Thursday December 6th

[ducky]

Good morning Modsters,

Mary, sorry to hear your surgery was a bit more invasive than they planned. Hope you are walking and driving soon.

Lorelei, hope you are feeling better today. Maybe you got that cry in?

Well the up side of being overweight is that the padding protected me and I am not too sore from my fall yesterday. Ready to make kugel and rugelah (sp?) this morning, after pilates. Then I think I am going to stop cooking until Christmas!

Hope everyone is well.

[sammys]

Thursday December 6th

Morning same old same old off to work I go, MKR hope you are doing good, Lorelei smile today if you can you need it. Judy hows it going with the cleanup???? PP I am so jealous of your weather right now!!! I have visions of Palm trees in my head all winter.

Everyone I say Hello, have to get a move on but each and everyone of you is in my thoughts today.

Sammys

[cowgal]

Thursday December 6th

hi

hope everyone is doing well, I am starting over and turning over a new leaf as they say..........

Wishing all who follow a WONDERFUL Day!!

XOXOXO

Love to everyone:h , kisses and hugs!!!:l

MA

[Lorelei]

Thursday December 6th

Morning All,

I didn't cry last night but I am feeling better today. I slept crappy again, but this time I slept until I woke up. Yeah I'm late for work but hey I can make my own hours, so no biggy. I can smile today and I plan to smile several times throughout the day. Working the emotional stuff out is hard, but hey it's worth it! I am starting to learn that alot of people struggle with the same issues that I struggle with (both on MWO and off) and that I am not some freak of nature. Seeing people find non destructive ways to deal with their emotional crap provides me with hope that I can too. Alcohol abuse is prevalent in my family and I have been beating myself up for many months that I "turned out" like the people that I never wanted to turn out like. Both my brother and Jeff pointed out to me yesterday that I haven't "turned out" like them because I am doing something about it. It took till this morning for the realization to hit me, but I am doing something about it and I can do something about it. Jeff keeps saying "You're better than that". When he first said that I thought they were meant as words of condemnation, but now I realize that they are words of encouragement. I am better than that, I am worth every ounce of energy that I pour into bettering myself. If I spent as much time thinking positive about me as I do negative, my struggles would be much less. Its turning that corner that is rough, but I have my own cheerleading section cheering me on as I work through this crap.

It can be done, I can do it and so can you!

Love,

-lorelei

[Preciouspinot]

Thursday December 6th

Mary, I too am sorry that your procedure ended up being more invasive than you anticipated. I am still always amased at your posts and addressing everyone.

Lorelie, I know what you are talking about in dealing with your emotions. We have become so used to drowning our feelings in alcohol that we don't remember how to deal with them sober and we become overwhelmed easily. Believe me when I say it DOES get better!!

Ok I have to run and deal with 6000 problems here at the office! Be back later!

[Accountable for Me]

Thursday December 6th

Hello Mods! Just a quick note for Lorelie. When I first quit almost a year ago, I was filled with floods of emotions. I remember crying non-stop for about 3 days. Everything came to surface that I had once drowned in the alcohol. It honestly was a good release for me. It does get easier. Just take one thought at a time, if you can. We can't change anything in the past and we deserve to heal and feel mentally well. I wanted to let you know I was thinking of you after reading your post. It does get easier as time goes on. Trust me.

[Lorelei]

Thursday December 6th

Thanks PP and AfM...sometimes I get so overwhelmed and confused that I wish I had a manual on how to feel again.

Interesting observation: When I first stopped my regular binging cycles back in May I thought I would experience some wiehgt loss. As it turns out I did not experience any weight loss. Now after 2 months of therapy and stuggling with my emotional state (and not really trying to diet) I have lost 7 pounds. I don't know specifically what I'm doing differently but I suspect that I am not emotional snacking as much to keep my feelings at bay. I'm not consiously trying to lose weight now, but it is a goal for the future. I'm looking forward to having alot of my emotional baggage out of the way so I can finally focus on eating healthy and exercise.

-lorelei

[Saint Jude]

Thursday December 6th

Hi Ya'll.
Been out mending our fences all day. Finally got them good enough for now... hopefuly till the next storm hits. Just so thankful we haven't had the major flooding here, like they have up north...what a huge catastrophe & mess! It's really sad how many people have lost everything.
Had one of the big dogs escape the back yard yesterday, it took me about 1/2 an hour to catch him...even with a box of milk bones!

MKR- So glad to see ya back!:l Sorry the surgery was more extensive than planned. Sending ya healing hugs.

Ducky- glad you didn't get hurt with your fall.

MA- You're sounding really positive:h Love your spirit!

Lorelei- Hang in there. It'll get better. Maybe do some volunteer work near your place... That always makes me feel better.



Hope everybody is having a great day!
Love ya bunches!
Judie