why oh why did i do it

[maryt]

things were going really well for me until last night and decided rather stupidly to have a drink well went out and bought a bottle of vodka and needless to say it is nearly all gone and to make matters worse i have very recently started seeing someone and i am not sure how it is going so low and behold i sent him a text and have not got the foggiest what i said and i now feel sick to the pit of my stomach don,t know what to say to him if he gets in touch looks like another relationship has just gone down the swannie well enough of my doom and gloom hope everyone is having a better day than me

love maryt xx

[Rocky]

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It's part of the journey. the important thing is that you are on the journey and have had successes.

Regroup and start out today...

[kali]

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Hi Marty,

I know exactly what you are talking about.. I've driven into the liquor store on automatic pilot, intending to just have one drink... Next thing I know wake up wondering what happened, what i said or did...

Don't be hard on yourself today, there are many people here to help you... I've just started over and am only on day 2.

You probably just text him that you miss him, or something of that sort.

Take care today

[Pebbles]

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Feeling for you Mary, did a similiar thing myself a few weeks ago. Not on the phone, but at my sons preschool social, yuk, I still go hot and cold thinking about it....

If you really want to know what you said, your phone may have an outbox, you could try it.

Regroup, and continue on your journey, we're with you all the way.

xxx

[Lotus]

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Maryt

We have all been there. I thought I was doing really well with 4 days AF, even posted a thread about celebrating without alcohol, convinced myself I would buy alcohol free wine!!!

We are human and we make mistakes. We also learn from them. Today is another day. Never give up. Sometimes these events can actually reinforce our reasons for not drinking.

Have you spoken to your boyfriend, as it may not be as bad as you think it is. Not trying to be funny but even those who do not have a "problem" with alcohol end up doing and saying stupid things.

Hope you are feeling better.

[ducky]

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Hope you are feeling better MaryT. As everyone has said, we have all been there. Last week I checked my email to discover I had emailed a friend while drinking the night before. Luckily the email was not TOO stupid...

Forgive yourself and move on.

[maryt]

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he has just texted me to find out why i asked that last night and obviously don,t know what i said so have apologised and no reply as yet but thanks all for your kind words and support

[irishlady]

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Oh Mary don't worry.. Texting was my favourite hobby when I was drunk, closely followed by buying crap from the shopping channels.. I never knew what I had bought until I got home from work and opened the parcel, thank goodness I could return the stuff..

Just learn from it and then put it all behind you.. I'm glad to see you are still with us.

Lots of love from Louise xxx

[maryt]

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i feel so low at the moment i could cry i know i have to put it down to experience and learn from it but still feel like crap

[SKendall]

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Ditto what Irish has said. Today is a new day.

[Otie]

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:h :h :h :h

[kitkatsue]

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Hello maryt,
I am the drunken phone queen, I do not know why I feel it necessary to call people when I drink but I do. The embarrassing thing is I have been calling this cute guy at work and I don't remember if I say anything or just hang up and I don't know if he knows it's me.
Then I get the joy of going to work wondering.

Anyway you are not alone and once you find out what your text contained you will be able to put things together and move on, I think it's harder because we already feel guilty about our drinking where as if we didn't have this problem we would probably blow it off.

I hope this helps!!
Take care !!!

kitkat

[MonaCat]

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Maryt,
Poor dear, I understand how low you must feel.
Beating yourself up, isn't going to change anything.
Just put your head up high in the air, and go on with life.
Irish, I use to do the same damn thing, but bought on e-bay.
It was kind of fun open those boxes.
But memory loss isn't fun.
Caroline Knapp in her book, called our drunk phone calls...."Dial a Drunk"

[Determinator]

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Maryt hang in there and stay with us....plan and do.

I must confess I was the drunken ebay cowboy...yikes. all kinds of bizaare packages would be waiting on the doorstep for me.

[betty boop]

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Mary, Hang in there love,

We have all done it, and yes it is AWFUL ......

Don't beat yourself up ....

BB xx