Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

[little beagle]

Hope you have a great trip TT.
I think one of the memories I hold closest is the last time I drank. I don't ever want to forget how terrible I felt. Full of anxiety, ill, depressed. On days I feel bad I remember that day. I look at how far I have come.
I realize I may never change the world. But I can and did change myself. And for me that is enough.

[jane27]

Just stopping by to check in with my Gloamer family. Thank you for your post TT! Lots on my mind, I'm due for a waffle. Wishing everyone a peaceful MAE. ❤️ to all.

[SnoopyC]

LB, I love the fact that you keep your last time drinking fresh in your mind. I do too, and it was terrible, shameful, upsetting, and just not worth it. I never want to do that to myself again, so won't. Changing myself is huge and I am content being AF and dealing with my life challenges in a good frame of mind. Hello to everyone, let's keep this thread going.

[treetops]

Funny enough I don't have a last drinking memory. My memories are more about the awful months it took me to finally quit and the stops and the starts and all the things I tried to quit. I can find ghastly memories in my drinking history but it was the prolonged effort it took me to quit that sends chills to me. So much effort and so hard. Well worth it yes but I never want to do that kind of time again. I did it while working full time and running my home as well. Much much better now.

[SnoopyC]

For some reason traveling yesterday I was triggered with cravings and just thought of some regrets I have regarding drinking, I actually felt sick to my stomach thinking of how I acted and effected others. Never ever want to go back there. TT, it was a hard journey to quit, don't want to do that again.

[NoraC]

Loved reading the last few posts. I'm going to go back and read proper. :thanks:

I have that last drinking episode in my mind when I ever think just a sip won't hurt. Ha, never took just a sip. Even if I didn't like the taste, I would manage to drink it.

[Myluck]

Everybody, miss you all! Hi from VA! 980 days for me today and I am thamkful everyday for decision I made and the support I got from you. Amazing group of people. LB - special thanks to you and Pie.

[little beagle]

Great to see you Myluck. Almost 1000 days. It's a truly amazing feeling isn't it?

[Myluck]

LB - yes it is indeed. I am planning to come here on day 1000 and at least get a star please

[NoraC]

How exciting.

[little beagle]

I'm going out if town for the 4th. To Memphis to listen to some blues. It's at a bar. Or maybe a few bars. When I was ask if it was ok for me to go to a situation like that I was so pleased to be able to honestly answer that it was no problem. That I have a lot more for NOT drinking. It feels so good being able to say that.

[Pavati]

Hi, Gloamers:

I read back a bit. Wow, NoSugar - that incident scares the crap out of ME! I don't want to make a mountain out of a molehill, but that is crazy talk. I would NEVER have expected that to happen. Really gives me pause about what I am doing to keep that sober muscle strong. I got out of the habit of posting because I have been so dang busy, and then the habit is gone and it is easy to just ignore this. I do have a fear of going back to drinking that has kept me posting here in the past. I'll have to get back more often. I have been around a lot of drinking lately, too, LB, and my skills I learned here have helped. I just don't drink.

Great to see you Jane, and good to hear that Narilly is good, too.

I will come by more frequently, at least while you all do.

xo
Pav

[NoSugar]

Good to see you, Pav, and congratulations on all you've accomplished this year! It would have been hard to pull off with a hangover :wink:.

My wine-buying escapade shocked the heck out of me, too. I was pretty freaked out at the time but looking back, I feel good that that is as far as it got. I must have been thinking I was going to drink it - but I didn't. That thought passed quickly and was replaced by what is now my normal mindset not to drink. Even if we act on one thought - we don't have to act on the next one, thank goodness!

I hope you had a good 4th of July holiday, LB, and enjoyed the friends and music with a clear head.

I've had a few stressful days family relationship-wise and despite feeling down was pleased that a drink didn't even enter my head as a coping mechanism.

[Choices]

Hi Glomers,

Well, I am back... Starting over again. A bit of a broken record .. But I'm learning along the way and relearning ... I'm physically suffering withdraw but the day is almost done and I know I will feel better in the morning. I am looking forward to feeling better. My first goal is two weeks because it feels manageable. I've got a lot coming up but, because of how much I consumed... I think quitting now regardless of what's a head is a good idea. I'm feeling more of a feeling that this starts and stops with me which is somewhat empowering. I don't feel as terrified or scared which is nice, more just need to stop. I'm so over it feeling sick and tired. Luckily, this time around I did manage to not black out until last night.. And I don't have any humiliating or disaster stories... Yet! So quitting while I'm somewhat ahead.

[paulywogg]

Great to see you Choices