Greetings,
I don't think that many people on this site remember me. I was an active member for a year and during that year I got my drinking under control. I owe great thanks to this community.
A few months ago I sent out SOS letters to several people on this board. I was profoundly depressed and needed someone to throw me a lifeline. Almost everyone I wrote to caringly responded and I neglected to acknowledge their letters. I am very sorry about my confusing and hurtful behavior. I literally did not have enough strength to write back.
Many things brought on the treatment resistant depression. My husband was not treating me well. My daughter began to demonstrate an incurable a neurological problem that could be related to lead exposure in her infancy. Her diagnostic work (ongoing) has cost many thousands of dollars and it will cost thousands more. My father almost died. The bottom fell out of my life financially due to the need to refinance our old apartment to pay off about 400K in past medical expenses. Our medical expenses are leveling off (slightly) but still require most of our income. A young man of great promise whose family I have known for almost 20 years was fatally shot for no known reason. I'm exhausted because I haven't been able to afford a vacation in years. My job benefits do not include sick pay or time off for vacation. Given my concern that this litany will weary anyone who reads it, these problems represent just the tip of the iceberg . . .
I began drinking between two and five glasses of wine most days. Mostly I drank because no sleeping pill works for me and I needed to sleep.
I would like to come back, if it is ok with others on this board.
My initial goals are to cut back on my drinking (I've already had one glass of wine today) and to lose the eight pounds I've gained that are too much for the damaged nerves in my feet to carry without pain.
If others would prefer that I not come back, please PM me or tell me here, and I will understand. Again, I am deeply sorry that I hurt those that I reached out to by not responding. It was as though the muscles in my forearms that I use to type lost their reserve as my spirit and sense of hope declined.
Best regards, Eustacia
I don't think that many people on this site remember me. I was an active member for a year and during that year I got my drinking under control. I owe great thanks to this community.
A few months ago I sent out SOS letters to several people on this board. I was profoundly depressed and needed someone to throw me a lifeline. Almost everyone I wrote to caringly responded and I neglected to acknowledge their letters. I am very sorry about my confusing and hurtful behavior. I literally did not have enough strength to write back.
Many things brought on the treatment resistant depression. My husband was not treating me well. My daughter began to demonstrate an incurable a neurological problem that could be related to lead exposure in her infancy. Her diagnostic work (ongoing) has cost many thousands of dollars and it will cost thousands more. My father almost died. The bottom fell out of my life financially due to the need to refinance our old apartment to pay off about 400K in past medical expenses. Our medical expenses are leveling off (slightly) but still require most of our income. A young man of great promise whose family I have known for almost 20 years was fatally shot for no known reason. I'm exhausted because I haven't been able to afford a vacation in years. My job benefits do not include sick pay or time off for vacation. Given my concern that this litany will weary anyone who reads it, these problems represent just the tip of the iceberg . . .
I began drinking between two and five glasses of wine most days. Mostly I drank because no sleeping pill works for me and I needed to sleep.
I would like to come back, if it is ok with others on this board.
My initial goals are to cut back on my drinking (I've already had one glass of wine today) and to lose the eight pounds I've gained that are too much for the damaged nerves in my feet to carry without pain.
If others would prefer that I not come back, please PM me or tell me here, and I will understand. Again, I am deeply sorry that I hurt those that I reached out to by not responding. It was as though the muscles in my forearms that I use to type lost their reserve as my spirit and sense of hope declined.
Best regards, Eustacia
c: :heart:
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