth. That'll take the urge away to eat something sweet. Give it a try.

LB, I love to dance, but haven't gone out to a place to do that in forever. I even love to dance completely straight! That's something that always made me feel happy and good. You should plan something nice this weekend. Why not? Is there anything else you'd like to do? Comedy club, movies, skating!!!!!! Gosh, I used to love, love to roller skate, especially with great music. Let me know what you come up with.

Jane, glad you're home.

I saw the pic. Any show I watch, alcohol is aways a part of it. Always. I started watching Nurse Jane and I really like it. She's an excellent nurse in NYC and she's addicted to prescription drugs. Really good show.

Have a good day all.

[narilly]

JVo, where can I find Nurse Jane? That sounds really good. I will dance with you!

LilB, I agree that they so often make drinking look like fun on tv and in the movies. I used to find it hard to watch people drink AL but not so much now.

Choices, I ate a bunch of chocolate last night. I really enjoyed it. Hey, at least it is better than drinking AL. Someone told me L Glutamine helped with sugar and AL cravings, have your tried that?

NS, that is a good one. No, I don't like watching the same movie over and over if it makes me feel bad. I agree, why think of hurtful thoughts over and over? Thank goodness I am figuring this out now instead of when I am 80!

Tomorrow is Friday!! Yippee!

[j-vo]

Nar, it started airing on Netflix at the end of December. I really like it. Different, and it's only a 30 minute show.

Guess I wiped myself out. Took an 1 1/2 hour nap after work today. And to boot, had a drinking dream. The dream was spot on and a great reminder of how I DON'T want to live my life. Thank you dream.

[Choices]

Hi everyone. Hanging in there. Today is better. I have some l-glute but I keep forgetting to take it. Maybe because I can't tell if it does work. But I think it's a great suggestion Nar.. I've read different ways to take it etc. now when I'm thinking I'm hungry (when Ive already had a balanced meal.. Etc.. ) I'll take one, as a sign.. It maybe related to my addiction. And yes chocolate is way better then drinking for sure! I started back at the gym today and it actually felt really good. What I don't like about being overweight is how it limits me physically. I love to be fit. I just feel better... But I'll get there, especially now being AF. There was no way I could drinking. Endless uphill battle. I think my goal would be to get out of the mildly obese part of the chart.. To overweight. That's manageable. Again, I'll drown in chocolate before I touch alcohol again! I never want to repeat 30 days again!!

[Pavati]

Hi, All:

I'll go dancing with you all! I have a HUGE self-consciousness hurdle to get over if it is "dancing" dancing, but once I get over myself I always have fun. I'll listen to live music and dance all you want.

Jane - Can you come do my house? I just looked under a corner table that I haven't looked under in a LONG time. Ew.

Thoughts are just thoughts. That takes a lot to wrap my head around, but has been so useful. Me and Elsa - letting it go.

Love to the gloamers.

xo
Pav

[little beagle]

Thanks TT. No that really doesn't look fun.
J-vo I will come up with something.
Jane boy am I glad I don't work for you. I do Not hand mop. But I use a commercial mop bucket and mop. Get in the corners, swiffer all baseboards every time..... glad Red is home. I'll be thinking about you and your MIL. Yay! Tomorrow is Friday.

[treetops]

Hi there everyone - I have to move offices and was sorting some stuff today and found some pics from the period when I was drinking - pics were not taken when I was actually consuming the stuff so I am not drunk or anything - but boy was I a chubby woman. I think after menopause - or towards the end of having any periods - I was drinking quite a bit but also my metabolism was changing. Bad mix. You can really see it in my face.
I lost weight very rapidly after I quit - but have gained a little since then - its still nowhere near my middle-age drinking days.
Haven't looked at my base boards in ages Jane!

[STEADFAST]

Hi Treetops!

I was the same - my hubby told me the other day that a couple of years ago I was "really round." Am now eleven kilograms lighter than at the time of my quit! I used to drink pots of beer with a shot of vodka in them. The beer made me swell up, and the vodka, well, that just allowed me to keep the al level high while others just drank beer on its own! And like you, I was coming up to menopause at the time. Things are sooo much better now.

Steady

[STEADFAST]

Wishing all Gloamers a great Friday night and weekend!