I woke up again and went to bed at 11.30 - slept really well, I was awake at 7.45!
Thanks for all your support yesterday - for now my focus for me is no smoking, reducing booze and losing weight.The decorating, new clothes, new job, creative hobby can wait for a bit.
I am doing a ten k in 6 weeks so starting a training plan now is doable, just 3 times a week nothing crazy. I enjoy exercise and being more athletic/active is one of my long term goals. It also helps me not smoke/stop binge drinking and improves my mood.
I like the idea of planning long term goals Chrysa but I think I need to focus on now for now - I know what I am like and will try to do everything at once! For now I need to do one day at a time and not focus on beyond that.And reward myself!
I really need to change my thinking, one lapse or mistake isn't the end of the world, it's this thinking that leads me to giving up/feeling I'm a failure. Doesn't give me a chance to look at the reasons for my lapses, often i thin kmy negative self talk acauses it and then perpetuates it.
Thanks again for support, 3 drinks for me tonight - vodka, lime and soda.
I am starting a diary and off to the gym a bit later, then a party, then I'm seeing a band.
As for tomorrow just the gym and that's it.
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