I've been dithering about whether I should hit gym in morning,go into town,try and see friends, clean etc etc.
I basically sat down and thought I feel low and like I need to take it easy,I went to spinning last night and bailed halfway through as I felt shaky,dizzy and a bit sick. Realised yesterday that I had eaten bread for every meal, had fruit smoothie and healthy snacks but that wasn't balanced.
So today I'm listening to myself and pottering about the house,doing a bit of cleaning and cooking from my ' deliciously ella' book.
I've made baked porridge with fruit and nut butter and cinnamon for breakfasts which will last me a few days,which I had warm with fruit and yogurt.I'm making sweet potato,quinoa and turmeric fritters for lunches with spinach and cashew nut cream and cooking a big chilli to last for a few days which I will freeze some of.
What I'm saying is I'm learning to listen to my feelings,recognising that I've been through a really tough time at work,and that I need to take things a bit slower - yoga,walking,and eat well. That it's ok.
I don't have to be 100 miles an hour,be vigorously exercising all the time,seeing friends everyday.
I feel like I need a bit of alone time - this is my third day on my own and it is what I need right now.Seeing friends tomorrow evening as OH's band are playing.
So today is slow pottering,bath,cooking,small amount of cleaning and kitchen tidying, yoga later and getting last year's winter clothes out of the loft this evening.Yesterday I requested a quote for new bathroom,booked GP appointment and also two eye tests.I've also done some washing and decluttered a little.
It's hard to work out if I'm isolating,avoiding intense exercise - I think honestly that I'm just learning how to trust listening to my feelings,not trying to numb them out and trying to look after myself and being a bit more gentle.I read somewhere that in early sobriety to take care of yourself as though you were pregnant - good food,sleep,movement and relaxing.
Have a good day everyone.
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