Friday October 19th

[Beaches]

Good morning Modsters!

Last night was Open House for the kiddies. Their were so many cool little environmental things that the children made like flower gardens made out of egg cartens, drums out of coffee cans, race cars that had the wheels made out of pill bottle tops etc. My kids were pooped. It was pretty hectic.
My son who has autism was out of sorts b/c he couldn't understand why we went to school at night and the rooms were all different. So we had to depart a little early and sit in the van. That left my husband and mother in the school with my daughter and younger son. My mother had to go outside and sit because her back was killing her and then I see my husband coming out carrying my son and my daugther is crying. Apparently he had lost my son. He couldn't find him anywhere in the school (because he wasn't) he had gotten out of the school and he found him with some man that was holding his hand outside the school. He was quite rattled to say the least.
Ahh it's always an adventure, I tell ya!

Hope you all have a great day. I am looking forward to the weekend.

[ducky]

Friday October 19th

The projects sound cool Beaches. Sorry about your son getting upset about the changes. My Aspey stepson was very resistant to change when he was younger. If he was at a party and the kids wouldn't play exactly what/how he wanted he would get very upset and want to leave. He had the need to control everything. He is still an interesting kid a 20...Was the son who got lost a second son?

Mods last night and thought of you Mary. There was one little glass of wine from a bottle from the other night that I could have "snuck." I shared a bottle with dh and let the leftover glass sit. I'll freeze it today. Do you guys know you can freeze leftover wine to use in recipes? Sometimes it's better to do that than finish the bottle.

Hope everyone has a great day!

[Lorelei]

Friday October 19th

Morning All!

After my hectic day yesterday I crashed early and had a good nights sleep. Feeling a bit of anxiety today as I have a dentists appointment. I had some trouble when I had my wisdom teeth taken out years ago and ever since I have really not liked the dentist. I know I'm gonna get hollered at for smoking but hey one vice at a time right!

This evening some friends are getting together and having a little dinner party. I'm not sure whether Jeff will be there or not. So I guess I'm anxious about that too. He took a great risk in letting me go to deal with my problems and I'm not sure we're ready to face each other yet. My biggest worry is the temptation to get back together before my work is done. I have been provided with an excellent opportunity to get myself together....one that I know I will never get again. If I break his heart again it will be for the last time. So I guess the important thing is to get down to business and figure out how to get past my tendency to become emotionally distant when he needs me. After all, he's not the one who screwed me over.....plenty of other people did that. I used to always get upset when people would take things out on me that I hadn't done to them....lo and behold I am now doing the same thing! How ironic....

Beaches, sounds like quite an exciting evening. I'm glad that you were able to locate your little guy and he was safe and sound. Was the man he was found with another parent or some random stranger? I can just imagine your panic!!

-lorelei

[ducky]

Friday October 19th

Lorelei, good luck at the dentist. I also hate going -- especially after getting my wisdom teeth out in August and braces this month -- but it is usually not as bad as we imagine! Have fun at the party tonight. I can understand your need to get things together before getting back together; seems like a smart plan.

We are having friends for a smoke (chicken) tomorrow and going to visit in laws (ugh) on Sunday.

What is everyone else up to?

[Lorelei]

Friday October 19th

Ducky I can be pretty smart when my head is clouded from too much wine. I do tend to be better in theory than in practice. I have a hard time manifesting my ideas into action, I get all anxious and stuff. Of course when I get anxious I have tended to turn to alcohol to calm me down....I think we all know how well that works. Now I'm making myself ride it out and the past couple of times I've done that I've had some insights. So overall I'm encouraged by my progress, and hopeful that eventually this anxiety will go away. I'm still learning to accept me for me, faults and all.

-lorelei

[Determinator]

Friday October 19th

Aloha Friday Modsteroonies!

even though I'm on mods I refused to drink last night since I was in a crappy mood and was tempted to use that as an excuse to pop something open...hopped on chat and soon it was but a distant memory. 121 days drunk free. don't want to blow it now...or ever if possible.
be well everyone

[amethyst]

Friday October 19th

Morning mods!! I am on day 6 of 25mg topa, and cannot beleive how much of a difference I feel. This is the 2nd time around for me, and I plan to stay at 25mg. I feel much more tired, and fuzzy worded, but in control. I had 2 glasses of a brand new bottle last night, and did not want more. I was satisfied. I could not generate interest to pour and drink a
3rd glass, even though it was my typical Thursday night trigger-no work on Friday, and my 2 tv shows were on-Ugly Betty and Greys Anatomy. My hubby wasn't around-the usual perfect storm for my Thursday tippling night. SO I am hopeful that this, coupled with renewed effort on my part and the support and encouragement from y'all will be the extra edge I have been missing. I kept thinking last night-this is what a normal, non addictive brain must feel when they drink. WOW!!! No wonder they don't keep going! I mean I have modded reasonably well for much of the time while here, but there have been a few notable exceptions. And it was all done by force of will. This was totally different. I REALLY just didn't want any more. Period. Don't know that I am explaining well, but I feel happy:H

Beaches:wow: Were you terrified? Did you know the man your son was with? How scary!!!! The whole evening sounded very interesting-hope y'all had some fun in there!

Ducky-good luck with the dentist. The party(barbeque?) with your neighbors this weekend sounds like fun, but the inlaws later? Good luck!

Lorelei, good luck with the party for you too. I'm sure you and Jeff can figure this out. I'll be thinking of you, and hope all goes for the best.

sending hugs to all:h

[amethyst]

Friday October 19th

Ugh, I am blaming the topa it was Lorelei, not Ducky going to the dentist! Sorry! And Hey Det, must have been posting at the same time. Good on you for modding so well!:thumbs:

[Saint Jude]

Friday October 19th

Hey there Mondsters!

Beaches- Sounds like quite the evening! Glad ya found the little guy safe & sound. How scarey.

Amethyst- Great job on the mod'in. Feels good to be "in control" doesn't it? It always makes me want to call all the counselors & therapists.. everyone in AA... tell em all about it! ... (how "sick" is that?)

Det- Good for you on recognizing that mood..& all that could go with it... I know there's times when I shouldn't even go there... certain moods are danger zones...for even one beer.

Lorelei- Enjoy the dinner party. I'll bet it'll be fun. Much more than the dentist! LOL

Ducky- that's a great idea to freeze leftover wine. I never would have thought of that. Hubby & I always joke about who drank the "leftover" beer...

After all that work I had done on my truck... & the 6 weeks it took the guy to do it.. I just found out what that horrible shrieking sound is from...(also the reason I haven't been driving it much), after paying about $500 bucks for the work... It does run great!
Problem is, during the work, a tensioner was broken for the genorator /fan belt pully. So I ordered one yesterday...another $100 bucks! Hopefully Hubby can put it in for me . He thinks it won't be a big deal. I don't want to take it back to the mechanic who did the work before(the one who broke it for me...!)Because I don't want to be w/out my truck for anohter 6 weeks...& I don't want him to break anything else! He's not a certified mechanic..he's a friend of Hubby's, who does it as a side job..
Live & learn. It does run good though. Hopefully I won't find more problems further down the line...He did have it pretty much torn apart...


On a lighter note. I got the cutest little baby halloween costume for our newborn niece yesterday. It's a Wonder Bread Bag Baby Suit! All you see is the arms & face of the baby! It's a fleece blanket, that looks like a Wonder Bread bag! It's sooo Cute!

Hope everybody has a great day!
Big hugs,
Judie

[MKR]

Friday October 19th

The essential difference between you and I, apart from your unique saunter and savoir-faire, is that I know, to the core of my being, that the only difference between "have" and "have-not," is imagination.

So, how are you enjoying your retirement fund.??

Tallyho,
The Universe
_____________________

Happy Friday all!

Beaches, Loved some of the things the kids came up with. Very cool that the school is starting them on thinking environmentally safe. Think the guy, stranger or friend? could be a bit scary, losing him is extremely scary. Sorry that part happened. (Love your avatar!) Oh, how did your MRI turn out?

Ducky, you did very well last night! GREAT JOB!! Hope you have an excellent weekend with the parties!

Lorelei, the anxiety does go away. Very rarely do I have that kind of anxiety anymore. I know that feeling of impending doom out of no where for no apparent reason. I do believe the alcohol does that to us. Keep on dear girl. May I say now things are lovely between my husband and me. We were separated for over a year though, issues mostly of him not taking depression medication and being angry all the time. He did go into therapy on his own and then for about 6 months we went to therapy together to see if I wanted this to work. It was work but well worth it. The basic personality did not change but his perception of the world and the anger seemed to change and seep away. So good luck with whatever you are doing but take time for you too!

Determinator- your avatar is scary!! Great job you are doing on mods!!

Amethyst, you sound great and really have a handle on this, when you can sit alone, with your favorite tv show no hubby around and decide no - you are more than halfway there!!! WAHOOOOOOOO!!

Judie, so very sorry to hear about the truck. We have to take my car back, where they rebuilt the front from that accident back in March, it rattles like crazy. The guys says not a whole month again, but I hear your pain on no vehicle for that kind of time! Your wonder bread bag niece will look so cool but I read your own little halloween outfit description - you wild girl you!! Lots of fun!

FMF, so glad you are prioritizing how this mods program looks to you! Think you are doing really well! You have the right . . ask away!

Cowgirl, hang in there dear girl. Hope you feel better today!

Lushy, I love you too, miss it when you do not post!

Waves, last but not least, I am happy to see you here, hope you are getting a little more time off though it doesn't look like it.

Thanks so much for the great healthy wishes, won't find out until next week.

Well so far for October, I have had one drink . . .but I have dinner with girlfriends tonight (one drink), a jewelry trunk show for a client tomorrow night (1/2 to 1 glass of wine) Then Sunday we are suppose to go to Fourth of July Canyon, gorgeous Maple stands, to take in the fall colors. My husband said, how about we DON"T invite the friends we talked about and we pack a cushy blanket a nice picnic lunch plus a great bottle of wine? He is at one to two beers in a week from 6-10 in a day so what the heck, I think we could do that nicely. Probably only have one glass as I can not imagine hiking with this stupid brace and not being capable of standing up straight. Seems he is trying to make this super romantic and since there are only one or two romantic bones in his whole body, I think I better take him up on this while the getting is good!

Have a lovely weekend all of you!

Hugs and Love,
Mary

[sammys]

Friday October 19th

Hi everyone, Judy there is nothing like having your wheels out of commision, I hate not having a car even for one day. Beaches, wow what a nite sounds like you have the patience of a Saint. Garlic you are doing so good, I also got my consultant report back very, very interesting and well worth the $$$$. Amythest you are explaining things really well and you sound good, ducky you sound pretty good to. Lorelie how lucky you are to have time to find out what really you want for yourself. I know you are on pins and needles about doing the right thing I feel for you.

Everyone else coming here today hope you all feel good,
Love ya
Sammys

[sammys]

Friday October 19th

MKR we posted at same time, hi honey glad to see you!!

Sammys

[MKR]

Friday October 19th

Sammys how is married life treating you?? I hope great! xo, Mary

[Saint Jude]

Friday October 19th

Hi MKR! I hope you get some good results back soon! (re: tsts)

:h Enjoy that romantic dinner!

Sammys, Are ya still married? :l Great to see you!

[lushy]

Friday October 19th

Hi everyone! Nice turnout today.

Beaches, was this man a stranger that was with your son? Umm, can I please come bitch slap your husband for not keeping an eye on both kids. What a nightmare, and yes I will nominate you for sainthood.

MKR - That is so nice hubby wants to have a romantic picnic. I hope it is a great time.

Jude, how on earth can it take six weeks to fix your truck? Another bitch slap needed in Oregon I guess. Hope hubby can fix the problem.

Amethyst, glad to hear the topa is working for you. I got up to 75 mg and it made me an absolute idiot. I may try 25 mg again and stick with it.

Lorelei, hope the party is fun tonight. Do your best to be really good at mods. You will thank yourself in the morning.

Ducky, don't know why I never thought of freezing wine either. Great idea for me because when I want to be AF I simply cannot have wine in the house. So if there is a little bit in a bottle I will drink it and then want to go buy more. If I freeze that last little bit it would not be an option.

To everyone else and whoeever I missed have a wonderful weekend. I am going rollerskating tomorrow with friends and our kids. Last year I broke my wrist skating so here is hoping I do not do that again! Happy Friday!!!