Hi everyone,
:welcome: Miss Dixie,
Well here I am on my computer at 5 in the morning, having woken early because of over-indulging last night. I have been looking at my tracker record for September. 10 days AF and 6 days moderation. This is WAYYYY better than anything for at least seven years!!!
However, the tracker has made me think:
If I start to drink its hard to stop.
I use weekends as an excuse to get blotto.
I deliberately dont take supps at weekend so I can drink(planned then!)
Its harder to moderate after drinking for several days.
I have a very busy schedule this week so I have decided to try to be AF until Friday but if it works do I continue? Instead of drinking like a fish again at the weekend and starting a new battle next Sunday night.
Sorry to go on. It is the Sunday morning muse obviously!
I will think of you lot instead. Mkr Mary, I think you are awesome. I've been admiring your tracker record all month and with all that you are going through with your parents I don't think you need to worry about one little slip. I just wish I knew how you do it. My dad had cancer for years and it was very hard to get through some days. I remember one time when after working all day and travelling to Christie's Hospital at night and then taking my dad's partner home I was faced with trying to find a late opening chippy to eat. I found one and went in. It was full of pub drinkers. I was behind a huge, tough looking guy with tattoos, scars, body piercings...(you get the idea). He turned and looked at me.
" Don't worry love, It won't always be as bad as it is now," he said and then ordered his curry and chips. Such kindness from the most unlikely looking source.
Must go now. Love to all as always.
Waves 2
xx:h
Loved this, Jude:
"My healthy choice today is to live these twenty four hours as a bright potential untarnished by yesterday..."
:welcome: Miss Dixie,
Well here I am on my computer at 5 in the morning, having woken early because of over-indulging last night. I have been looking at my tracker record for September. 10 days AF and 6 days moderation. This is WAYYYY better than anything for at least seven years!!!
However, the tracker has made me think:
If I start to drink its hard to stop.
I use weekends as an excuse to get blotto.
I deliberately dont take supps at weekend so I can drink(planned then!)
Its harder to moderate after drinking for several days.
I have a very busy schedule this week so I have decided to try to be AF until Friday but if it works do I continue? Instead of drinking like a fish again at the weekend and starting a new battle next Sunday night.
Sorry to go on. It is the Sunday morning muse obviously!
I will think of you lot instead. Mkr Mary, I think you are awesome. I've been admiring your tracker record all month and with all that you are going through with your parents I don't think you need to worry about one little slip. I just wish I knew how you do it. My dad had cancer for years and it was very hard to get through some days. I remember one time when after working all day and travelling to Christie's Hospital at night and then taking my dad's partner home I was faced with trying to find a late opening chippy to eat. I found one and went in. It was full of pub drinkers. I was behind a huge, tough looking guy with tattoos, scars, body piercings...(you get the idea). He turned and looked at me.
" Don't worry love, It won't always be as bad as it is now," he said and then ordered his curry and chips. Such kindness from the most unlikely looking source.
Must go now. Love to all as always.
Waves 2
xx:h
Loved this, Jude:
"My healthy choice today is to live these twenty four hours as a bright potential untarnished by yesterday..."
) - and he is an gambler and will take my money at any excuse ...) - which, tends to get worst when he drinks...... We got into some trouble on Wed night. I drank more than i wanted to, spent way more than i wanted to and got into waaaay more trouble than i wanted to. Put it this way. He is not suffering any repurcussions from this night and I am. BIG TIME. And so I am now trying to deal with the consequences of my actions. He, however, never has to deal with any repercussions. He gets away with everything and then laughs about it. And then because he gets away with everything he can convince himself he doesnt have problems. I dont think this person is good for me and it really saddens me because we have been good friends for a long time...
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