By now Mick should be in Vietnam or Cambodia ? probably either contemplating a yummy lunch or recovering from the jet lag and flights.
It seems that some have been niggled a bit lately by the come hither whisper of the AL and nicotine demons. Not too much to worry about but as Lav said its important that we keep vigilent and self aware ? even the old timers like herself. Five years straight seems so long to be AF and I think Lav shows us that its not just the quitting but the life we build afterwards. After the honeymoon of sobriety ? there are more challenges, boredom, maybe temptations ? and a sort of ?so what? ? will it really matter if I have a few drinks? As I posted today on another thread ? that may be fine on the day ? but we know that inevitably we will creep back up to our former levels. For me its not the fear of going back to Day One (because I haven?t thought it out that way) but the fear of gradual escalation, dependency and all the problems that would bring. I know it wouldn?t be an overnight crash or binge for me ? but I sure as hell would kid myself that it was OK ? and before long back to drinking copious amounts of wine. Besides my liver wouldn?t take it and I need the ugly organ for the rest of my life.
Sam ? you must know all about long term sobriety and then long term relapse and quitting again. Hope you are snugly watching the pretty snow.
I warned you that there might be a diatribe! :H
Yah ? I could also relate to your bitter sweet thoughts about Maddie leaving again. Such is the tug we have with the apron strings and children! I like the way you put it ?what I will miss is the fantasy relationship that I have with her?. So true in many of our close relationships. Don?t start smoking ? as a non smoker I can say its horrible and it really messes with your health. You know that, but its always good to have someone nag you ? esp when Maddie is gone. Of course she will be back.
SL ? ?I will keep off the wine if you keep off the ciggies? ? glad that is a joke! :H
Pauly ? hope your Monday was busy. Here in NZ most hair salons close on Mondays ? and Sundays.
Too late here for me to offer any breakfast ? its really cold and wet. Ghastly. But nothing compared to some places. Been watching the news about Crimea.
I better do some things before its dark. Hope you get better sleep SL. My sleeping patterns are more or less permanently screwed-up ?this goes back to pre-AL days. In fact for many years I used AL as a ?sleeping aid? (an aid that started hours beforehand:H). I also messed myself up years ago with sleeping tablets ? so now I just see what the evening will bring sleepwise. Its not too bad. No way in hell would I take a sleeping tablet now.
Some people say the body is a temple. My body is like one of those ruined cities - building a new 'temple' :H:H from the ruins.
You all have a great Tuesday and take care.
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