All good here,sober and no desire to go back - old friend came round to do quote for decorating bedroom and hall,he is in AA and sober for 18 months now - so pleased for him,he looks great and is obviously so much happier.Keep seeing people who've quit successfully, which is great and I'm thinking maybe a sign.
I feel like I'm getting closer to acceptance that I can't drink,stopped over thinking it and accepting it just for addict brain chatter. I realise that i have a lot of pride and judge myself for thinking I am an alcoholic(though not anyone else) partly not trusting own judgement,partly my need to be perfect to be acceptable.Hopefully I can now focus the energy battling the 'can i can't i have a few' to live my life and to focus on never having that first drink.
MWO has been an enormous part of this and all of you here so thank you for being such good friends in cyber space.
Interested in reading more AA lit,not ready for a meeting yet but not ruling it out in the future. Progress.
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