sunday 15 july

[bear73]

well moderating and stopping smoking didn't go very well at all!
I drank a bottle approx of wine on fri eve and smoked tonnes, then had 3 pints in day yesterday and 2 glasses of wine in evening - running 5k today!Was meant to be an AF day.
Well I am committing to 7 days AF now and also smoke free, I need that discipline then can rethink if I carry on AF or try to moderate.

worked out if I drink wine on an empty stomach that's a bad sign, also if I do that I smoke more often too - I also forgot my nicotine gum too on Friday.
back on track with it I think,need to focus - plus I have very little money now so no booze will really help me out!

[Guest]

sunday 15 july

Hi bear and all to come.

Good on you trying to mod and quit ciggies at same time..............personally, I couldn`t do mods. if I didn`t smoke........am weakling!!

Anyway guys, my daughter had a better night last night, in that she managed to get a sleep, but am taking her back to our G.P. this week to get her a referral to an eye specialist as she is still seeing lights etc. Am trying not to worry too much since her overall health was checked at hospital. My main concern is that N.H.S. is so slow here and there`s no way I`m willing to wait wks. to have her eyes examined, so if doc. says we`ll have to wait a few wks., I will opt for private consultation.

Haven`t had a drink since my slip earlier in wk..........amazing, considering how stressed out I am.

Anyway, hope you`re all doing well moderating.

Have a great Sunday!!

Much love,

Starlight Impress

[ducky]

sunday 15 july

Hey Bear,

Good luck with the 5k.

Let's get back on track here. I haven't been taking the kudzu faithfully and haven't been moderating too well either. I am sick of it. Sounds like you are too. I feel so much better when I am af or mods.

By the way, the drinking on an empty stomach is what makes me overdo it too. I need to go back to wine with/after dinner. That I can generally control.

Hope today is a great day for all the modsters!

[betty boop]

sunday 15 july

Hi Bear, good luck for the run, the weather in notts is lousy so I hope yours is better ....

Star, Glad your daughter is a bit better, Give her a hug for me ........

Ducky, I understand completely, Why is it that although we know that we feel so much better AF, we still insist on drinking????

I still tell myself that I am only drinking about 10% of what I was drinking last year so I'm still winning ....

Love & Hugs, to everyone

BB xx

[fsophiah]

sunday 15 july

Star, my thoughts continue to go with you and your daughter. It's interesting about the N.H.S. As you probably know, there is a new Michael Moore movie called "Sicko." I haven't seen it yet, and it's one of those movies like "Inconvenient Truth" that I can't make myself see because I know I'm doing all I can about the problem, and it's just so huge that it will only depress me. Anyway, what I'm hearing is that Moore raves about the N.H.S. in the UK and in Canada, and that's not what I see on these boards at all. I see people who can't get the right medication or end up with stigmatizing label on their public health files that will follow them everywhere if they see a physician for an alcohol-related problem. I'm curious what people think about that.

On the home front, I am doing great with naltrexone. Yesterday, my son's band was playing downtown, and we went to see them in the scorching heat. I got one beer and drank it though his set, which was an hour and a half long. Then, we went to a restaurant, and I had one glass of wine with dinner. We came home and hubs and I got in the pool, swam around a little bit, and then went to bed and read. Reading at night! What a concept! You just can't read drunk, can you?

I also made an amazing discovery. Besides loving the wine, I really get into spider solitaire on the computer. If I play spider during the craving, twilight hours, I forget that I am wanting wine. It's not so good for social interaction, though.

[sammys]

sunday 15 july

Good Morning everyone, I really feel connected with everyone this morning reading all posts here. I have found that for me the drinking has slowed down quite a bit, but I still feel I overdue it and now its not just by the amount I drink its how I feel health wise. I am so glad I have a choice with how I want to moderate, I also am so glad to have recognized that this is a process and I have the choice of how to handle my drinking. I am really learning alot here from everyone.

Hope everyone here today is happy and safe!!!
Sammys

[Saint Jude]

sunday 15 july

Hi Everybody, just getting up & about after sleeping in a bit... we've been crazy/busy @ work! The summer season is just insane here... every year I keep saying I'm too old for this & it'll be my last year doing it...! I swear one of these nights I'll just drop dead in the middle of my shift from lack of food & water & nobody will notice,.. they'll just be wanting a re-fill or wondering where their food is!:H

Sophia- I'm so glad to hear the naltrexone is working so well for you. My Topa script is almost out, I might ask my Doc about trying that on me instead...

Starlight- I hope you get things straightened out with your daughter soon. That's so frustrating, not knowing the cause of something like that.. not to mention scarey.

Bear- Good luck with your run! Get back on that horse & show us your stuff! That reminds me... I think I'll wear my pedometer tonight!

BB- Hope your weather gets better. Ours is kinda pissy right now too...

I'm really gonna try hard to be positive @ work tonite... My attitude has been really bad lately there. People can be so rude when it's insanely busy, it's hard not to take it personal...I just need to remember that just because one or two of are A-h*les... most of are just nice folks wanting to eat!(even if I don't get to!)Not that I'm ever hungry after looking at all that stuff for hours! Just give me a beer already!

Hope everybody has a great Sunday!
Hugs,
Judie