Day off today,very grateful for a 3 day weekend,off to see old friends and stay in hotel,looking forward to chilling in hotel for few hours on my own!Hoping they have wifi,taking netbook and books,maybe journal.
This has been a stressy week,feels like staff member being off sick for few weeks has given me space to feel the bad stuff,rather than cope on auto pilot,not pleasant but better out than in.Plan to do mindfulness CD in a bit,and focus on breathing.
I did yoga last night when I didn't feel like it,and that helped me hugely to feel better,tired but actually focused on the moment.
I have my hynotherapy appt later too, I have also me up with an old friend,who has stopped drinking,and is having a few other parallel life experiences- so nice to speak to someone who 'gets it'.I never thought I would have that so I feel very lucky.
So through the bad stuff,there is good,supportive colleagues, people on the same wavelength as me,old friends who visited for the summer,my OH,having a job and a supportive boss and as always and massively important my health and my lovely cat.
I am reminding myself that yes I have a lot on my plate,but I'm not alone,and I don't need to deal with it all today.
I sound calmer than I feel but I can see a way out of what seemed like an endless whirlwind of negativity and that this way of feeling isn't forever and I can feel good,whilst at the same time feeling stressed/anxious.
Think I'm on week 11 now - really no temptation atm but I am very aware that can change,especially as I come out of a bad place, I'm also welding myself to the e cig - reported to be 95% less harmful than cigarettes.
Have a great day everyone - needed to blurt today.
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