I started to be AF 10/25. I have to admit the first few days sucked. I would come home wanting a drink and forcing myself to find another focus. I knew I had a party on Halloween to attend and I knew there would be alot of drinking. Well we took our daughter trick or treating and then went to the party. I really didn't want to go but my husband already told our friends we would be there. Anyway I started out drinking water, then a soda then I had a couple of beers. I knew I wanted more to drink but I switched back to water. It's not easy (although seeing my friend drunk and practically passed out on her lawn chair put a new perspective on not getting smashed, she was pretty funny tho)....I felt really good the next morning. That was an incentive! I haven't had another drink since then and I'm not sure if I will have one tonight but I am learning slowly how to not say "ok, just one more". My dad was a very heavy drinker for years. He was able to function very well like that. He referred to himself as a "professional drinker". He never really seemed drunk (only on a few occasions he had to stay the nite). Anyway he had a heart attack last year then congestive heart failure, he thankfully is still alive. He had to stop drinking immediately his DOC is Lord Calvert loves his Manhattan's. He has not had a drink since last Thanksgiving, had to start a heart healthy class through his hospital. He is so funny he talks all the time about drinking, how he dreams about it, says his low blood pressure is now due to not drinking(which is probably true),he says all his health problems would be fixed with a drink, tells his nurses that he's going out after his classes to tie one on. He says to me that he dosen't know what the big deal is for his stopping drinking. He knows though. For a man to stop like that( he drank all my life and I'm 43) it's impressive. The thing is he had His life in His hands...it WAS a matter of life and death with him. The more I thought about him the more I realized I did not want to eventually get to that point...plus would I be that lucky to survive? Who knows..who wants to know?
Sorry for writing so long I kind got on a roll,
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Sorry for writing so long I kind got on a roll,
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