Taking a break... Length, the longer the better

[frances]

Taking a break... Length, the longer the better

Hi Roadside I agree wholeheartedly wihth what Ava has said. She's 100% right. How are you doing? You can do this check out newbies nest and the toolbox threads if you haven't already. RS is Ava's abbreviation for Roadside.

[Roadside]

Taking a break... Length, the longer the better

Thanks, Frances. I post on my phone mostly and the only time I made it to the newbie's nest was through a link sent to me. Is MWO easier to manage on a regular computer screen? I the tool box and newbie's nest under forums? There might be so many forums that they aren't sticking out to me.

[Roadside]

Taking a break... Length, the longer the better

The last 24 hours has tested me well. I learned about HALT, (hungry, angry, lonely, tired) a trigger for cravings and also reciting opposite when negative thoughts enter head (I.e. if I think I am lazy, I tell myself I am productive, 10-15 times during the day). These are two things I think I will focus on for the week.
6:30 PM, i have no urge to drink now, hopefully tomorrow morning I can proudly report my TWO.

Thank you for your concern over me, Frances, and the rest of he strangers here. It feels really good and must take considerable effort, some appear to be 'watchers' over the flock and have done it for a considerable time.

[Roadside]

Taking a break... Length, the longer the better

This morning was TWO, tonight, although irritated and rushed to get home, definitely contemplated the desire for a drink, but managed to calm myself down, take medicine, brush teeth, now meditating before bed. I look forward to reporting tomorrow morn.

[Pie]

Taking a break... Length, the longer the better

Congrats on day 2, Roadside. There's so much support available in the Newbies Nest and in the Toolbox. Hope you'll check them out. Links below.

https://www.mywayout.org/community/fo...25721-tool-box

https://www.mywayout.org/community/fo...-nest/page3586

[Roadside]

Taking a break... Length, the longer the better

THis morning was THREE. A little over 72 hours.

[frances]

Taking a break... Length, the longer the better

Congratulations Roadside! I have had some learning curve with a new look on this site sorry I missed your previous posts. You are doing great! You will have ups and downs be ready for the cravings so you know how you will handle them - Pie gave you links to the toolbox and newbies nest - these are two great resources. The newbies nest has a lot of regular posting and both new and experienced people make it a great place to go for support!!!

[Roadside]

I have been downgraded to a junior member and have lost my ability to add a picture to my profile, I don't know why.

Positive thing is I am on day four of AF and feeling good so far. Rough day yesterday but today wasn't so bad. One day at a time.

[Roadside]

Today I start the count over (really, I started the count over yesterday, 24 Oct. I had made it four days last week, longer than I have for over two months~ no let's shoot for six days.... Must get the alcohol out of the house first; why do I bring it in the house?

[Roadside]

Had an encounter with an intoxicated friend, and I would have categorized that friend as a 'mean drunk'. Her words hurt my feelings initially, but then I thought about that friend and their current state of mind, therefore understood it was not coming from them, rather an altered state of them.

Sometimes I am unnecessarily nasty with my kids; unnecessarily nasty because #1, I am exhausted, #2, why don't they follow directions, #3, I am TIRED of cleaning up after their messes, and it takes so much effort to train them to be respectful / responsible for their own actions. So... one thought I never had, but it is entirely possible, I exhibit 'mean drunkedness'.

Why? I don't drink with the intentions on bringing harm on others. I drink with the intentions of making myself calm, 'uncaring' almost, or I drink to combat feelings of inadequacy.

26 Oct 14; crappy day, having a cupful of 'who gives a feck'.

[abcowboy]

Just put the cup down, start over, there's lots of us here "who give a feck"

[Roadside]

You are correct, abcowboy. That 'who gives a feck' is irrational thinking and I am being childish by drowning my anger in alcohol, or any foreign substance, for the only way out is #1, take responsibility, #2, perform the difficult actions to rectify the situation WITHOUT EXCUSE! I dislike people that make excuses, it is not my desire to be one of them.

Thank you again, tomorrow is a new day and I will be practicing 'conscious living'.

[abcowboy]

Why not the Newbie Nest Roll Call or the 24 Hour Club? Just commit to being sober one day at a time, it really does work, but you have to work it....

[Roadside]

Don't feel good about my choice to drink yesterday. Today will be AF. Today is day one. Anticipating a rough week, my schedule changes, kids go visit Dad and I will be tempted, but there is LOTS to do;I shall not waste a minute with stupid AL. Stupid, stupid AL. (My apologies to the Al's out there, you are not stupid, but AL is. He's sneaky, deceptive, mean, dangerous, deadly, ugly, careless and I, nor the Al's of the world are none of those things.)

[Roadside]

29 Oct 14, AF for 24 hours; worked on my flower bed walls, painted a little, went to church and chatted; on the way home I stopped at a trail and jogged for about 2 miles; other than the terrible headache I have, I feel pretty good. So, today is day one.

I know exercise helps the body but the mind likes to trick you and make excuses for not getting outside; therefore, if your body is not exhausted, it has time to be anxious. Let's cut out the anxiety then there is no need for AL.