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Loamers hello,

Hi Pat lovely to hear from you and glad you are checking in and plodding along. Both the boys asked if i had PMS ha ha, i yelled no!

Jvo glad you are home safe and sound even if it is freezing cold, come visit me with the 41 and today we have nice hot wind to go with it! I bet your boys were glad to have you home though DH cooks so you probably werent too missed really! Long winded posts, now really Jvo! Read back to when i first posted and you wil see it has taken a lot of dedication to get to where i am today with posting.

Hi Daisy and welcome to the Loamers, dont ever say ever. We kill people who dont give up al ha ha! One day at a time is all we can do, none of us ever probably thought we would be wracking up the days being af and i know i could not possibly have done it if not for MWO and these crazy bunch of women. To be totally successful you need to be a good typist who posts like a lunatic to keep accountable, still doing it after 59 days and throw in total honesty and you will be fine. We will support you totally as we all know addictive al is.

Giraffe, twice is nice! See i am never ever short of words. i cant wait for your 90 day speech but i totally know how it feels to be short of words! Whatever you say will be said with honesty and we all need to express our journeys with al to make it totally real. Very proud.

Miley you are a love, one more day and its the big 7 for you, time flies and you must feel so much better. Keep positive, we know you can do this, if we can you can!

NS i totally relate to those barriers and i think we all still have a few, i know now that I like myself more and its okay to let people in, well unless they annoy the crap out of us then our tolerance level is zero. Someone said before that "normal" people have lived like this forever whereas we are just starting to live "normal" without al, so its like a whole new world and we are so lucky to be experiencing this. You are beautiful inside and out NS.

Nar, I am forever talking to my kids about you guys and they are starting to know you all. They totally know if not for my cyber friends on here that i would be slugging away, acting like i was okay and feeling like a total failure. 30 days, i was wondering what you were up too day wise, i cant wait for your speech and i have a feeling it will be very eloquent, not like blabbla mouth here! Oh mine is a skinny latte, no sugar thanks. (but i want NS with us).

Star Day12, go girl and you sound so happy and strong. Isnt life wonderful without pouring al down our throats and i bet your girls are so happy to have their mum back, i know mine are totally and at the end of the day i know i can never drink and disappoint them again, i have done that way too many times. My daughter actually came and suprised me with a visit last weekend and she would never have done that before as she was totally over the me i had become, so i know i am doing something right to fix the wrongs. I have not had sugar for about a week now, so you are doing well Star, took me only another 6 weeks but damn i enjoyed each and everyone of those lollies that i shovelled down my throat.

NS you would not dare! I was wondering why you were chatty and i was loving it, is the little bird breaking out of her shell? I would love to wake up to a "pearler" of a post by you, not that everyone does not have something interesting to read, its the best start to my day i could ask for.

Good on you daisy for involving your fam, i have mine right on my back with no al. You can do this and we all know how hard it is but we are all here for you, day and night.

Sweet, hello and dont be shy and think that what you say will not make a difference to us loamers. You and NS have some big days and some knowledge on our struggles along the way. I know we dont all go through the same thing but it helps to be aware.

Well i woke up about 2ish with a migraine so not being bothered with work. obviously i need some me time and my body is telling me to stop stressing and relax so i worried about going to work and figured that the hospital will not fall down if i am not there. My d**khead boss is back today but i have a care factor of zero in what he thinks so i am just going to stay in bed and enjoy the 41 degrees with only a fan. God im still whinging! Love you guys and it was great to wake up to a few pages that i so totally had to reply to. Nearly 60 days here so i must get to that speech! xx

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sweetpea29;1619194 wrote: Sometimes I find it hard to talk up how great it is to be AF- still feel like I have a way to go on my journey, but I do know for sure that if I hadn't of stopped last year, my life would be a hell of a lot worse now- does that make sense? The spiral I was in was only getting worse and putting my life at risk.

I think I have a long way to go, too, SweetPea, and I think we'd be foolish to ever think we're "done". From what I've learned, that is when relapse happens.

The "not drinking" part is just the beginning of this adventure. (Sometimes I think that might be the easiest part but I don't want anyone to get too discouraged :H!).

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x-post Ava.

Nah, I'm probably not out of my shell yet but I'm going to start chewing on my arm if I don't stay busy so I'm alternating my job with chatting here .

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NoSugar;1619211 wrote: I think I have a long way to go, too, SweetPea, and I think we'd be foolish to ever think we're "done". From what I've learned, that is when relapse happens.

The "not drinking" part is just the beginning of this adventure. (Sometimes I think that might be the easiest part but I don't want anyone to get too discouraged :H!).

How true NS- that is the way I see it This journey or whatever people term it, would not be possible without first ditching the shackles of booze.... the only way is up, yeah?

Hi Ava - great going on the near 60 Days:goodjob: I work in a hospital too- oh don't start me off on one!:upset: Sorry about your migraine- you're doing the right thing to take some time off for rest n relaxation xx

Got to get me some beauty sleep so will bid my goodnight to ye all xx

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I was a lot quieter today post migraine wasnt i? Go do some cleaning, i find that very therapeutic for the soul. Well not really but keeps those al thoughts at bay. NS you come more out of shell everyday and i love it.

Pav i forgot to say hello hello. I hope you are feeling on top of the world now. I need a post to read while feeling sorry for myself.

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Yes, I totally agree, we are never done. I quit back in 2009/2010 and lasted for 4 months. But then it slowly creeped in. I guess I thought I didn't have a problem anymore. I don't want that to happen this time.
I want to stay vigilant and make sure I 'remember' I can't drink. It's wierd how we so easily forget after time passes by.

Anyway, time to go home. I have a bit of a headache too Ava. Its good you did not go to work. I would barf in that heat!

Talk to you soon,

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Hi all,
What is it with headaches?? I have headache, sore throat and fever, had it for a couple of days now but today I'm having the day off too... got to rest.
Ava, stay cool my dear..that heat is fierce

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Get better soon pat, you have had this for a few days. I am laying in bed and putting up with this thumping head and have warned my boys to keep it down which after yesterday i am sure wont be a problem.

So much wind today so there will be lots more fires as they still have not put them all out from before. I so admire fireman for what they do and damn they look good in uniform!

I hope you get better soon.

Nar that cold would be enough to give anyone a headache i am thinking!

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Hi Ava, is it that warm nor west wind? I hate those and quite often got bad headaches in nz..rest for you too then
Yes I have been dragging this around for a few days but now I have that dry wracking cough.. it really is time to cut out the cigs!!
Hi Nar - keep warm!

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Yes that is the one and i would call it a fecking hot wind already at 11am. blah. Yes i must give them fags up also but i still need a vice atm. One day this year and plus they are $27 for a packet of 40 FFS. Bloody wine was cheaper!

Thanks Sweet, i find working in a hospital that there are so many f**wits that you have to deal with, being work colleagues and patients. No wonder we are stressed.

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They cost $3 for a pack of 20 here....doesn't break the bank so that isn't a motivation for me but whenever I get a cough here it takes so long to get rid of.. it's humid here and any infection or bug takes ages to go...
Yeah working in a hospital must be really stressful!! I imagine lots of very impatient people

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Good Evening Loamers.....Everyone sounds great this evening, with the exception of the headaches...I have one too!

I wanted to get an opinion, if you don't mind. Today, my 21 year old daughter told me she thinks she has a problem with alcohol and doesn't want to drink anymore but she thinks she might need some help. She wants to go to AA meetings and since she knows that I am pursuing an AF life, she wants me to go to AA with her. I have given AA some thought, to be honest. Thinking that I've tried so many times before and failed that maybe I do need the extra support.

My two questions......has anyone tried or is a anyone attending AA meetings and if so, I would appreciate some feedback. The second question is, has anyone attended these meetings with someone they know who is trying to quit also, and if yes, how did it work out?

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On liking myself...

On my way home from mini vacation, this is what happened.

So I get my boarding pass, and at the last minute they change it, as the plane is completely full. I ended up in the very last seat next to a well-known news anchor. We chatted lots (which I was nervous at first because that's my nature) but I quickly became at ease with him. That's so out of character for me. I would normally have been a nutcase the whole way with my anxiety. But I settled down!! This this is huge for me. I chatted like he was my next door neighbor. I was myself. I almost cried happy tears on the way home, thinking, what's happening to me. Well, I'm believing that I'm a pretty good person. That's what. I'm believing that I'm worthy of anyone's company. Freaking huge. He asked me to like him on FB, and I said only if I could have a pic of us together. He was really a nice man. So down to earth. We talked about our kids mostly.

Another thing, and this is why I can't sleep, because I've been on this high all night, is that I wasn't drunk when I sat next to him. The first thing I do when I get through security is order wine at a bar. If I had sat down next to him like that, I would not have had the conversation with ease that I had. I would have been worried what I looked like (although my makeup was clearly melted off my face by this time of the evening), were my eyes glassy, did he smell the booze. I would have had blotches all over my neck and face, which is what happens to me when I get nervous. I felt a little creeping up on me, but quickly settled down, well settled down for me.

So this was a great thing that happened to me last night. I am starting to really like myself.

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J-Vo....what a fabulous post. It almost made me cry. This is huge and I am so happy for you!

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Will read everyone's posts after I walk on my treadmill. Wasn't going to do it until I saw Nar's and Star's posts! Thanks Ladies!!!!