March Miracles~March 2018

[SKendall]

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Lav, YB's hand must be very painful. Do they do an injection for that that helps for a time? When I lived in Victoria, B.C. it was the capital of daffodil growing for retail. I used to take a double decker bus to see them better. Gypsies used to board the bus as they were the pickers. Never saw gypsies anywhere else, so that was an interesting ride.

Pauly, my apologies for mixing up your daughters. I wonder if you take a probiotic? Good for many health issues, not gut related. I'm glad to hear your opinions on alcohol related to your life.

Well tomorrow a,m, my facebook stock will be sold. I had about $15K invested. Even before this data eruption I was going to sell because I thought they had too much on too many people. I go on f/b once in a while, but have never given my profile info, except for the bare minimum. Zuckerberg dropped the ball.

How great was it that our young people marched? I subscribe to NYTimes and WaPo, so I was replying to the many posts today. It sometimes feels better when you can do that. Bolton? A war hawk who will mislead Trump into a war with NK. Sorry, that's an insult to hawks.

I read an article about Repug presidents always being elected for 2nd term if we were at war. Remember how Reagan
invaded Grenada(?) on some trumped up issues? C'mon Mueller.

Lav, I have gained a winter middle too. Will have to remedy that. I have a Chrone's flare up today. I'll make an appt. with gastro guy tomorrow.

Cyn. glad you got some time with DH.

DD sat at the dining table joyless and played with her phone.There isn't a chance I can reason with her.

After she left screaming that time, Peggy is very slow to go near her and yesterday with her 2 hour presence she wants to hump everything to relieve her stress. She has never done this before. Peggy was also acting out today. I shouted at her (which I don't do) and her ears and tail went down. I have been loving on her and the ears are back up but not the tail

I am trying not to allow her space in my head. I've felt for a while her issue is depression and that can create anger.

Star, glad you were able to resolve the conflicts.

[Snoopy56]

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Good morning...

Lav, Happy 9 year Anniversary! Wow, you are such a good example for all of us. I appreciate your daily posts and help year round. Having been with you on this journey, I have witnessed you go through so much, stay strong, and create the life you want. Yay!!!! Have a good day and do something special for yourself.

Pauly, good to hear that Michelle is back and you are able to counsel her on how to recreate herself, with love of course. It is so hard after a break up, I know she can do it and create something better than she had. Glad you are thinking things through when the thoughts start, me too. We are just at the point that we never have a good outcome from alcohol.

Cyn, our snow has almost all melted, up to 50 degrees today and we need some strong spring weather. I wish I could remember my dreams, but nothing, not at all. Yours were symbolic, not being able to stop, crashing, etc. Take care and have a good week.

Skendall, wishing you a great week, take care.

Last week of March, have a good one.

[treegirl]

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Morning!

LAV HAPPY AF ANNIVERSARY!!!!! :yay: you really are the Rock-Steady poster girl, and you have changed lives through your support and guidance. So glad you are in this world! Happy birthday to grandson - I know both boys were a major influence on you being AF. Congrats on your life.

SK, OMG that sounds like a quite the party you had when Viv came over. I'm sorry for Peggy's stress; dogs can always suds out a situation pretty accurately. It always makes me feel like a lout when I lose patience with my pup... he is so sensitive. Your are big hearted to see the bigger picture with DD. You have Crohns on top of everything? The low-FODMAPS protocol that I am on might be able to help you... takes a bit of getting used to, but moving beyond the inflammation is really a big help in life. Good luck!

Pauly, I just don't do the exercise or babaysitting part of your life - that would probably put me under! You work plenty hard and have a good balance, stick with it. My life right now is ridiculous, but it's not going to go on forever. It just a timing issue, and I took too much work on... some day I'll learn. Boundaries. Good news about the BF. I hope hubs job is going well.

Star, you are sounding strong and good, so happy for you. There's still feet of snow here, but in the sunny side of the yard I am seeing some grass. This will sound weird, but I am saying goodbye to the snow -- I love the way the bare tree shadows look on an uninterrupted expanse of snow, and I love that it covers up all the detritus on my land - my to-do list! I am hoping to carve out some funds to hire people to do some of the land work. All this slaving away should have some benefit!

wishing all a great Monday -- here's to Lav who show us that this affirmation is powerfully true:

"I am building a new and wonderful life for myself"

[paulywogg]

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Morning friends and Congratulations Lav!!! Definitely appreciate you hanging around and being such a huge help to so many people,here's to 9 more years and beyond! SK,what a bummer about your daughter,she does seem to teeter totter back and forth on how she treats you,very sad is she in denial about maybe having depression? Im sure you two have talked about it but maybe it's worth another talk,life's too darn short.Cyn,you seem to balance out your extremely busy life so that's a great thing,only if a person takes on too much and feels overwhelmed I think is when it's a problem,Star,yep drinkin always ends up bad,I absolutely can't do it in small amounts like my brain tries to tell me and I don't want to go back to who I was 6-7 years ago,drunk ALL day EVERY day,I think back and I can't believe it was me,so even though I might look like a loser here sometimes I absolutely have made some progress,,,at a snails pace but still and I'm ready to just leave it all behind me for good,ok hers wishing for a wonderful week for us all!

[SKendall]

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Pauly, you are no longer that person. You are a very productive member of your family and your business, and never a loser. Go girl.

Cyn, I am a fan of winter landscaping too, especially those bushes with twigs that turn red. Great affirmation for Lav.

Lav, you are our storm trooper who is here and on other important threads 2 x a day. We gain so much from your strength and appreciate your daily support Thank you.:thanks:

Star, I'm glad you are in such a healing place and you sound great.

Peggy is much better today, she had 4 episodes of dia...., but she is relaxed and happy because I took her to "The shops at Watters Creek". There is a man made creek that runs thru it and it's full of ducks. There is a tree house for kids and on the way up you can play drums, xylophone, telescope or hide in the hole in the wall. I must be out of practice on parallel parking, I just don't see it anymore, but there and I used to get it perfect first time but it took me 3 tries!

I am going to have spinach salad for lunch and dinner and try to make up for the chocolate croissant I had. It's always interesting to go thru Starbucks drive thru. Remember the singing guy? This morning my guy talked to Peggy hanging out of the window as if she were the owner and driver of the car. Everywhere was solid yellow pansies waving their happy heads. I also have crocus that I planted. It's a great day.

My last dog who looks like Peggy was hysterical. Someone had bought me a large teddy bear and when people visited she would drag it out by the ear and hump it behind the couch. When exhausted she would ask for a cigarette.:congratulatory:

This was when we had built our home in WA and I held a Christmas Party for all the new people we had met. We had an enormous ChristmasTree, it was WA state after all and we were surrounded by Doug fir. Anyway, people had their drinks and were enjoying the hors d'oevres when the power went out, the tree fell down and I heard an older man say, "dog, get off my leg".

Have a great afternoon and evening.

[SKendall]

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Cyn, thanks for the tip on FOD---. I've been meaning to go their site and keep forgetting.

Pauly, she was prescribes Zoloft some years ago, but it was affecting her sex life so she stopped and had the most horrible withdrawal even with the dr's advice. She vowed to never take another a-d. I suggested Lexapro which doesn't have that side effect, but she blew me off. For her sake I wish she try it and feel better. Depression is awful.

[Lavande]

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Good evening friends,

Thank you everyone for the kind words, it makes me feel special
A few times over the years I've thought about wandering away from MWO & then I come to my senses - why would I do that? I have made so many wonderful things here, have learned so many useful things too. It's a blessing really that we can all connect in just a few minutes each & every day!

SK, you cracked me up with your Christmas/dog story, ha ha!! That was truly unique!
I wonder why we never picked up any FB stock, not sure but we do have stock in Sirius & it's doing quite well YB is the one who goes after that stuff, it never really enters my consciousness much. YB has had quite a few joint injections which gives temporary relief. I am trying to steer him away from the steroids, they have side effects with long term use. He is actually getting decent relief right now taking 1 ibuprofen tablet in the morning & 1 at night. That was tricky testing him on that because he has an aspirin allergy but he did OK.
I'm sorry your daughter won't consider another antidepressant. I took Lexapro myself for two years & it left me feeling numb & had wild dreams. I weaned off carefully so I had no problem. I found & still take a St John's product called Amoryn & it keeps me steady, no mood swings & no side effects. I've been taking it for close to 10 years.
AMORYN Mood Booster | Natural Supplement to Improve Mood and Promote Emotional Health | St. John's Wort 3% Hyperforin
Maybe she could give Amoryn a try?

Cyn, I don't mind being a poster girl if it helps anyone, ha ha!!! I am just so damn grateful that I found this website when I did. I needed guidance, that's for sure & that is exactly what I found here We traveled a little north into Lancaster county today to an Amish style 'Lowes' store to buy lumber needed for the chicken yard expansion project. I noticed they had quite a bit more snow remaining on the ground, funny because it was only a 40 minute dive. I am ready to say goodbye to snow, ha ha!

Pauly, all you have to do is keep moving forward. You know why & you know it is what you need to do
None of us want to go back to our former selves, no way! Each AF day we have is a blessing & a gift to ourselves!

Star, thank you & I am happy that you have found your way as well. We all have a good bit of time invested in this 'quit drinking' project so there's no sense in doing anything but moving forward. What can possibly better than investing in ourselves? We never know when life is going to throw a road block up in front of us but we can survive the lumps without AL - we all can!

Wishing everyone a nice night!
Lav

[SKendall]

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Just a quick goodnight. Was uncomfortable with the Crohn;s this afternoon, I think it's time for a dose of flagyl (sp).

I found $20 in my newly washed jeans! I wore Peggy out today, so she's sleeping already. Your pic of Matilda checking out the "puppies' was really adorable.

See you on the flip side.

[Snoopy56]

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Good morning...

Lav, sounds like you and your husband are working together on projects and getting along pretty well, hope this is true, you deserve to have a contented relationship. The snow was not all melted yesterday, but should be today, rain predicted for the next three days, it is definitely spring weather, temps in the 50s, thank goodness, I am tired of the cold.

Pauly, you have make progress, we all have, just need to make that final decision to stay AF today and always, no more slips or relapses, they take their toll, don't they? My new thoughts have been that I am free to not drink, not feel like crap, not have to start over and that is really freedom, for me.

Cyn, hope spring comes to your area soon, too, we all need warmer weather and a little break from the snow. I have been trying to eat healthy, I have been going out often for lunch and dinner, making better choices like salads and veggies always pays off.

Skendall, nice that your doggies was tired out and went to bed early, she sounds like a cutie pie.

Have a great AF Tuesday.

[paulywogg]

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Morning friends,SK,there's no better feeling than finding money in a pair of jeans you haven't worn in a bit! Happened to me last week,only$11 but still Star,yep that why I changed my signature,I know I don't wanna be a drinker so why do it if I just hafts stop again anyways? Better to just maintain a quit and just get thru the rough days than to go through the withdraw again,plus money blown,embarrassment,shame,that feeling of letting myself down,hubs' sad look on his face no way! Lav,glad you enjoyed your day I wish I could take the amoryn but I dunno if its the B vitamins or what but I feel like I'm on speed when I try it,I get uncomfortable with that feeling,I bought some drops called "Happy Juice" but it almost has a sedating effect I don't care for either,it has st.johns and some other stuff too,Zoloft was a wreck for me back in the day,I started,gambling,cutting myself,being aggressive,just plain weird behavior plus the weight gain so I'm very hesitant with those things,I have a boatload of Lexapro that I keep refilling but not taking,Cyn,hope all is well with you wishes for a great AF Tuesday for us all!

[treegirl]

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Morning all -

Pauly, you are on amazing girl... wow, when I her what you have been through. No one here thinks that you are a loser!!! We all know that you are an amazing warrior, and you are going to keep it all going forward. You are an important part of this community --Go Girl!

SK, you should be a comedy writer - I really had a good laugh this morning reading your post. Isn't it fun when people are creative in their jobs? (the Starbucks guy) I love your nature descriptions... the pansies... But I really gave myself a good laugh (sorry to say this) when I read your second post about the a-d meds, and thought you were still talking about Peggy!! (Sorry for DD... that's tough.) hope you feel better today.

Lav, an expanded chicken coop, wow! So the girls are getting upgraded housing, eh? I hope spring is springing around you -- I am starting to see a little lawn...

Star, you sound like you are on track and doing great - hopefully the warmth and spring coming will be a good support for you as well.

Well, last night I stayed up until 1:30 AM checking for corrections in the web stuff that is going live today.
(It is ticketing, so it has to be 100% right.) My teammate worked on the internet on a flight all the way across the country.., with google docs, we were able to "converse" the whole way. Wow, I felt like we were saving Apollo 13 together (well OK, it was the middle of the night). Hopefully the intense pressure and hours will drop down now... I can't keep up this pace!

Here's a good one for all of us:

"I love and approve of myself". Say it loud and proud!

[paulywogg]

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Oh Cyn 1:30 in the morning sounds like sheer torture! Just think when we were kids it was a treat to stay up late,now on the other hand ugh

[Lavande]

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Good evening friends,

Daughter & SIL left Lily here with me for a few days so I am happy
She's sitting here playing Mickey Mouse Clubhouse on my old ipad, ha ha!
Had a few drops of rain today but it wasn't bad, just chilly still. I am hoping it warms up enough to move my chicks outside tomorrow - keeping my fingers crossed.

Star, glad you are seeing more signs of spring, please send some here.
Yep, YB & I have come to a point of peace & that's all I want, just peace. I am done with expectations of how things should be & refuse to be disappointed anymore. Protecting my boundaries is a must, you understand that too. I have worked long & hard on myself & like the place I am in right now & the rest just doesn't really matter.

Pauly, my third shipment of Relizen is on the way. By the end of the third month I will re-evaluate & decide whether or not to continue. All in all I would say that I am feeling better & certainly sleeping better (although not perfectly). Night time hot flashes are rare now provided I stay away from certain foods, especially sugar & white flour. Day time hot flashes are probably 5 or 6/day but not too severe. So, we shall see.
You will just have to play it by ear & see if you can make dietary changes to effect the changes you want. I think the more we change our thinking the better we feel. Cyn's affirmations at a perfect start

Cyn, goodness woman you are working double shifts!!! Go easy on yourself & take time to breathe & take in those awesome affirmations.
Last year we had a new roof put on the chicken house, this year they get an expanded fenced in yard, I just can't let them free range anymore after losing three to the fox population. That made me sad.

SK, hope you had a good day & are enjoying a real spring

Have a nice night everyone!

Lav

[paulywogg]

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Morning friends,Lav,good idea not to let the chickens roam,don't want to lose more,the Relizen seems to be ok for me,I haven't had any super sweaty nights since I started it and sleep has been better although like you say not perfect,it certainly can't hurt for me to just keep taking it Star,Cyn and SK hope we all have a fabulous AF Wednesday!

[SKendall]

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G'day,

It thunderstormed all night. It stopped around 5:30 and I hadn't been to sleep yet so took Peggy out and read the news until 7:30, then I must have nodded off for an hour. I feel impatient, but will try to catch a nap.

Will see you later.