Bit of a break tomorrow apart from shredding paperwork.I'm off Monday and plan to list a few bits on e-bay.
Decluttering feels very therapeutic.
I'm really struggling with BS voice of 'go on, have a couple' ,I do feel slightly more anxious then before I lapsed in USA, I keep reminding myself how great I felt before,if I didn't have a problem I wouldn't even be thinking about it.
Please any advice/reminders re how to get back on track. I'm scared of having 'a few' drinks tonight with a friend tonight,and have that rubbish fear of missing out thing going on,want to be 'normal' around drink.Trying to focus on just today for now and hoping that will help.
I also smoked a cigarette yesterday - clinging to my e cig for now and allowing myself chocolate if I want it,as well as maxing fruit and veg.
Feel so fed up of this seesaw,I am doubting myself, how do I really 'know' I have a problem,am I making a bigger deal of my drinking than I need to and just over did it a bit?I know deep down this is dangerous thinking - but it feels very convincing.Keep thinking what would I advise someone else - really I'd be saying you were fine until you re introduced it,and now you're thinking of when you can next have a drink and then worrying you will over do it so not really enjoying it anyway!I think I maybe just need to ignore the thoughts rather than try to engage/wrestle with them.
thanks for listening - mixed day today - half positive - half grrrrrr!
Have a great Friday everyone.
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