Thursday 15th November

[betty boop]

Good morning all, hope that everyone is OK today ....

Ripple did you mean that you posted that you were drinking when in actual fact you werent?????

Well i'm really good today, just got off the phone with my mum who is sooo looking forward to Florida, its only two days away!!!!! Yay ......

I'm treating myself to a spray tan and nail extensions today so I'm feeling good ........

Love & Hugs to everyone ..........

[Beaches]

Thursday 15th November

Good morning Betty and all who come!

Trying to get laundry done and packing done for our trip as well. It will be nice be on the beach for awhile. Might be a bit chilly but that's ok.

Hope you all have a wonderful day!

[ducky]

Thursday 15th November

Hi BB and Beaches,

You two sound so excited about your trips. I hope they are lots of fun.

I am doing more Thanksgiving prep here. I made tons of turkey stock last night and today making an herb butter to put under the skin of the turkey.

I still need to get in the holiday spirit!

[cowgal]

Thursday 15th November

nice!

have fun on your trips gals, I wish you could visit me in Tally, could use some hugs right about now!!

Just have a great time, the weather is cool here, but don't know exactly where your destinations are, hopefully sunny and warm, just the same enjoy and relax!!!

to all who are yet to come, feeling a little bit better, think I am going to lose the house and everything now, Mike just called me and left me a voicemail saying I could by 1/2 of the house from him for $75,000, and then have to take over the mortgage and all the bills etc, am frightened, almost feel like calling off the divorce I am that insecure!!

Oh, I wish I was stronger, I am but don't feel so right now, all these threats and fears he is putting in me.....................:upset:

love you all, have great day, will keep close and check in between meetings,

MA, HUGS!!!!!!!:l :l

[amethyst]

Thursday 15th November

Morning y'all.
BB and Beaches, I am sooo jealous. I want to come along...PLEASE!!! Anywhere but here
Ducky, you sound so organized! I am cooking for 8, and haven't even thought about it
I am still doing well with the mods for the most part. It has been almost 2 months on the topa 25mg and all the supps, and have only gone over my limit 2 times. Both of those were waaay less than previous slips might have been. But the tension in my house is so thick you could cut it with a knife. My hubby is in his nothing is going my way, therefore I must control my family mind set. No one can do anything right, and we all feel very picked on and torn at, yet he can't see it. He can only see that we don't love him because we don't "obey" him Where does cr*p like that come from? He KNOWs I am only drinking 1 or 2 glasses, yet still accuses me of being drunk-not from previous conditioning, just because he knows it will hurt. He told me this week that all our kids problems are my fault, that I didn't allow him to discipline them properly as they were growing up. He threw my daughters(she's 9) favorite pajamas away last night-out in the bins by the curb and the trash truck picked them up this morning because she left them on the floor. There was no warning before hand, just BAM. HE has decided that he needs to be a hard a** I guess.
It seems to be an interesting power switch going on. I feel like I am going into my prime, my power, my energy, my ....magic as I am getting a better handle on my drinking. It seems as though he is reacting to it, and me, and is trying to create a persona around him that is bigger than life, more powerful than he really is, somehow. Sounds weird, I know. Whatever it is, I hope he gets over it soon!
Hope all y'all have a great day. I have squared my shoulders, and am off for a mood altering walk, then off to buy new pajamas:H

[amethyst]

Thursday 15th November

Cowgirl-we must have cross posted. I will be thinking of you and sending :l :l

[Lorelei]

Thursday 15th November

Morning All!

I got in late to work today because I felt the need to indulge myself in some extra sleep. Luckily I have a job where I can get away with it. As I progress with my feelings of approval I know that I will be less paralyzed by anxiety and fear and will be able to put in more time and be more productive.

Amethyst, your husband seems to be lashing out in a manner that is very familiar to me. Perhaps he also has approval issues. In my neurotic way of thinking the following process occurs:

1) I demand that you love me all the time with the intensity I need.
2) If you don't love me in that way you don't love me at all.
3) If you don't love me at all my life is terrible and I am a terrible person.
4) I don't want to be a terrible person, so you must be a terrible person.
5) If you are a terrible person you must be punished.
6) Because you have been terrible to me, I must be the one to punish you.

Many people go through this thought process unconciously, I know that I did and still do. It was not until I began my latest course of therapy that I realized what I do and how stressful I can be around. Combine that with the neuroses that other people have and you have a recipe for disaster.

Given that you are the only person you can change, you must work on yourself. You can recommend therapy either solo or couples but I suspect he will be resistant.

Just a few thoughts that sprung to mind when I read the post, I may have more later!

-lorelei

[Prest4time]

Thursday 15th November

Just poppin in to say hello.... lots of unpacking and laundry to do! Its hard to change gears from lying on the beaches of the Bahamas to planning Thanksgiving dinner! I'm watching cooking shows and folding laundry in hopes of getting inspired!

BB --sorry I will not get to see you once again...I should have left you a "note" in the Orlando airport as that is where we flew into last night. I could have hidden it under a chair or something for you....lol!

Beaches, where are you going?

Well gotta scoot... my sister is coming over soon for a visit, and I need to clear some clutter!

Have a great time on your trips gals! Hugs to everyone else.

[Saint Jude]

Thursday 15th November

Mornin' Modsters!
Just a rainy day check in here.

BB & Beaches- Have fun on your trips! How exciting! I'm glad I walked on the beach yesterday...it was definately the calm before the storm.

Lorelei- Must be something in the air. I got up early to let the doggies out, laid back down & was out cold, for a few more hours!

Amethyst- Geez, Good luck with the homefront. A good walk & new PJ's for the little one sounds like a plan... Maybe just the change in the dynamics @ home will take some adjusting.:l

Cowgal- Damn girl. I wish there were something I could do for ya... Have you tried talking to anyone about the legal aspects? Do you know anyone in the law field? It sure sounds like a hostile environment...
Sending Big Hugs.:l :h

Prest4- Well I must say, my heart just bleeds for ya darlin'. You have to do chores now, after being in the Bahamas for a week? AAAwww...LOL
I'll jump the next plane & come help! Hahahaha I have faith, you'll git er done!

Ripple- I want to apologize. If you saw my WTF comment, last night. I was a bit puzzled by your post. Hope you're having a better day.

Lookin' like a lazy rainy day here. Maybe a bit of ab-lounge, stairmaster, & ex-bike... Oh, it might be a good day for hot tub leg lifts @ Mom's... Go fine tune the Turkey day plans...

Have a great day Ya'll!

[Beaches]

Thursday 15th November

Hey all I am off to NC for the week. The kids, hubbie and I are setting sail, so to say, this Sat and we are staying on the coast of NC with my dad.

I need the break and I will be bringing my hypno CD's and some magazines that hopefully I will get caught up on. Why do I even subscribe to half of these? People is one of my favorites however I won't subscribe because I can't give it my full attention.

Ripple, hope you check back in.

xoxox to all.

[Lorelei]

Thursday 15th November

Ack!

For all the good I was feeling earlier today I am now anxious and working myself up into a frenzy. This is so hard. No thoughts of drinking but boy do I want the pain to stop. I feel like a failure at everything....even though I know I'm not...and I'm starting to feel like a failure for not realizing I'm not a failure. Confusing, eh?

[Beaches]

Thursday 15th November

Lorelei, you are not a failure. I think that telling yourself that over and over will help. Think of where you were before and where you are now. You are talking to all of us which is a huge step. Anxiety sucks. Trust me I know.
Find a way to be right with yourself and to calm yourself. Wishing you the best.