Ladies on a Mission: The Official Site

[treetops]

J-Vo, you have been under so much pressure lately and there is so much anxiety in your life at the moment. You are a caring, loving, intelligent woman - mother, daughter, wife, teacher and friend. Please try not to turn to AL again because its just going to make what you are facing so much harder in the long run.
We all mess it up and who knows how each of us would react in your shoes? But we ware here, as best we can and I am sending special trans-Pacfiic vibes of support and hugs. Its pretty windy here so these hugs should reach you very quickly.
Do take care and its OK to feel pain as well.

[Choices]

Just a quick check in, getting my girl ready for school. Thank you for the support! I really appreciate it. I woke up and felt like myself and didn't have the pain I had when I went to bed.. Almost forgot I posted my long post. But so thankful to have been able to fall here. If I had of drank.... Oh the horror of just thinking of how beat up I'd be today!

I'll write more later.., as the morning clock ticks fast. But wanted to send love out to JVo. I'm not exactly sure if I understood if you drank? But I am very much there for you either way. It easily, very easily could have been myself last night or a few of the nights leading up. No judgement here. Just compassion.

I'll be chewing on the bone about what you wrote about my husband understanding if I drank TT... Thank you NS, and Gman. I'm staying close. And I'm thinking of you always LB. sounds like a wave is coming in for some of us... Where we need to ride it out.

[Guitarista]

Hi Jvo.

Look at your jawdropping AF run. Awesome job. I am back from despair and ready for action. I won't give up on myself, and neither should you.

You are a brilliant person. We love you, and i for one insist you return here asap! :happy2:

[Choices]

just popping in again.. got my girl off to school, cleaned the downstairs, went to the council to get my house plans, e-mailed my doctor to perscribe me my ADs.. I can't believe the perfect storm I'm in. I bloomin forgot to do this and I have 3 pills left! This time requires I see her. Ahhhhh! It's the same perfect storm as around December 7... look at my quit date to see what I'm talking about. deep breaths... it will all work out. Driving home from the council I was filled with fricken pain again.. just miserable. I know what this is I'm disturbed, bothered.. I don't want to deal with these emotions. At all. But I am.. Ok, so I forked out some cash on a healthy salad to bring as our shared lunch contribution tomorrow. I just need to cross stuff off my list and keep stress and busyness to a minimum. Ive got a chicken to cook for tonight... and I guess we will have some of this salad aswell.. I got heaps. And I have potatoes I'll cook too. Sorry to go down my boring list of concerns.. but my head isn't working right and keeping on task helps me not just grab this wine I have downstairs that I could pour down the drain.. but it's not opened and I'm going to offer it at the dinner I'm giving Monday night for my Dad and his wife.... I'll pour it down if need be.. but I don't want to waste the money just buying another one! Wednesday this will all be over and I'm looking forward to that.. I'm posting in my journal again because my mind is manic and I've got to get this funk out. I wish I knew of a shaman who could do a cleanse on me. I had that done in Mexico a few times when I lived there and saw a medicine woman while I was there too. Tear streamed down my cheeks for two days but I felt so much better after that. Hanging in there. 1 pm here. I pick up my girl at 2:45 and will need to be somewhat normal when I see the mums. Then we can come home. and stay home.

[Choices]

Ok.. good appointment to see my GP Monday morning... I will not run out of AD's.. Check! The perfect storm in now only flurries predicted. I'm feeling very, very relieved. I'm kinda bummed I'm tripped up at the moment. Just hanging on. 1:29 pm

[little beagle]

Choices I empathize with you about feeling pain. Really sucks. But drinking only adds anxiety and increases that pain. Hang in there. You got this.
J-vo I'm send you thoughts. You really have been going through a lot. I understand. Please don't leave us. Come back. I really need your kind support at this time. Just as you need all of us to help you get through this very difficult time in your life. I love you kind lady.
The only way out is through and I won't make that path longer by drinking. I will go straight through as swiftly and, clearly as humanly possible.

[NoSugar]

Choices, next Monday is several days away and you have a lot of stressful things going on. Could your husband take that bottle of wine away and bring it back on Monday afternoon? Quitting is hard enough without putting extra obstacles in our own way. I read your journal and am sorry you're so uncomfortable around your dad. I hope you realize you deserve to be treated with respect and kindness. Not even a parent has the right to belittle or judge you or whatever he does that makes you so uncomfortable - no one does.

LB, I read your journal, too. Respect and love to you, NS

[Choices]

It's not a bad idea NS. I'll have hubby hide it from me as it's Friday night and he is home for the weekend. Thanks LB you are right drinking would just make the pain so much more intense. Strait through is the best route. Hoping to see JVo check in. Hope your alright.

[Pavati]

Hi, All:

J-Vo - you know how wise NS is. Really read her words. True, we love you, and true that coming back soon will stop it from becoming a bigger issues.

Good to see you, G.

I'm burning the candle at both ends. Looking for some sleep and exercise this weekend. And catching up here. Has Nar checked in lately?? Jane?

xo
Pav

[treetops]

Hi there Pav. I'm burning my candle too - its very early in the morning.
Yes I wondered also about Jane and Nar.

[Choices]

Hi Pav, TT and anyone checking in. Getting ready for my course so quick check in. Still AF and glad to be. Very tired from all the emotional ups and downs... I don't feel like going to my course, but I'm going anyway

[narilly]

Hi everyone! Yes, I am here and thinking of JVo, love you girl. Hang in there you can do it, we are all here for you. We know how hard it is. I think I quit about a hundred times before my last quit.

Hi Pav, TT, and everyone. I'm sorry I haven't been checking in as much. I don't want to get cocky and think I don't need you. I know I cannot do this on my own.

I am really looking forward to the weekend and am going to enjoy waking up Un Hung Saturday and Sunday. I have had so many hungover weekends in my life, thank Goodness that is not happening now.

xo

[scottish lass]

Hi lovely ladies - signed in today and done some reading around.
Mostly good here - doing well, sticking to my guns and making good choices overall...
Pleased with me - did a happiness challenge in January which taught me lots and hopefully some of it stuck.
Glad to see most of you around and doing well in-spite of life's ups and downs...

J-vo - don't make this a big deal, pick up where you left off and keep on kicking - you did so well, you can do it again...trust me, I know!

[little beagle]

Checking in. I've joined a forum for divorce and separation. Hubby called me today with some financial question. Got me all emotional. Bleh. Then I had a rational talk with myself and feel better again. I just have to keep reminding myself to not idealize him and to remember why he REALLY left. Kickboxing again today. It's really starting to help. But I am beat up. Right shoulder hurts. Pulled a groin muscle and my fingers a real hurting. But it's worth every single ache and pain. Imagining his face on that bag and punching over and over. I did 26 2 minute rounds today.

[Pavati]

Hi, All:

Good to see you check in, Nar.

LB - that class sounds like something I'd love.

Yay, SL. Glad you're around.

Off to bed. xo