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[patrice]

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Hiya all
Hope you are all doing well.. I'm exhausted ( again) but only one more day of work then outta here on Sunday, yay can't wait
Really enjoying my new ebook..Drink: Womens' Relationship with Alcohol by Ann Dowlett Johnston. Probably doesn't say anything I don't know but has only just been published so has lots of up to date studies and results of recent research.
Hope you are all having a great sleep.. The time difference here is a pain
Take Care
Patrice

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I definitely agree Pat, this time of night 9pm here MWO is like a ghost town but the idiot box is amusing me.

My daughter came around and we drank iced tea so that was nice, not drinking is great but that niggly thought of the "just one" is starting to surface, so i am blocking out that bullshit straightaway and keeping on here.

How long are you gone for Pat? Where do you live, not sure if you have said or not, sorry if you have to repeat yourself.

I still have to get into reading again, nearly used up my monthly downloads for movies/tv shows so reading i think it will be. Might go and look at some op shops for some light reading.

[patrice]

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Hi Ava - I live in Malaysia but from NZ.. going back for 2 weeks. That will be the test for me, staying with mum who has no internet and seeing old friends I haven't seen for 18months.. mmm trying to get my head around not drinking during that time.. really really going to try!

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It will be hard Pat for sure but i hope you find the strength to not drink. Dont know how i would be in that situation. My SIL is coming to visit in January and she and i had no hesitation in just getting blind drunk in the past. At the moment it does not even appeal to me sitting there and drinking two bottles of wine, waking feeling like death has warmed up the next day. Been there too many times to want to do it again. So my only course of action is to just tell her i have given up drinking. She had a friend who was an alky and died from it and she was married to my brother who died from AL but she also likes a drink. I will work on a plan for that one.

No internet, maybe you can wifi from someones net when u visit for a quick check in or one of the girls said go to the library.

It is so much easier just cruising along as we are at the moment but obstacles get in our way and we have to overcome them eventually or end up the way we were.

At least you still have till Sunday to be with us so that is a positive.

[patrice]

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Thanks Ava ... yes I am trying to keep the strength and no I don't want to get blind drunk anymore and won't. Guess it's just that it will be quite hard to be around my friends who I haven't seen for ages. They like wine but not to excess, a few glasses with food and they all drink good wine. Whenever I have been with those friends I have never got hammered ( saved that for when I was alone!!) Just wish i hadn't gone past that point where now I can't enjoy it.. grrr
I'm visualising how great I will feel once i get through that 2 weeks.. but I've spent so much money on those tickets and been looking forward to it I don't want to feel like I'm just enduring it!!! But I'm going to do it I know
Hey you sound great!!
x

[Guitarista]

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Safe travels for your trip Pat. We can do anything we put our minds to. The toolbox will have some useful, inspired tips and strategies for such occassions too.

You both sound great. I can hear the positivity.

Well, orf for some beeewdy sleep. Goodnight.

[HumbleRider]

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Humble Cougar here. G, that pic is so cool. Congrats on 50!

I too used to isolate myself completely, thinking only about drinking. Which is why I have my 3 acronyms to keep me busy these days: MWO (forum here), BF (blipfoto), and AOK (acts of kindness). I know I have these three things to keep me in the outside world and not struggling with my inner demons.

You don't have to be a professional photographer to join blipfoto, and so far it has been a blast. I'm doing a photo a day so that I can have my own personal diary of photos for the year. Let me know if any of you are interested. It's free and we can connect through our daily photos there. I only have one friend there and I'm lonely and want to share with others. You can be anonymous.

Pat I just finished Drink and found it really good as well. Just the right mix of research and personal stories. I do know a reunion with old friends, away from home, combined with no way to get to the forum would be rough for me indeed. I guess I would journal and remind myself to feel proud in front of my old friends and not ashamed. To stand tall and say I don't drink anymore with calm, simple pride and conviction. Like Ava says, try to check in at a library or Internet cafe if they have any.

Ava, I've also had a couple of "just one would be okay" thoughts, but they went away quickly when I thought about my last drunk day. Nothing bad happened but I had switched from wine to a pint of vodka, and the thought of swilling back shots of that vile stuff makes me almost gag to think of it. So that's what I think about.

Available, what's the idiot box? Sounds like my kind of entertainment.

It's day 39 here. I woke up late (Me wake up late? Novel experience.). Feeling pretty good today in spite of the winter chill. xo ladies and gent. Will check in later.

[K9Lover]

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Good morning fellow Cougars (and Mr. G!)

I think G Man is enjoying being surrounded by the Cougar Club. LOL We're glad you're here too...we need a mans opinion once in a while, and when we want it from you, we'll tell you. :H

Stay strong everyone and when you are tempted to drink, fast forward to that horrible morning-after feeling! Ugh, I do not ever want to wake up in the morning again feeling like my tongue is wearing a sweater. Plus all the stupid crap I used to do while drunk...just the flashes of memories is enough to keep me sober.

Happy Thursday Ladies...and G you don't need that sleep, you are beewdiful as it is! :h

[narilly]

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Hi Beautiful ladies and Mr.G!
I went to The Hobbit last night and it was good (if you like watching about 1000 Ork's get killed over a 3 hour period). lol Actually, I did like it. My friend asked me to go and we went with our daughters. it was fun. Before I would have rather have stayed at home and drank a few glasses of wine and watched TV. 2,3,4 glasses...

I have been reading your posts and love them. Us cougars are so interesting! Of course we are interesting, we have a lot to say and have been through so much with our AL, families, pregnancy, jobs etc. It is so great we can all relate to each other so well.

This am when I left for work and our Christmas lights were on. I thought "oh, yeah I just forgot", when I was drinking I would have thought "oh, I drank too much and forgot to turn them off". It is nice to be forgetful just to be forgetful and have no guilt associated with it.

Talk soon gals...back to work!

[NoSugar]

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narilly;1598149 wrote:
This am when I left for work and our Christmas lights were on. I thought "oh, yeah I just forgot", when I was drinking I would have thought "oh, I drank too much and forgot to turn them off". It is nice to be forgetful just to be forgetful and have no guilt associated with it.

This is one of the GREATEST GIFTS, Narilly! I was so tired of second-guessing myself and feeling responsible for every dang thing that went wrong (assuming it was a direct result of my being out of it). I LOVE being able to confidently say "No, I don't think you told me that." or "We agreed that I would do A and you would do B". I still am a space-head sometimes when I try to multi-multi-task but for the important stuff, I again know what I said or did. It is such a relief!

J-vo and I were talking about another GREAT GIFT of sobriety - a renewed sense of humor and the ability to joke around and be just plain goofy. I had pretty much lost my sense of humor and was too scared to act silly in case it "looked" like I'd had too much to drink. I didn't even chat much - I guess I had too many secrets to keep and I didn't want anyone to smell my breath or see my purple tongue .

I am telling you (meaning anyone who isn't sure that the AF path is the right one and worth doing everything necessary to stay on), IT IS!! I honestly cannot tell you one thing about my life (mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually, relationships, energy, etc., etc.) that is worse than it was a year ago. It isn't perfect but it is better in just about every way I can name.

Keep to The Mission, Friends (see, Mr. G., that is a non-sexist term and includes you :l).

:h NS

[DreamThinkDo]

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Hallo Ladies!

Humble, just joined blipfoto - sounds great. Will play around on the site later, but please tell me how it works when you have a minute, and how to see your pics.

[scottish lass]

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patrice;1598025 wrote: Just wish i hadn't gone past that point where now I can't enjoy it.. grrr
x

Patrice - this is so true - and the silly fight in my brain! I need to get past the regret as it is what it is, and move to the enjoyment - but that is a switch that I can't find! I am struggling to find delight in being AF...the desire to have a glass of wine is getting louder in my tired brain...

[Starfish1]

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Scottish Lass, you are doing great!
I remember last year, when I had gotten to around 30 days, I was a little disappointed that I didn't feel more elated. I remember I felt a little bit flat. There were some others who were also having that same problem and the dear Byrdlady explained to us that this is a normal feeling at this stage of the game. Just keep doing what you are doing and taking it one day at a time. I really admire what you have accomplished!

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K9Lover;1598141 wrote:

I think G Man is enjoying being surrounded by the Cougar Club. LOL We're glad you're here too...we need a mans opinion once in a while, and when we want it from you, we'll tell you. :H


Yes, i know the routine. :H

scottish lass;1598204 wrote: Patrice - this is so true - and the silly fight in my brain! I need to get past the regret as it is what it is, and move to the enjoyment - but that is a switch that I can't find! I am struggling to find delight in being AF...the desire to have a glass of wine is getting louder in my tired brain...

The classic struggle most of us have at some stage Scottish lass. Keep going friend. I don't know much, but i know our body chemistry and thinking is going to take a little while to re-set itself to not run on alcohol as fuel. Keep pushing through and maybe a daily gratitude list might help if you're not writing one already? You are doing an amazing job and have so much life and adventures to live.

Thanks HR!

Enjoyed your post NS.

Have a good one y'all. Yo!

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MAE lovelies

Well not time to check in before work this morning. Slept like a log and looked like World War 3 happened in my bed. God only knows what i am dreaming about but waking to a really messed up bed. Good thing i am single.

SL know how you feel but not drinking is so much better than the effects of drinking. I still wake up thinking i have a hangover and dont. I then feel a sense of accomplishment that i am finally doing something right in my life for me and the children. My daughter asked last night if i was still not drinking and I said no, she said she was proud of me, i cant ask for anything more than that.

Pat i was thinking is a $5 bottle a good wine? I do remember having a good wine probably a long time ago but being the alky a $5 bottle tasted just as good as a $30 one. You will be fine on your hols, you sound strong and resolved and we will be cheering you on from here.

Humble I know i cant have a few so i try not to think about it and as i say one day at a time. My last drinking binge wasnt that bad but i keep remembering how i felt while drinking and what enjoyment it didnt give me and the blackouts i was starting to have and on one occasion i started to hear voices and thought yep i am going insane. that was scary shit. Now i just plod along and enjoy my time on here as a "senior member", still getting over that one!. the idiot box is the tv. I will have a look at photoblip on the weekend so you can have more friends, the more the merrier i say.

NS your words always seem to hit home and make me more determined. I dont feel as if i am wavering at all to have a drink but we all know that can change in a second if something rocks the boat.

K9 hello and good morning.

well better go and do some work. Its friday thank god and need to organise what i am drinking tonight. Bit over the iced tea today, well i did find a fly in one of my bottles that i left the lid off blah.