June Justified

[dill]

June Justified

Good Morning All,

Wow, you all sound so energetic and productive! It makes me want to get busy on a project just reading your posts.

Star, I'm glad you are enjoying the Power Point project and that you are not daunted by it.

Papmom, that's awesome about the desk! We have one and I love it. Thank you for the info on demo jobs and for the link. I'll look into it!

Lav, Cyn, greetings to you both.

I have been successful at my cleaning of the pump house. I felt like I was covered in spiders by the end of it, but it was worth it. The grandkids came over for a while and we had a nice visit.

Have a nice AF Tuesday everyone.

[Lavande]

June Justified

Good morning friends,

Not exactly sunny yet but it should show up soon

Star, you sound great! Good for you!
We owe it to ourselves to be our own best cheerleaders. I spent too many years operating in a depressed & wine sodden mode & had forgotten how to be kind to myself. No more of that, ever!!

Papmom, I chuckled when you mentioned a roll top desk. That was something YB always wanted but never managed to get Hope you enjoy your new addition! I'm glad your nephew is helping you with the heavy yard work, that's great!

Dill, glad you got your cleaning job done. Now where are the spiders going to live? :H
I feel like we are always chasing mice around here. When we do a clean up in one of the garage they just move across the driveway to the other garage!! Glad you had a nice visit with the kids!

I am on grandson watch again starting at noon. My daughter & granddaughter are also coming out for a visit. We are all going to head back to the orchard to visit their barnyard buddies & possibly more cherry picking.
Milburn Orchards in Elkton, Maryland sells locally grown and pick your own fruits, berries, and fresh vegetables, and offers a variety of family fun on the farm.

Cyn, I suppose you are busy, hope all is going well!

Have a great AF Tuesday everyone!

Lav

[Stargazerlily]

June Justified

Good morning to all...

Nothing new to report, just plugging along. The weeks are going by so fast, always the way it happens in summer.

Sounds like we are all productive and busy. Have a great day.

[Lavande]

June Justified

Good morning friends!

Same here Star, busy, busy
I am fairly beat after dealing with my grandsons the past two days. My daughter & granddaughter stayed overnight too. Not much rest happening for me :H My younger dog seems to be developing asthma & it seems allergy driven. She woke me at 1:30 this morning having some difficulty, oh boy.

I need to get myself to Curves, deliver eggs & see what else develops.
Have a great AF Hump day everyone!

Lav

[dill]

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Greetings Lav and Star, you both sound good and busy!

Another rainy June day!
I'm not going to let it hold me back tho. Out to the garden I will go to pick some kale and lettuce. Maybe some raspberries if they're ready. Then a walk with a gf, if the rain holds off long enough.


Happy AF Humpday

[papmom3]

June Justified

evening all. Hunkering down in prep for some storms that may roll through tonite.
Hard to believe it's almost July-yes star-summer does go by way too fast.

Next week brings another paycheck and one month closer to paying off my vet bill and an extra paycheck (if they don't let me go in July that is-I'm so counting on that extra paycheck!). Of course that also means Fall will be right around the corner. Ugh.

Speaking of work, I am so bored I want to jump out a window!! Everytime in the past I've asked my boss what I can do to help her, she offers nothing. Next week my self eval is due. It just gets worse and worse. i've been looking like crazy too but nothing. Not even a part time position for the weekends. sigh.
Last nite I was so anxious I couldn't sleep-even after 1.5 ambien. Today I just couldn't get the motivation to go to the gym. Usually I can force myself to get in the car but not tonite. Tomorrow is swimming for sure. No excuses.

So wish I could turn the corner on one of these issues!!

[Stargazerlily]

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Good morning...

Pap, I know how you feel. I have been so anxious, lucky to sleep 6 hours. I am trying to not worry about the outcome,but I need to find a job. Lots of interviews, no job offers. I hate worries about money or health...both out of our control. I just keep trying to think, right now I am OK. It is true and I am. But I feel for you. Lav, do you have any good affirmations for us? I know that with a little time you will find a good position. You would get severance pay or at least unemployment that would free you up to look for a job. I have found that it is very time consuming. I do better being busy and getting out of the house. At home I ruminate, and that is not good. Hope you have a better day today. We need to keep the faith. You can PM me anytime.

Lav, no nibbles on my house. Lots of showings, good reviews, but no offers. Darn. The house is sold, the house is sold. That is my mantra. You are in a good place now and I am happy for you. You made it through the dark night of the soul, kept the faith, and somehow it has worked out. You deserve it.

Dill, enjoying your summer now. I am so happy to hear this. We are having a wet but lovely summer. Still on grandma watch here.

Cyn, hope you are well.

I will be going out of town again, an interview tomorrow, so if I don't communicate you know why. Wish me luck. Have a great day.

[Lavande]

June Justified

Good morning friends!

Had some storms roll thru here last night. I actually fell asleep last night watching the lightning.

Dill, hope you were able to do everything you wanted to do yesterday despite the rain

Papmom & Star - one of my favorites is Positive Outlooks Blog
They cover all sorts of topics but I look forward to their email each day
And of course I love TUT :: Home

Job searching is hard, selling your home is hard. These are things we all have to face sooner or later. I can still remember the nightmares I had when selling our previous homes. But I also know that I have a history of being very hard on myself. Just keep breathing ladies & keep your thoughts positive. I think of it in terms of keeping my Type A personality traits under control. I AM IN CONTROL NOW :H

Cyn, hope you are OK!

I hope to get caught up with things around house & home today.
I have to take the large dog to the vet at 4pm for her yearly checkup, oh joy!

Have a great day everyone!
Lav

[dill]

June Justified

Hello All,

Lav, yesterday was both a fun and productive day. I got some sunshine after all and managed some weeding. Also picked some veggies to have with dinner. I didn't get motivated to do any indoor chores beyond making a crockpot meat loaf. Oh, and we picked 5 cups of black raspberries which Mr. D baked into a cobbler. MMMM! I went out to lunch with a GF, too. I really crammed a lot in!:H

Star, you will make it through this difficult time and come out on top, I just know it! You and your hb are hard-working, diligent people and you will ultimately make good things come to you. Remember, "Good things come to those who wait." You've put all the right things in motion, now it is time to wait.

Papmom, I feel for you, especially the part about being bored at work. I remember times in my career when I was bored with an assignment and time just DRAGGED! I am keeping my fingers crossed for you that something breaks your way soon.:l

Another busy AF day ahead.

[Lavande]

June Justified

Good morning friends!

Well, that energy I started out with on Monday is now all gone :H
I am honestly dragging my behind today!!! But I refuse to waste an entire day so I will eventually get myself together & out to Curves & the supermarket.

Dill, I find the best days are the unplanned ones. Things just seem to come together in the mist natural ways Glad you were able to get out with your friend too.

I contacted my lunch group a few days ago to see if we can get out one day next week. One of them tells me she was just released from a two day hospital stay for cardiac arrhythmia issues. Geez She had a huge heart attack several years ago which forced her into early retirement. Made me think of you Papmom but my friend really hasn't worked her recovery the way you have!!! My friend is still carrying too much weight & is no longer getting any regular exercise that I am aware of anyway.
Diet & exercise are two things we really need to focus on at this age

Greetings to Star & Cyn. Hope you are both OK!
Have a great AF Friday everyone!

Lav

[dill]

June Justified

Wow, Lav! Sorry to hear about your GF's health scare. Denial is a powerful thing

It's another perfect summer day here and I'm glad to be clear-headed and enjoying it. I hear you about the energy level tho Lav. I am a bit on the slow-side today too.

I'm heading out for a walk in the woods now. Have a great AF Friday everyone.

[Stargazerlily]

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Good morning...

Really struggling. Nothing good to say except checking in.

[dill]

June Justified

All life demands struggle. Those who have everything given to them become lazy, selfish, and insensitive to the real values of life. The very striving and hard work that we so constantly try to avoid is the major building block in the person we are today.

Pope Paul VI

Good morning Star, I understand your feelings. Yesterday I woke up feeling "adrift". I am struggling with all the unknowables, the things that aren't "nailed down". You have a lot of balls in the air right now and a couple of very big unknowns. This time shall pass and you will get through it. I have faith in you!:h
The things I am struggling with are all things over which I have no control but matter to me greatly My son, his recovery, my grandchildren depending on him. Those are the constant backdrop of my life and I have no control. Just limited influence by lending support, shining a light, giving my love. I must follow my advice to you. This time shall pass and I must be patient and play my part. But it is harder than it looks! Just like quitting drinking. On the outside you look completely normal, just like everyone else. But on the inside you are fighting a huge battle and you're miserable. But you're alone in it because no one can see in just by looking. Do you remember those days?

Hello Lav, I know you're on your way! I was reading another thread yesterday where you mentioned something about a black snake in your hen house coiled among your chicks. I would have totally freaked out!!! The only good thing about them is they mostly eat mice. Gotta love that, eh?:H

Nice day here. Have a great AF Saturday all.

[Lavande]

June Justified

Good morning friends

Star, sending you many hugs :l
I hope we can provide some strength & comfort for you.
Everything is going to be OK.

Dill, we do all have similar worries going on in the background. I think it would be impossible to be alive & connected to family & not have them.
I have to consciously choose which ones are actually 'my' problems, things I can manage.
Spreading myself too thin causes me to fall apart - don't want to go there again.

About the snakes - yuck. We do have the Pennsylvania black snakes around here, they can grow quite big. I had never seen one until we moved here. It was frightening seeing that big thing sitting there in the middle of my flock of 2 month old (or less) chicks.

I need to run to the vet to pick up a supplement for my big dog. Apparently she has an elevated liver enzyme - getting old I guess because I know she's not a drinker :H

Have a great AF Saturday everyone. Hello Papmom & Cyn!

Lav

[papmom3]

June Justified

Good evening everyone. A worn out papmom checking in. Had a very busy and HOT demo outside today. It was fun tho but I am toast.

Star-I totally get what you are feeling right now. the struggles and fear/anxiety feel never ending, always getting worse. Sometimes you wonder how or if you should go on. You have your daughter and future grandchild to keep you fighting. You can PM me too if you want. A shoulder to cry on perhaps.

Lav-was that snake thing recent? Are your chickens really only 2months old? Every day on my way to and from work I pass a house that has a very small chicken coop visible from the road. I've seen 1 red and 1 white bird so far but can't tell if either is a rooster or not. I just like seeing them and get sad when they are not out.

Dill-how nice you had a day you could just do what came your way. Thank you for the quote. I know it's true but I still wonder why it has to be so hard ALL the time. I see others in my life and they seem so happy and everything is going their way. I'm sure they have their struggles too but not the same.

Cyn-where are you? Hope you are just wicked busy.

Made it through the week but it was torture. I have to turn my self eval in on Monday and rewrote it twice. I waffled between being very hard on myself, giving myself kudos or remaining neutral. I opted for neutral. I tried giving myself kudos last year (at my 2 month eval) and she just tore me down. How can you do that to someone after only 2 months? I can only imagine what she'll say this year. Sigh.
I am totally out of money until Thursday, unless I want to chance an overdraft. I have enough food for dinners and breakfasts but lunch will be a challenge. I guess lots of salads this week. Unfortunately Mickey is sick again. Now it's the runs and he might not be peeing enough. I've limited his food intake for a couple of days and no improvement. He needs meds, a special diet and maybe blood work and I can't afford any of it. I'm going to ask my friend if she has any of the meds he needs but can't pick it up until Monday if she does. he is hungry tho and not lethargic so I'm crossing my fingers it won't get any worse. Again, I can't catch a break. At least I have my gym membership and a car that runs (for now) and a 3 day weekend coming up with nothing planned. Oh and definitely a short sail planned for tomorrow. See, I'm trying to see the good things happening even as I slip deeper and deeper into despair about my finances. Something has to break soon. I hope it won't be me.