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[emily]

just like to say I done a 30 AF in September and started moderating October. I was away on a weekend climbing a mountain for charity and had my first glass of wine with dinner at the party afterwards. I really was scared to drink it incase I lapsed.

I really found I needed the supps during september and they really helped but my motivation was also high too. I received the cds around 3 wks ago and I have listened to them as much as possible. I am so pleased that I am able to have just one or two glasses of wine and never ever thought that would be possible (always finished a bottle if one was open and usually that wasn't enough) but I am finding that I am a bit panicked that I will fall back into old habits and although I should be very very proud of myself (and I am) when will I be 'normal' and just treat wine like 'butter' as it says in the download.

I know it's early days yet and I've just started moderating, I had a glass of wine last night (tuesday) and said to myself that I didn't have to have one if I didn't want to and I decided to have one and sipped it and enjoyed it.

BUT I found myself wondering if because I had noticed the bottle in the fridge (I have only been buying the small one glass bottles as I am scared to open a big bottle just in case) did this trigger a craving OR did I notice the bottle in the fridge and just thought, yeah, that would be nice, a glass of wine to wind down and watch this good telly programme with. Does anyone know what I mean.

[Determinator]

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hi Emily congrads on your progress and yes I believe I know that feeling. the mind is a tricky lil' rascal indeed. I've been very carefully modding for a couple weeks and happy to say I've also not jumped off the deep end...but know that it's always a day away if I let my guard down. I choose not to keep open bottles around when I need to stay strong..just to handy to rationalize that next drink.
We had guests over Monday and I had 2 1/2 drinks over a very long dinner/evening...it was great! so glad they were not in a big drinking mode. not that I would have gone bonkers and over drank...more that I just like being with moderate people now and not drunks.
Keep up the good work Emily...to yourself be true

[Waves 2]

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Hi Emily,

I found moderation possible after a 30 day stint. I, like you, stuck to the small bottles.

However, at a huge family meal out, not being able to access water easily I drank lots of wine and after that it became harder to moderate again.

I suppose my message is: if you know you are going to be tempted to over-drink it may be safer to abstain for that occasion. Or make sure you have plenty of water near you.

Well done on the 30 days and your progress in mods so far.:goodjob:

[emily]

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yes I think you've hit the nail on the head waves, if the moderation goes out of the window just one time I think I would feel I'd have to start from scratch again and that's very very scary. But as determinator says trick is not to let my guard down and stay strong.
emily

[Pebbles]

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Hi Emily, well done, both on mods and the mountain climbing (which one was it? I love a mountain me).

I agree, it's a total balance, if you can actually get on with your life AND not think about where the next drink is coming from, you are doing so well. Just noticing that there is a bottle of wine in the fridge is like noticing that there is enough milk in the fridge...you don't have to finish them both!

now, let me take my own advice !

xxx

[emily]

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hello pebbles

it was Ben Nevis. I can now officially call it 'The Ben' never seen a damn thing though, mist.

I know I am doing well, and from where I was that day on 2 september to where I am now are like two different planets. I have also been going through a hell of a personal time just now and have coped with just Kalms and not wine as I usually would have. For me personally I know it has been the hypno cds but I know these are not for everyone, just by what I've read in other posts, although I would say please give them a chance.

thanks for all you help guys, the 2 september 2007 was the day my life turned around, I'll rephrase that, the 2 september 2007 was the day I turned my life around but I only done it because I was looking up the word 'lentils' on google and somehow stumbled upon this site. I was sitting there (sunday morning) with another 2 going on 3 bottles of wine under my belt from the previous night, the usual feelings of self loathing and panic because I knew it was getting out of control.

I'm not religious at all but looking back it somehow feels as if some higher power (familiar with google!!) was at work and looking out for me that day...