Hello Emily,
I am in agreement that we all metabolize AL differently. One solution or life style does not fit all. My personal situation appears to be different than most that have written on this thread. I am long term moderator that has accepted that is best life style for me. I drink usually between ten and twelve drinks a weeks usually having three at at time when I drink. I never drink before six at night and always stop at three. That being said AL does interupt my sleep pattern and I am not as mentally sharp or emotionally settled at times than if I was AF. A Doctor once told me that the characteristic of an Alcoholic I do not have is that I never binge drink. I am on MWO because I like living life with AL playing a small role and am inspired by people that live AF. I believe because of family and social contacts this best course for me to follow.
In readiing your posts if I were you I would live AF. I sounds like you greatly enjoyed your life without AL in it and opening the door to it again has been very negative overall. I am also a fitness instructor and have a friend that told me "teaching and practicing yoga is her AA". She has a problem with the drink but has now been AF for over four years. If I were in your shoes I would quit drinking and get back to the lifestyle that you long for. There is a great support for you on MWO in monthly and long term abstainers threads.
Best luck to you and I hope I am not being too blunt with my thoughts.
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