THURSDAY, DECEMBER 21st,

[Hawk]

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 21st,

Lush -

Ugh. Vent away girlfriend! I will help you do dishes. It stinks that everything is crapping out at once - I cannot imagine your level of frustration. Take a deep breath....could you do brother's gift in thirds? So he could enjoy it longer? Some in Jan, some in Feb? Some places have no $ down on appliances for 90 days - anything like that out your way? Have everyone pitch in with the chores and try not to do it all yourself. Don't beat yourself up over this. nd Santa can leave notes - he used to leave me some. And I always looked forward to what might arrive! Wine is not really your friend. Sometimes she is fun to be around, but times like this, she makes the daunting even more so. Chin up and take a peek at your daughter - that's a big + in your life. Big, big hugs and positive vibes headed your way my friend.

[Preciouspinot]

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 21st,

Sorry things are such a bummer for you right now Lush. I wish I could come over to your house and help you out. It really sounds like you have your hands full. I just have to cook for everyone Christmas Day and am stressed about that. I can't imagine 3 big meals. In light of the situation, could someone relieve you of the duty of having to do all 3? Remember that kids are just so excited of the idea of Christmas, being with the family and not having to go to school. The perfect gift being there Xmas morning really does mean more to you than it does to her. I swear it! And why exactly do you cook "hundreds" of the cookies for your brother? Can he possible eat them all? Anyway, take a deep breath and relax a bit if you can. I'll be thinking of you!!

Sorry, I haven't posted in a while. We just got back from Disney last night where all 3 of my kids contracted this strange flu/bacteria. They threw up, had fever, diarreah and now have red dots on their face. Doesn't that sound like fun? They are all feeling better but, not great.

I have a party for my patients in 15 minutes but, I'll check back later in the day!

[Quiescent]

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 21st,

Lush, I know he's no Pedro, but he did offer to do the dishes if you provide an apron.:l Attached files [img]/converted_files/163557=293-attachment.jpg[/img]

[Preciouspinot]

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 21st,

Wow everyone was posting at the same time! Allie my heart goes out to you...I hope you feel better. I haven't done that great with my drinking either but, I haven't let it get me down. Like you I can only have so much on my plate and know after the Holidays some changes need to be made.

[lushy]

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 21st,

Well, we are quite the crew today, no? Allie, I am sorry you are hurting. Sounds like a lot of unresolved "crap" from last year is still lurking around. I hope it leaves soon. I hope the other board can help you, although remember they are not as cool and funny as we are! Like PP said, I think a lot of us will be making changes come January. You certainly will be with going to school. You will not have time to drink. And Fan is right, it seems you do set a pretty high bar for yourself. We think you are doing great from what you tell us.

Hawk, I love the idea of giving him the cookies in thirds. And I think that is what I am going to do. And yes PP he eats them ALL. He is super skinny but can pack it away. And he has a real thing for these cookies and I am the only one who has the family recipe. I cannot believe your kids got so sick!!! Is it chicken pox? I am sorry for that.

Rachele, thank you. I know my husband will be tickled pink to have that man come over and "dry my dishes."

Thanks you guys for making me feel better.

[JenniferC]

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 21st,

Allie and others --

My heart bleeds for your pain and struggles.

My heart knows your strength and inner beauty will help you along your path ....

Be well. Be very well.

Jen

[Allie]

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 21st,

Thank you Fan and Lush -- and Lush you even made me smile about the other site not being nearly as cool or funny as we are "over here". I think you are probably right! I have been a "lurker" there (at least I've learned some new words this year) for about a week. I havent even posted yet because I know it will be a process to do so and make me cry like there's no tomorrow. So I'm holding off for now. And I know I cant talk about "this problem" over there -- the drinking issue. All I know is that there are galaxies it seems of secret pain and "over there" they suffer just as much, and I wonder if not more sometimes. I think where I am today is mostly a result of spending hours reading posts on that other site because I couldnt believe how they are right there speaking things I thought was my pain alone. I just read over there and cry, wanting so much for them to tell me all will be okay, but unable to make that first call "help me over here" post. I feel much like Rose in the ending scene of the Titanic where she is clinging to the float and depleted of all of her energy to hang on even as the lifeboats are weaving through the ice to find survivors. It wasnt until the rescue team was abandoning hope of finding anyone alive, was she finally able to in a raspy whisper to scream "help!". But she watched them and could see them long before she cried out. I thought "that"s me" Sadly, I had no idea that I WASNT okay deep down. I thought I had healed. I'm sure I have in ways, but had no idea I needed to be sewn up all over again.

I find it amazing that Lush and Fan think I hold a high bar. Because I always feel like a piece of crap because I am so dependent on everyone here. One day I am laughing and honestly think I'm doing great, and the next I am crying out feeling like I cant make it.

I just need to get through today because I need to hang onto hope that tomorrow will be better.

Allie

[Hawk]

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 21st,

Allie -

I wish I had something to say that would make the hurt go away and make you smile - because you always seem to do that for me - whether you know it or not. Its always very unsettling when things pop up that you thought were resolved or that you had accepted and you find an overwhelming bunch of emotions coming out. Hang in there - it will get better. You will smile again. You will feel good again. You will be an academic marvel and kick butt in school. You will.....do anything you put your mind to. Because you rock. And you have a lot of love and support here.

[Allie]

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 21st,

Mike I just love you. You are so supportive. I can always count on your being close by in a rescue boat. I needed one today.

Thanks Jennifer too....you dont post much, but when you do it is always profound and lifts me up. Thank you again. Thanks everyone..

Oxyclean doesnt work as good on Shiraz stains by the way.

Allie

[InnerStrength]

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 21st,

Hey Allie
Just to let you know, I think you are so wonderful and honestly - i respect you so much and look up to you in so many ways. I always think of you as so beautiful and compassionate and bright and...well, need I go on? I am so sorry you are hurting and I wish I could do something to help you. i too understand how horrible it is to have pain come back that you thought you had dealt with (or at least buried away). I am finding lately that things in the past are really coming back to bite me as well. I wish I could give you a hug. well, here is a cyber one 'cause its the best I can do...
Lusch - I hope your day looks up, my dear. You know I would be there in a second to pick you up, help you bake and do the dishes if I could.
I love you all
Jen

[dilayne]

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 21st,

Hugs Allie!!!!

[lushy]

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 21st,

Allie, go buy Spot Shot. Works wonders on any stain, even red wine. I spilled a bunch of red wine on a gray carpet at a beach house we rented years ago and it worked great.

Thanks for the offer to help Jen. Probably a good thing we do not live close to each other?

[dilayne]

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 21st,

thanks for the well wishes everyong..hugs to everyone..you all are so wonderful...and I too applaud the humaness of everyone here.

Mike, yes, I'm two wisdom toothless now..it wasn't so bad..still packing gauze thought...so saaaaad that the drugs are an anti climatic thrill (Ibupropan 800..woo hoo :0( ...a good thing, I'm sure! So, since I can't have the drugs, I'm asking Santa to take 5 lbs from me! I'm good..just resting today, going to go find a book (FICTION...this is huge for me since I've read so many serious, spiritual/psychology stuff...I need to lighten up!!!)

Saw a funny movie..or it's just me needing a laugh...Fun with Dick and Jane..my husband and I laughed a lot last night.

Anyway, love to you all!

[dilayne]

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 21st,

OK...I see that no one has bitten my last post on Once Upon a Time...I know you have it in you! Has the thread been abandoned and left for Pedro? This CANNOT be!!!

[dilayne]

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 21st,

...I even madea feable attempt to rhyme...come oooooon! :0)