april 7th

[Mick]

mornin all.yet another gawjus day over here ..really foggy tho,but the sun is going to burn it all off..yet a cracking day done in the garden yesterday..lotta tidying up done and also planting..moved things about a bit making room ..planted up scarlet and curly kale this morning....just de nailing a lot of wood I got a hold of ..to make the rear fence later on

big thank you to ppqp fore doing the avatar of Sam n Sandy for me..smarter than me at that!!so thanx...also bimbling about yesterday,came across this lot...there were about 6 jeeps but managed to click the last one..ww2 re-enactment..all the insignia says and points to the 2nd Ranger Battalion/Company whatever you call it..do you get peeps over in the us of a and Canada doing this or is it a just a mad Brit thing?...and no it aint whatI do in my spare time either!!

brews on ..tea and coffee so grab a cup!!

hey bear hows yo ? ..coupla minutes of feeling jittery?..its that wave crest ..once youve surfed over it the jobs a good un..suns out here today too...Julie gone to work ...so Im lord and master again!!!She has got a fit bit as well ..so has pauly..Ive got a pedometer!!tight ass have a good day

hiya Lav..playing in the dirt...yep do for me that one!!!hows you then?all good ...brew time tea or cawffee..as if!!so what are you up to today then..you could get the grandsons planting up for you ..more digging fun!!

hiya pie ..how are you today?all good ..tea for you?that pic no it asnt where I live .its where molly does all her shopping!!!did you get any work?hope so..Thats a good recipe for a sugar scrub..personall I dont use them...just walk about with a bag on me head instead!!!

hiya pauly ..and hows you then?..feeling any better?yep reckon I will be getting another friend for Sandy..really watching her closely and keeping a log of her behaviour..take it you never got dizzy yesterday ..not with 2 lumps o chocolate cake anyway!!! have a mad free day!!...and stop thinking about the 4 week trigger dont exist !!!you can do this!

hiya ppqp...ta muchly for the avatar..it was nice of you so thank you ...glad you liked my avacado recipe!!are you in work today?is it still snowing? your post..."just wanted to let you know my last coke was April 1st."..take it that was a drink!!!!

right folks ..orf to the garden centre..so take it easy n have a good day ..big shout to those not here ..molls sam narilly et al.....have a good one....

It's not difficult to tell crocodiles and alligators apart.

One will see you in a while whereas the other will see you later.

I saw Cat Stevens on the Local Camp Site earlier, looking a bit pissed off .

"Awning has broken " he said , rather dejectedly .

My 16-year-old nephew is a real slacker, never has the motivation to do anything with his life. To try to jar him into action I wrote him a 'letter from himself 20 years from now'.

Anyway, now he reckons he can just laze around because he's going to invent a time-travelling postal service when he's 36.

My son sent me a card in hospital saying, 'Get Hell Soon'.

He meant well.

"Black really is slimming on you love, I can honestly say you've never looked sexier" I assured the wife.

"Turn the light back on you moron" She replied.

I didnt know women had their own radio station,radio pmt,i was listening today "hello, and welcome to radio pmt,DONT TOUCH THAT FECKING DIAL!!"

I'm a bit suspicious of my kid's new drama teacher.

The first play he's making them put on is The Emperor's New Clothes.


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Pauly ..baby bougie

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foggy this morning..

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work in progress.........

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[bear73]

hey Mick,up ready for a day at the coast - doing some exercise hugely helped,walked 3 miles to town and back and did body pump.Off to coast today to make most of last day off and the sun.
Surfing the wave is the way to go - with anxiety - and drinking thoughts.
Life is so much better I can't quite believe it,some of old rollerderby team have joined other local friendly team.One to mull over in few months time,I do miss it,as casual member though and in week only would be the plan.I'm enjoying having my weekends back.Happy Tuesday everyone.

[Lavande]

Good Tuesday morning Abbers!

Mick, nice pics, your garden looks great
Nothing planted here yet, not finished with the cold weather yet I'm afraid. Yesterday was warm & sunny so I had the boys outside quite a bit. Not sure how they managed to dig holes in the ground with plastic sand shovels but they did, ha ha!!
Haven't seen the jeep pics before, interesting!

bear, I rely on deep breaths to get me through almost anything these days. Just a minute or two of focusing on your breathing can help you get centered Have a good beach day!

Greetings to everyone, I'll be back later to see what's going on. I need to scoot out to Curves with this week's egg delivery
Have a great AF Tuesday everyone!

Lav

[paulywogg]

Mae everybody, love the avatar Mick hubs dug up the bougie to make room for a new one, way at the bottom it's turned green again so he cut it down and put it in a pot,sad cuz it was a 5 ft plant, now down to under a foot,but hey at least it's a survivor Lav,at least your grandsons help,Louie just wants to dig my plants back out,keeping him out of the compost heap is a pain, every time I throw some junk in it,he's right behind digging into it, doesn't understand it's garbage haha,had to have his other gramma pick him up yesterday I felt so weird, then I was sad cuz I just want to be normal, I love my time with him,but when I don't feel good it's hard to keep up, hi Bear,I told you too much junk food makes me anxious, maybe that's why I felt so yucky yesterday, I just over did Easter food I guess, hello to PPQP, thanks for being there for me yesterday I really needed it hello to Sam,SF,Pie,Det?and anyone else who stops in, let's have a productive Tuesday

[Pie]

Such a sweet avatar PQ made for you, Mick. Greetings to Bear, Lav, Pauly, and all to come. I'm off to find work.

Det, we're keeping a light on for ya.

[porqoui]

MAE ALL...

Mick...thanks for kicking us off and I'm glad the avatar worked. Now I know how to combine jpeg files! Jealous.com about you in the garden. We're looking at another month before we can even start. Yes, that would be the "drink" version of the word coke. LOL Foggy here too this morning, love the pics, but I think we're done with the snow, just need to get those temps up a wee bit.

Bear..."Life is so much better I can't quite believe it" ain't it grand! I remember realizing all my anxiety had left. Felt like I could deal with anything. And it sounds like you're at the place too. :goodjob:

Lav...can you send the boys over this way. Could use their help in the frozen dirt. So that's how you pay for your curves course!

Pauly...nice surprise to see the bougie is still willing to give it a go. Good luck with that. Good on you for admitting you needed help and calling other gran. Glad I was able to help. Albeit it was just a short response but sometimes that's all we need to turn our thinking around. Definitely planning on a productive Tuesday. Have a good one.

When I crashed the database on Friday it was a blessing in disguise. Spent the rest of the weekend not thinking about work at all and enjoyed being in the now. Going to be a busy day today but I'm ready for it. Have a Terrific AF Tuesday all and all to come.....:smile:PPQP

[paulywogg]

PPQP, I think you confused me with Bear sillygoose haha,forgot to comment on the black is slimming joke that was funny,Det,you really need to check in or I'm gonna be heading up north Louie just threw a bottle of nail polish on the tile and it broke everywhere, toddlers never rest!!!!

[porqoui]

Pauly...I just logged in and saw that. Sorry, but you knew I was talking about you.

Just home now so going to pull up a couch and relax. May check back later if I don't fall asleep.....:smile:PPQP

[Lavande]

I'm back without a darn thing to say for a change, ha ha!
I had a QUIET day with NO kids around!
Tomorrow morning I will be watching just one of the boys until 11:30 when I drop him off for his preschool lunch bunch.

pauly, I've seen what the boys have done with their mother's nail polish
I'm sending your plants positive vibes!

PQ, I'm hoping for some warm temps for you to melt whatever snow you have laying around. We been promised colder February-like temps here for the next few days, ugh.

Have a peaceful night everyone!

[TheSunFlower97]

Thanks for allowing me to vent....yes, lots of emotions. I guess I just have never really seen anything like this. My grandparents were married for almost 60 years.....and it wasn't always rosy, but at the end they were both there supportive of each other. Not flower and roses, but they were a great example. And I would not call it a great love affair.

I just have watched this woman be so unkind and utterly mean and demeaning to a man who really does not deserve it, for years. It has been hard to watch.

Today we saw his "Living Will" and actually, it would not have supported a DNR. He can recover, but at 84...there is only so much "quality of life" and he is in the early stages of Alzheimer's. But, her meanness was long before even a remote sign of it. Honestly, it is hard for me to comprehend where it came from.

She got a school of hard knocks from the doctor today...it is not her decision. It it was up to her she has clearly stated that she wants him to die, so that her life will be easier. It breaks my heart to see such a good man be at the end of his life and literally see the woman he loves trying to kill him.

My husband and I could be "much like them". He is so like his Dad and isn't perfect, but usually I get my way. (Maybe not a good thing).....he doesn't see that he is actually his Dad. But, he is siding with his Mom....and that is hard for me to understand. We had a fairly heated conversation in our car ride home today. It kind of ended with...."well, I am glad to know that when you need me most.....I am welcome to walk out on you".....because that is what you are saying to your mom.

I would understand truly if these were "heat of the moment comments", but they are not. She will be relieved when is gone. I guess for me, I can understand if that means it was best for the person I just spent 60 years with. And that is not the case. She is disappointed to find out that all his vitals are returning to normal....he will most likely recover....and she has to be there for him.

Watching something like this....kind of makes you scratch your head and go....WTF....I understand that most marriages are not forever....but when you get to 80....come on..."SOMEONE WAS GOING TO HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF AN OLD PERSON"...and for quite a few years "IT WAS YOU".

However, I am trying to have compassion. It is just hard when there is no compassion from her for a person who did so much for her.

Anyways, we are back home. Hubby and I had long talks. I was about to take a job...at all places in an "addiction center call center". My shift would have been 10pm to 7a. And you make like 70k a year. But, he knew the overnight shift would destroy my dream of building my business and he believes in me. He sees the lives I am changing one by one....and he said if you take this job now....you will be cutting your dream short. (See his Dad in there). Because there is no way you can really do both.

At some point I will open my book, because all that went down with the job was more than I let on. I was being pushed to do unethical things, yet I was scared for my family financially. And I made a really bad decision. The story is way too long.....but, they offered me something to cover their ass from a "law suit", but I chose it because it still offered my kids healthcare and such. However, because they were still weighted on me....it sent into that blackhole of depression that I had never seen before. Looking back....I really should not have taken that "offer of the devil" they offered me. Because it was then that I fell to depths of depression. I relapsed. But, I could not find my way out. Not really so much with the drinking.....but, now in real depression.....just getting out of bed to go to doctor was a real struggle.

Thank you for reading my novel....some funny quotes from the family today......when my MIL was in the midst of her back pain she got addicted to serious pain pills.

She said, "I'm 83 years old and I really don't care if I am pill addict"

My sister-in-law who takes care of her is in recovery from drug addiction.....and says to me...."How fucked up is it that the recovering drug addict is the one holding all the pain pills". My sister-in-law knows my struggle with booze....and sometimes the only people who understand how fucked up it is.....are people who have been there. The rest of the family thinks we are fixed and recovered So let the drug addict hold the pills

AND my MIL asked her if she still had connections to buy pain pills off the street.....this is an 83 year old woman!

My sister-in-law and I had alot of laughs because "we get each other".

Novel over. If you read this far.....you have way too much free time on your hands

Although....I made it clear to one of my friends from the 'support group".....that as much as I love you guys.....my "on-line" group is the only group I feel comfortable with telling the whole ugly story to....yet, when I really needed you guys I did not reach out....and I will never ever do that again!