June Justified

[Lavande]

Good morning friends & welcome to the month of June!
I figured we are all justified at this point

Actually, the list of J adjectives I found was pretty short :H
Jaunty, Jazzed, Jazzy, Jimp (Scot. and N. England), Jocose, Jocular, Jocund, Jolly, Jovial, Joyful, Joyous, Jubilant, Judicious, Juicy, Just, Justified.

The weather is supposed to be nice again today so I will spend as much time outside as possible. No point in doing any housework until my son's dogs have gone home. I imagine I will have them until tomorrow morning.

Wishing everyone a wonderful AF Sunday!

Lav

[dill]

June Justified

Everybody?s life is either a warning or an example. You?ve got to decide what you?re gonna be and you have to draw a line in the sand.
-Tony Robbins

Morning Lav, love the new name!

I just stopped for a quick check in but I'm in a rush to get to church. I still love sitting in church on a Sunday morning hangover free!:h

[Stargazerlily]

June Justified

Good morning...

Pap, so sorry about your kitty, you did the right thing but it is so hard.

Lav, have fun picking out colors to paint, there are so many.

Dill, sounds as if you are doing well.

I am hanging in there, very anxious, trying to be calm and hopeful. Have a great day.

[cyntree]

June Justified

Thanks, Lav, for the start of the month. June - really?! wow, May was a figment of my imagination.

Pap - SO very sorry about your kitty. Good for you for having the bravery to do right by her; but I know how hard it is. Best of luck on the money front - keep the affirmations coming and it will all work out. Sorry that your boss is not being supportive.

Lav, hope that the twins go home and your household can settle in a little...

Dill - I love the image I have of you in a church pew, happy and centered, with maybe some stained-glass light filtering through. Hope you had a good service.

Star - you are amazing. Hang in there - keep breathing. I loved the link that Lav sent - I think it's great to see and acknowledge all that one feels, and doing that with respect. Then to let it go and observe it's passing. It sound just right for all of us...the respecting the current emotion is a key point for me, and has been a stumbling block...this approach makes 'sense' to me. Thanks Lav!

Well, my company left today. I honestly felt like I was running a hotel - first getting the house thoroughly cleaned and the rooms ready (really, no one irons anymore? I used to iron our own sheets!), and then the endless cooking of food and settling out of stuff: coffee, sugar, milk, fresh fruit, some bready object for breakfast - then it seemed like I turned around and it was hors d' and cocktail time, and then full-out dinners. I cooked because it's so expensive to take people out, but I'm not so sure it was the right decision. Thank goodness the gent and his fiancee were a super couple, and to see my HB laughing like a kid again was worth it all.

Anyway, i am truly exhausted this time; woke up feeling dreadful yesterday, but just kept at it. The guests left this afternoon, and now I am sitting here with a wretched cold/sinus situation, with hotpacks on all my joints because of pain. I think I'm headed to bed soon,

So grateful to have been AF through it all - it used to be that I couldn't cook or entertain without having had a few - I can't imagine how horrible I would feel now if I had been drinking...yuck!

Take care all - more tomorrow --

[Lavande]

June Justified

Good morning friends,

Oh boy Cyn, time for you to decompress & look after yourself for a while.
The first thing that came to mind after reading your symptoms was - this poor girl really has a compromised immune system. I'm so sorry you have so much going on right now. Have you found a Naturopath in your area? That is what helped my daughter the most when she experienced similar symptoms. Please look after yourself :l

I still have the extra dogs but hope they get picked up later this morning. I'd take them home myself but I can't fit them both in my car :H
I think my son is going to owe me a BIG favor :H

Wishing everyone a wonderful AF Monday! I need to get myself to Curves to start my week off just right

Lav

[papmom3]

June Justified

Hi All,
Lav, love the new name for us!! Thank you. Also looked at that link you sent. It was well worth it. Hope the twins have gone home by now!!

Cyn-you need a few days just for you to recover. Hope you are feeling better and got to enjoy some of this gorgeous day. Healing pings heading your way.

Star-hang in there. It will all work out-I just know it. Just keep breathing and maybe some meditation/yoga. Definitely good food and exercise.

Dill-how's it going with your son's new place??

Thanks for all the words of sympathy about girl kitty. It seems more wierd not having her here than it did when Freddy passed. I guess because I've never not had a cat in the house and now I don't. I know I can 't get another one for a long time and that makes me sad. I hope Freddy was waiting for her at the Bridge.

Things are just getting worsen at work. My boss is now finding fault with emails that I'm writing and called me outside to express her concern about the times and days I've chosen for medical appointments. She wants to make sure I'm checking the calendar first to make sure it's not a day she has taken off. I explained that for this 3rd reschedule I didn't have a chance to check the calendar and asked for whatever they could give me. It just so happened they gave me next Friday at 8am and it happens that she is out again. She's letting me keep the appointment but I can't take the day off. I feel like I am such a child in her eyes. I'm sick of it.
I did look for another part time job yesterday but nothing is crying out to me-I have limited flexibility-but I'll keep looking. As far as a full time job goes, I'm really not sure what to do. Stay in higher ed or try to transition to corporate? At my age? Could be tough. Might have to revisit early retirement again so I can take a lower paying position that might be more fitting for me. Really didn't think I would have to be going through this process again so soon (or ever again). Star-we're in this together girl!!

I must say that I am eternally grateful for a couple of things: I'm AF and my gym membership. the gym allows me to spend a couple of hours without thinking about job hunting or the dismal state of my finances. It's such a retreat! Today I tried (at the suggestion of the personal trainer who generously didn't charge me for the advice) a different way of doing the treadmill. I interspersed 2 minutes of side shuffles and 1 minute of jogging into my 30 minutes. Repeated the sequence once. I didn't fall or get out of breath either!! Kind of cool and I was psyched how good I felt jogging!!

Well, its way past doggie dinner time so better tear myself away from American Ninja Warrior and get working!!

[Lavande]

June Justified

Good Tuesday morning friends!

Going to be a typical east coast hot & humid day - swell!
Here comes the frizzy hair!

Papmom, sorry to hear your job is such a dud. It reminds me of the many nursing jobs I had - same stuff everywhere, just different locations
I wish there was a clear path for you
Glad the gym is working out for you! Sounds like a little bit of heaven, a welcome refuge.

I am happy to report that the twins have gone home! Now I just need to catch up on the clean up. Yesterday I cleaned the glass windows & door on my deck, inside & out. They were full of dog lick :H
I have a bit of work, need to pay bills & do whatever I can do outside before it gets too hot.

Greetings to Dill, Star & Cyn!
I hope everyone has a great AF Tuesday!

Lav

[Stargazerlily]

June Justified

Good morning to all,

Hey, I am really struggling here, finally slept last night so feel human today. I am in grief/loss due to financial instability (at least I know how to name it) and my moods and feelings are all over the place: shock, anger, sadness, anxiety, confusion, acceptance, etc. It is exhausting. So, if I am not posting daily, it is because I am overwhelmed. I am doing my best to move on and not get so anxious, so send me positive energy. Thanks for being there.

Pap, so sorry to hear you financial issues. Money only matters if you don't have enough, and believe me, it really matters. I feel so badly that your boss is picking on your emails....she needs more to do. It is hard to have to take time off, but my goodness, you had a heart attack. This is not like a cold. So, sending you positive energy.

Cyn, you do so much, maybe think about saying, "No!" sometimes. I know a little bit about pain management and want to share a link hoping it may be helpful. ? The Pain Toolkit | Tools | Tool twelve. I need to follow it myself, so don't take offense. Pacing myself, getting enough sleep, etc., is all part of the strategy.

Lav, so how is it with you husband back in the house? Fun, not fun, a mix? Hope things are going well. I am really looking at all the stuff I have and wanting to get rid of so much. I think I use about 10% of the things I have. How about you?

Dill, hope you are enjoying the lovely weather and did your son move out? It is so beautiful here, I love summer.

To all, have a great day.

[dill]

June Justified

Hello All,

Good to hear from you Star! Your short posts spoke volumes about your stress levels. Sending positive energy.:h I hope the waters calm for you very soon. You are one of the best, most centered people I know so just redouble your efforts at self-care and nurturing. You're in my prayers.

Lav, hot and humid here too. I'm afraid I wilt in this weather. Have you thought any more about your business and whether or not to retire? I think you might miss it if you do. It's nice to have something to do and you are lucky that you do something you seem to enjoy.

Papmom, sending strength your way too. I'm sorry your job environment is so stressful at for you. I'm glad you don't even consider letting it cause you to drink. That's awesome!

Cyn, I have never ironed a sheet. I had heard about people doing that, but it's just not something I ever felt worthwhile for some reason. You really gave your guests the VIP treatment! I'll bet ironed sheets look and feel great. It sounds like you may have worn yourself out, so take it easy for a while. I know what you mean tho about it being worth it when you heard Mr. Tree laughing so whole-heartedly. That is such a wonderful thing and more rare it seems as we get older. I also could relate to what you said about cooking and drinking. It took me a long, long time to get to where I didn't miss drinking while preparing dinner. I had a really difficult time making that particular shift. For a while I either had to do crock pot meals or simply go out to eat. I remember LBH having a hard time with that transition too. I bet it's a common thread for women wine drinkers.

My son is moving this week. We moved most of the large items Sunday and then again today. It took two days because we are using our own pick up truck instead of renting a larger trailer. It's wonderful to see how pleased my son and the children are to be getting this fresh new start in their own place. Fingers crossed and lots of prayers here...

[Stargazerlily]

June Justified

Up early today as my husband has to drive for an interview. I have received some response on my applications but it is so weird, they want to contact my references before an interview. What a pain in the butt and how embarrassing. But, you do what you have to. I think that is asking alot of people. I had a much better day yesterday, so hope and plan on a good day today.

Dill, wishing your son the best. I bet you are so proud of him. In recovery and taking care of the kids on his own. Hope you DIL is continuing to work towards healing.

Lav, hope you are enjoying the weather. It is cooling down here so you will get the 70s in a few days. I love the 70s, they can be so comfortable.

Hello to Cyn and Pap and have a great day.

[Lavande]

June Justified

Good morning friends & Happy Hump day!

Star, hope your husband has a good interview
Glad you are getting some responses to your applications as well. A new adventure on the horizon is exciting & you'll be happy when all is said & done.

Dill, don't you find it physically difficult moving furniture & boxes at this point in our lives? I sure do :H
I'm happy for your son & his family & wish them the best!

I'm not totally sure how I feel about YB being back in residence, to be perfectly honest. I can't say it's fun Star but it's not un-fun either. He is still work absorbed like he's always been. I haven't personally moved up any in his hierarchy if you know what I mean. I have given up any expectations I ever had of becoming #1. That's what led me down the dark path of depression & numbing myself.
I am just trying to stay to my own routine which had become comfortable even if not perfect

Daughter & granddaughter are coming today for a visit. I want to get to Curves & also deliver an embroidery job beforehand. Wishing everyone a great AF day!
Hello to Papmom & Cyn - hope you are both OK!!!!

Lav

[cyntree]

June Justified

Morning all -

Star - how good to hear from you, so sorry for the stress - I believe, as others have said, that it really will work out in the end, but the $$ worry does weigh on one. But remember - there's plenty of all good things out there for you. Congrats on the interview! Thanks for the link - I haven't looked yet, but I'm sure it will have great stuff for me. I've been on the quest with naturopaths and acupuncturists and all for many years now, but new info is always good. I think that having guests and getting off my eating plan and exercising plan really has had an impact.

Lav - I've been wondering if your cooking has changed? You were doing so much meatless, etc dinners. I have a real challenge when HB is home - we eat very different foods, and I feel like I need to make 2 different kinds of meals - which I usually am too tired to do, so I eat the wrong stuff! Hope everything stays on an even keel.

Pap - what an unfortunate person for a boss - micro-managers are the worst! Wishing you luck in figuring it all out. I understand your grief about kitty.

Dill - what great news about your son! I love the picture that you painted about putting all the belongings in the truck and moving them. Sounds exciting and like a real right of passage.

So sorry for all the severe weather for everyone. I have a favor to ask - can anyone tell me - for the 7 day forecast in the OH and IL, IN, does it look bad from the 6th to the 11th? I am thinking about getting in the car and driving to NE to pick up all the boxes left there from Mom's apartment...but I won't do it in bad weather...

Have a great AF day all!

[Lavande]

June Justified

Hi Cyn,

I don't know if driving west this week is such a good idea. Just saw this report
Midwest Severe Weather: Storm Dumps Heavy Rain Across Midwest, Ohio Valley and Tennessee Valley - weather.com Severe Weather Strikes the Midwest
Can you put that trip off for a while & be safe?

[Stargazerlily]

June Justified

Good morning to all,
Lav, regarding YB, it is good to be realistic in your expectations of what you can expect from him. If he has always put himself and his interests first, why would he change now? Take care of yourself first, that is what I am trying to do.

Cyn, moving is not my thing. It is just too overwhelming. So, moving and starting a new job, two new stressors are a bit much for me. I suppose it will work out in the end, but I guess I am just tired. Period. The weather in the Midwest is cooler and today sunny. Yesterday bad storms but they moved east so I think several days of pleasant weather. The pain toolkit talks about keeping balance, eating right, getting enough sleep, saying no, pacing yourself, resting when you need to. All the things we know we should do. I found it helpful as I have a certain amount of pain as I am getting older.

Working today, then busy weekend, trying to figure out the next steps. Have a good day andhello to Pap and Dill.

[Lavande]

June Justified

Good morning friends,

No sunshine here yet, maybe later. Had a lot of rain overnight.

Star, I know it's hard but try to keep your eye on the prize
You are relocating to begin your new life as a grandma & there's nothing better than that!
My daughter & granddaughter came to visit yesterday & decided to stay overnight. Nothing like a mid-week pick me up, huh? The kids always put me in a better mood
Everything will work out, just believe. Change is difficult but it can be very good for us in the end!

I am grateful to have finally gotten it thru my thick skull that YB is what he is & will not change until he decides to change. That may very well be never, his choice.
My fantasy of him stopping his negative BS thinking is just over. He can do whatever he wants to do but he will respect my boundaries or I will show him the door. That's just the way it has to be. Self-survival is just too important to me.

I have to take a dog to the vet later for her yearly checkup then bake up a whole bunch of banana breads for a bake sale Saturday at Curves. Proceeds for this big yard sale & bake sale go to the ACS Relay for Life.

Greetings Dill, Cyn, Papmom & anyone dropping by today!
Have a great AF Thursday one & all.

Lav