Had a series of abusive messages from a staff member yesterday all left on voicemail(!),so she's dismissed - less than supportive approach from my senior manager which I am feeling very angry and aggrieved about.
Trying to just feel the emotions and let them fade.
Learnt I cannot trust this manager and that she is not someone I respect. These last two years have been ridiculous staff wise,I've been bullied upwards by three people I manage,I've had two non performers and someone being abusive to me and drunk at work. I've managed all three without employment tribunals and they were all high risk for that. Zero recognition just platitudes,telling me that I need to grow a thicker skin/what I need to do when I have done it and been doing it for the last 24 months.
Glad I'm sober,zero temptation to drink - drink is part of the backdrop to some of these personal stories,just angry - and in a way freer from other's opinions of me and my performance.
I know I've done a cracking job and if that isn't recognised I no longer care.
I guess that is the major lesson - all this stress - anxiety and angst - ultimately for senior people's views of me and my team whose values and skills are not really anything to be admired.
I'm doing a short day today,and exercising gently after work.
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